~ Khaye Garcia's Garden Of Temptation ~

お世話になりました！

2011-11-16T13:54:00.001+09:00

"Mommy, Papa...Iro iro to taihen osewa ni narimashita! Hontouni, arigatou Gozaimashita! Kondo, Mata yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!" ---- Nahirapan akong sambitin ng malinaw yan kahit pa ilang beses kong sinubukang imemorized ^^, still, in the end... MARAMING SALAMAT PO mommy, papa at sa lahat ng mga ATE ko na naging as in KAIBIGAN deep in me! Magkaka-kapit bahay lang po tayong lahat that's why I wont gonna say "sayonara"... I dont wanna think that yesterday's the last time we'll gonna see each other coz I hate goodbye's and changes.. thou it's already given!

When I take a look on my first night to be part of you, guys... Kung gaano kalamig mga paa at kamay ko sa nyerbyos that day, sya ring lamig ng paa at kamay ko the moment I've told mommy that.. this is it. My tears almost fell down while me and mommy were talking that night, Friday last week ayt! Those sunken sad eyes... I see hardships, sadness, but as what she have told me --- SHOUGANAI.

Ano nga lang ba naman yung mula Marso ng taong ito hanggang kahapon, ika-15 ng Nobyembre ay nagkasama-sama tayong lahat.. ni pangalan, ni itsura, walang kaalam alam sa isa't isa.. Dun tayo lahat nagsimula di ba?! Nagkakatuwaan, Nagkakainisan... part na un ng mga buhay buhay natin but still.. in the end, we're still ONE! Pero syempre -- exept dun sa ONI! lol.....

Despite of that... I'm soOo grateful to have met and be with all of you there in BiniBini. may mga fouls rin ako, and I admit that, kahit pa... naging maganda ang turing ninyong lahat sa akin. And hindi yun masusukat sa dami ng tinapay na pinakain niyo sa akin tuwing gutom ako kung hindi sa mga tawanan nating lahat kahit pa alam nating may mga kaniya-kaniya tayong problema sa mga buhay natin, sa mga ngiti na ipinakita ninyo sa akin mapatotoo man o hindi, naging masaya ako sa piling ninyong lahat ( and of course, exept dun sa ONI). Trabaho ang ipinunta ko sa inyo... Sinuklian ninyo ako di lang suweldo kung hindi pati na rin ng PAGKAKAIBIGAN! Isa sa mga rason ko kung bakit nahirapan akong magdesisyon but... Sana... maintindihan ninyo ako. huhuhu

I'm soOo sorry to leave you all sa ganitong panahon pa...I really am soOo sorry po

I'm not gonna change... routine ko malamang magbabago pero, ako pa rin to minnasan ha! Sana kayo rin sa akin ^^,

Sana, pag magkita kita tau ulet, anywhere, accidentally, unplanned or so... We'll still gonna smile, laugh, chika-chika, hug, biruan like we always does... did. I'm gonna miss you, all! I love you mommy! ate emy! ate lisa! ate mikz! ate rose! jaz and kahit di ako marunong ng salita ni tisay.. Salamat sa inyong lahat!!! oOopPpsSss.. PAPA! kahit natulala ka lang kagabi sa sougei when I thanked you.. apir!!!!

お世話になりました！本当にありがとうございました！また。。。よろぴく！

I've had mixed feelings about what I'm experiencing in my real world before I've fin'lly took a deep breath and sighed and... DECIDED. Things aint workin' too well in my world nowadays. It's been months since I've realized that I've let my world stopped from spinning... I've let my own self to get used with what's already infront of me, same routine everyday, same challenges, same hopes and same beliefs. I've ignored (thou, I've already felt this and thought about this before) the clear vision of what surrounds me accepting the fact that on some point... I'm still surviving!

But suddenly, particularly lately... my life's gettin worse every time I wake up and see what's around me. I couldn't see anything "NEW"... I couldn't see "GROWTH"..... I can't barely see "LIFE"!

FEAR!

I'm already used with my daily routine and with people i've been with for months! I'm afraid for the fact that CHANGES comes and even my shadow will become "unrecognizable" to those who have a special position deep in me. I'm afraid of the consequences of my decisions. I cannot take people's embarrassment if I talk or act what they don't want, didn't like. I always been like this.. I dont want others to get mad on me or get problems because of me, I always wanted to give pleasure to anyone close to me because of those facts.

*sigh*

I'm still alive!

Yesterday, November 15, 2011, was my last day of work in BiniBini.

Looking and searching for brighter future ahead of me...

God.. Please.. guide me!

YUKATA MATSURI 2011

2011-08-08T16:39:00.129+09:00

I've been again MIA nowadays online ei!!!

'nyways...

What's the newest thing about me?! HmMm...

Since last Saturday (8/6/11) I've woke up as early as I could to prepare myself for this year's yukata matsuri which was held in our working place. Wondrin' what Yukata Matsuri means?! Howell...

* Yukata (浴衣 << written in Japanese Kanji) was derived from the word "YU" which means, bath(ing) and "KATABIRA" meaning, under clothing.

* A yukata is a Japanese garment, a casual summer kimono usually made of cotton.

* A cotton sash is usually worn with the yukata for casual daily or nightly wear. In attending festivals and public occasions, the yukata is worn with a wider belt, which can be simply wrapped around the waist and tucked in at the end. For a more formal appearance, the yukata is worn with an obi belt, along with a matching geta (wooden sandals) and purse to complete the attire.

* People wearing yukata are a common sight in Japan at fireworks displays, bon-odori festivals, and other summer events.

* yukata literally means bath(ing) clothes.

* Generally speaking, the differences between a kimono robe and a yukata robe are in fabric – kimono are generally made from silk while yukata robes are usually made from cotton or synthetic fiber - and also, yukata’s are unlined unlike kimono. Although different, these two cultural symbols of Japanese clothing both employ obi – a sash or belt- and geta - elevated thronged sandals.

Enough for a looooong definition of a Yukata Matsuri! lol

Here are some of the photos during the event at my work with my friends and co-workers.

What other people knows, me with our "mama san"... our mommy @ work =)

.... and my collage for my photos for our yukata matsuri this year ^^,

Howell, I guess, I've already explained why I've been inactive for how many days (again); first, because of the yukata matsuri @ work.... second, obviously... slept and rested after that event... and lastly, third... because of these stuffs I've made for my friends.. my family.. my co-workers.. everyone... To hopefully enjoy, like what me and my friends were last Saturday. I was soOo excited before that day, although some of my co workers weren't, but we've made our yukata matsuri a one hella' Saturday Yukata Festival =) But shHhh.... Right after that night.. when i arrived home, I didn't have enough energy and time to took a shower before i slept!!!! soOo tiring... but happy evening indeed!!!!

BB Yukata Matsuri '11 - flash slideshow maker

After soOo many years, coz of this yukata matsuri... I've tried to make a slideshow of the event... I've missed my moviemaker from my old pc T.T

Anyways... Thanks mommy, sa mga ate ko, ke bunso...

Kanpaii!!!!

^^,

The Big Bad Wolf: Gaikokujin Gyaru by KG

2011-08-02T03:42:00.001+09:00

I... Proudly Present to all the people on net...

I've been lost.. been found...

And for the opening....

New stage on Khaye Garcia's life....

I've met... became friends...well, sistah! as I may say...

My co-FHM BullBoarder

http://thebigbadwolf-pamgotcrazy.blogspot.com/

My gorgeous PAM!!!

Aside from her knowledge that I'm that busy, online and real life...

Oh geezz... I love her!

ahahha...

I'm gonna let you know how creative and artistic and talented aside from her beauty and hotness and wittyness...

I share with you what my loving sis did for me...

I'll try to write more about this blog on my next update!!!!

It's 3:49am here already so...

'em gonna take a rest first!!!

Nayt' ya'aLL!!!!!

mmuuaaahh!!!

~kG~

The Big Bad Wolf: Gaikokujin Gyaru by KG: "Hi girls! How's life been treating you? :-) I hope you're doing good just like me. I'm really excited right now because I'm so honored to fe..."

kG's biOgraPhy

2011-07-31T19:07:00.001+09:00

Born on the 17th day of April, year 1984 in a little town called Moncda in tarlac City Philippines. The youngest daughter of a elder sister who lives and works in Singapore since 2006 and a elder brother who have three lovable children and a beautiful wife in Tarlac City. Khaye Garcia was born and brought up by her grandmother who's a well-known teacher-principal on one of the schools in Moncada, Tarlac coz on her very young age, her father went abroad to work (JAPAN as an engineer) and her mother went other Asian Countries as well to work. Until one day she just realized that she grew up without them both. But because of the love and affection and respect of the people around her, she grew up spoiled brat,yes.. indeed a grandma's girl! BUT...still has the character and the attitude the way her grandma brought her (strict and wise)

During her school days, she's known all over the campus and the whole town for competing almost all of the school's extra cullicular activities --- quizbee's,essay writing contests, declamation, A-1 child, and drum,lyre,bugle corps competions, dance groups,folkdancing. In her HIghschool life, she doesnt really enjoyed it as much as her elementary days. She had friends, bestfriends but as campus' always has,groups... (well, every year she had to go to the Principal's office ONCE at least coz of "fightings" ) and there, with her grandmom's "label" she always ends up with a smile and starts a new fresh school days again...

A relative who lives in Geneve, Switzerland asked her if she wanted to go in Switzerland, and she did answered YES! ( of course!!! her closest cousin's also lives there!) Made all the papers and docmuents to get there and passport too... BUT... luck's NOT always in her hands.... years passed by and everything left undone.

When she finished her highschool, she didn't think of entering college asap. Her mother brought her to her father's elder sister who lives in tarlac City together with her brother. She didnt wanted to go there for the reason, that the place where she's going has already gossips around the family... but inspite of it, she obediently and faithfully and never regreted it for her life! She laughed, she cried, she experienced a lot more in her aunt's place than anywhere she've been. She has the money, expensive things,food and clothes but everytime night falls... there she was, writing a thing called "diary" saying... "nothing could really compare and buy real happiness. And then decided one day, she have... she must be in School!

She chose to go with her childhood bestfriend in Dagupan CIty to study BSCS (coz of the reason, Dagupans' seafoods and beach!lol)

Years passed.. and she have seen her life with no progress at all, and there's the passport she's holding's expiration date's coming so she decided to use it at least once before it ends.. the easiest way, JAPAN.... She went in a promotion in Angeles, Pampanga and tried her luck to go to japan and be a singer in 6 months. She's not a good singer at all! But because of the promotion, the every day rehersals.. she passed in the audition and got the ARB and BOOM! ようこそ!!!!here comes Japan and... Khaye Garcia on net ;)

Eventhough she promised herself to stay in Japan for only 6 months then go home, her heart didnt let her do that!She have met a guy 2 months mefore her visa expires in japan. To make the story short... She finished her 6 months visa as a entertainer then got married to that Japanese who caught not only her attention but her heart! Her married life didnt end up well, so after 4years of getting married, she've decided to cross a different part and start a new life again (in Japan)

and so on........

Been REBORN but never BAPTIZED

2011-02-15T23:10:00.006+09:00

I can't even remember when was the last time I posted anything here...
It's just that these past few days... weeks... months..years...perhaps!
That I actually a lil bit of confused with my ownself plus the stuffs that I've been crossing each passing day of my life..
I dont even recognized Khaye Garcia's been lost for somehow I couldnt explain how days, months, years have passed and knocking my head down realizes that I'm really have to get out of my shell and spill things out..
I couldnt bear this burden anymore..
Living a life full of struggles and sufferings cant really show the real me
which suppossed to be the happy-go-lucky gal who grew up on a lil town from a not so far away country..
Ive lived and survived for at least 26 years and 10 months
Things still the same..
it just goes out like this
the next day.. still the same
until I see myself going to NOWHERE!
I've enjoyed myself and my life being young
Being the youngest... the-so-called-spoiled-brat.. that was me
The kind of life grown without "a father" but a complete package brought by my grandmom was like living the life to the most!
YES!
I was like that then...
Been done what I've wanted to do...
Had what I wanted to have...
Until the day that my selfishness brought me here, to the place I've never imagined I would be...
The reason why I have to grow without a father
the reason why people have to judge me and my family and looked us that down
but still... here I am... up to now
For these past 7 years of my life living here in jpn I've learned much lessons that I have to decide what kind of life the other world has
It has full of surprises and excitements.... yet... failure for most of the people like me...
People had to judge me with my appearance since then...I'm already used to it
Im suffering with all the stupid decisions I've been making since then
Nothing nor no one to blame tho
For these passed years..
Ive learned how to act with what I wanna do
and learned its consequences...
I had flings... Ive been into relationships and ended not well
I've been married once and got divorced
and I really have learned a lot from it
..... I thought!
Just always been thinking that I'm doing the right thing coz following my heart than thinking a lot about decision making's the best one to choose good or bad
but I'm absolutely WRONG!
Everything happens after I decide something falls out and ends like a TRASH!
As if it tells me that I can't decide for myself for whatever plan or decision I make... I fail
Nothing's perfect
Nor no one's perfect...
I know that
but still...
why does it have to be this way?
Do I have to shout my rants every single day of my failing DAYS?!
or Do I really have to restart my life and go back from where I really have to stay and where I have to start my life all over again?
I couldnt ask anybody
People... yes... people
They're all here and there and everywhere to listen
but would they understand?!
would they really care?!
In my life I hvae been bitter hurt and sacrificed
I know what this LIFE'S all about
Why do I have to tell my hardships to the people when I actually know that we all have our own problems in life?!
I dont wanna run..
I dont even wanna face it..
for the consequences I know...
but what do I have to do?!
As I always been telling myself..
I'm tired and I really wanna go out and live a different path
but here I am... and here I am now...
Few months from now and another year will be added on my youth
or should i say I'm really getting ol but still no lessons learned at all?!
Damn life!
Damn me!

After My Birthday

2009-05-08T07:16:00.001+09:00

http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.0.html

Re: post nyo pic nang dating gf/bf nyo!

Sorry bro pero pass muna ako dito sa thread na to. I think its too personal at parang magiging payabangan thread lang to.

i agree smoking: some forums that i went thru and still on sa una, some people put this topic but then dinidelete rin ng mga MODs i dont think this is a good idea/topic

Eto ex ko. Matapos halukayin ang puri at simsimin ang bango ko sa damuhan iniwan akong parang pamunasan ng paa. Hikbi... hikbi... PSST! (singa)Mapapansin nyo wangkata palang ulam na sa madling araw. (pix ko nilagay )

Hahahahaha... n0 c0mment!

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg649844#msg649844 date=1240139975]di ko kayo inu-obliga na mag post talaga...
at di rin ako nagmamayabang... sa akin lang baka ang gf mo naging gf ko rin... o ang gf mo naging kaibigan ko or pinsan ko or kapitbahay ko or kaibigan ng kaibigan ko or syota rin ng kaibigan ko....
kumbaga... cycle system... hehehehehhehehehe!

yan ba ay nagmamayabang? or isang masama or krimen na post?
di nga natin sinita yung scandal... na ayun sa batas.... ay isang krimen...
di nga natin sinita yung pag post na di naman natin kakilala... di nila alam na andito pala mukha nila!

ang tagal ko na sa espiya.... pinoyspy pa dati! kung nagkakaroon man ako nang pagkakamali... nag aapologize agad ako sa inyo....
pero ito never akung mag a-apologize sa inyo dahil ito'y hindi labag sa batas... o labag sa batas natin sa espiya!
actually yung topic ko... is... hindi pangloloko... at hindi pangyayabang...
ito'y totoo... hindi tulad sa mga ibang topic ngayun eh non-sense.... at nagmamayabang...

ako pa... mahal ko ang espiya... parte na ng buhay ko ito...
kumbaga kayo patungo pa... ako... pauwi na!

hindi nga tayo nahiya.... mukha natin ipi-nost pa natin dito...
kumbaga lahat nang personal o sekreto natin... dito natin inilalahad!
tapos sasabihin natin na "its too personal"...
yeah... its a good idea... dahil hindi ito pagmamayabang o pagsisinungaling...
ito'y totoo!

problema ng puso o personal... dito natin hinahanapan ng kasagutan...
reality kumbaga...
itong sa kin ay isang uri rin nang "reality"!

hindi ako nagpopost para sa maramihang reply....
reply na wala namang kabuluhan....
kung mag react kayo sa post ko.... tingnan muna ninyo ang post ninyo... kung makabuluhan ba...

ok lang sa akin kung delete nyo post ko....

pero tingnan nyo muna kung since kailan kayo naging member dito....
at tingnang ninyo ang sa akin...

peace mga ka espiya....

kaya nga mga veterans na espiya dito... nagmamasid na lang...

dahil sa wala na ngang quality yung mga post dito!
peace!
pero never ko pa rin iiwan ang espiya....!
peace uli!

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nasa trabaho ako kanina kaya hindi ko masagot sagot tong post na to sorry rin if im gonna say this straight... ill try to type as CALM as i can ok...this is it peace!UNA.. the issue about "payabangan" as a thread starter, before posting a topic like this, hindi lang ung sarili mo ang ikinokonsider mo dapat ( tama ba ako o mali, kuya?! ) what OTHERS may say, how people may react if theyll gonna read sumthin like this... it will always OTHERS... hindi yung sarili mo lang... if you think you're not "nagmamayabang" then fine! how about the others? did you see the "replies" here?! do you think those were their real EX's pix?! SECOND.... on every site, every members NOT OBLIGED to post, to share or anything inside the forum. TAO pa rin sila! Tao na may rights to do what they wanna do, either to participate and mingle with his or her co-member or just lurk inside the site And as a public forum, everybody can post what they wanna post, share what they wanna share, do what they wanna do.. some violates forum's rules and regulations, some were not... That's why.. we have people entitled to manage and moderate members actions...AT PANGATLO... the issue isnt about you being a PIONEER of the site.... its about the topic, this thread! What do you mean by saying matagal ka na dito sa espiya, and even before na pinoyspy pa lang... and so?! yun ba ang basehan dito? kung sino ang matagal siya dapat masusunod?! how about us?! na nagsisimula pa lang?! walang wenta na dapat hindi pinakikinggan at pinapansin?! ganun ba ang gusto mong sabihin?! hindi ka magsosoryy since hindi naman ito labag sa batas o sa espiya nobody asks you to do that!so other topics ngayon eh puro mga nonsense at mga nagmamayabang lang pala nice statement from a pioneer of a forum like you! and i guess i dont have to explain or ellaborate why ive said that....kaengga engganyo nga ang ganyang statement para sa mga iba pang myembro ng grupo na sumali at makisama sa mga iba pang myembro sa mga discussions sharing etc etc etc.. nice.. ganda!if you're saying na mahal mo ang espiya at parte na ng buhay mo tothen kung kami eh papunta pa lang eh ikaw pauwi na...para namang gusto kong sabihin.. kung ikaw mahal mo ang espiya at ikaw eh pauwi na...being one of those na bumatikos sa thread na to...hindi lang ang espiya ang mahal ko at parte ng buhay ko!MAHAL KO ANG LAHAT NG NAKAKASALAMUHA KO every minute every second of my life na may internet connection ako!it doesnt matter kung anong site man yan, anong grupo or what... kung pauwi ka man.. ako ang sasabihin ko... DITO LANG AKO AT HINDI AKO PUPUNTA KAHIT NA SAN PA!

hindi nga tayo nahiya.... mukha natin ipi-nost pa natin dito...kumbaga lahat nang personal o sekreto natin... dito natin inilalahad!tapos sasabihin natin na "its too personal"...im basing my reaction hindi lang sa POV ko, kung hindi sa paligid naten.hindi lang dito sa espiya ko nakita ang topic na ganito... and ganyan din reaction syempre ng thread starter... and to say na hindi lang naman ang thread starter ang nakakakita nakakabasa at pedeng magreply sa isang thread.. it's open for the public to share theirs too... and posting such photos like this i guess hindi talaga maganda.ilang debates na nangyari sa ganitong topic... hindi to maganda para sa LAHAT!yeah... its a good idea... dahil hindi ito pagmamayabang o pagsisinungaling... << this is you POV... go and backread from previous replies on this thread... as expected.. what do you see?! mali ba ako?! ito'y totoo!problema ng puso o personal... dito natin hinahanapan ng kasagutan...reality kumbaga...itong sa kin ay isang uri rin nang "reality"!hindi ako nagpopost para sa maramihang reply....reply na wala namang kabuluhan....kung mag react kayo sa post ko.... tingnan muna ninyo ang post ninyo... kung makabuluhan ba... << OH!!!! sorry for my posts are/were NONsense! if thats what you're sayingi wanna react on a post kasi kelangan ng action.. i post kasi nakakaengganyong sagutin ang topic... i wanna share what i know.. ganun lang.. if for you, that's nonsense.. then... ok lang sa akin kung delete nyo post ko....pero tingnan nyo muna kung since kailan kayo naging member dito....at tingnang ninyo ang sa akin...peace mga ka espiya....kaya nga mga veterans na espiya dito... nagmamasid na lang...dahil sa wala na ngang quality yung mga post dito!^^ gaya ng sabi ko.. basehan ba ang pagiging pioneer at being a newbie like me sa mga ganitong community online?Bakit kelangang pati pagiging pioneer mo dito eh babanggitin mo kung ang tutuusin eh ang issue is about your topic! Gusto mo bang sabihin na mga matatagal na myembro lang ang dapat na andito at ang mga newbie na gaya ko eh lurk lang? tagamasid?! We as newbies MUST praise you just because your a pioneer?! ganun ba yon?! Me as a person respects and loves people kasi karapat dapat naman kasi talagang respetuhin galangin at mahalin... NOT BECAUSE sa position nila on anywhere. Lahat ng forums may mga rules and regulations.... nakasulat, nakatatak, nakaannounce yan na bawat myembro ng komunidad eh DAPAT alam! But consider the fact na ang mga nagpapatupad niyan eh TAO ring gaya mo!peace!pero never ko pa rin iiwan ang espiya....!peace uli!
review-hin nga natin....
Quote from: ♣Jabar♣ on April 19, 2009, 04:46:49 AM
Sorry bro pero pass muna ako dito sa thread na to. I think its too personal at parang magiging payabangan thread lang to.
nagmamayabang ba ako? check nga ninyo uli isa-isa mga topic dito?dito sa espiya... ang tinatawag na nagmamayabang eh yung nag post na di naman totong sa kanila...uli... ang sa akin lang baka ang gf mo naging gf ko rin... o ang gf mo naging kaibigan ko or pinsan ko or kapitbahay ko or kaibigan ng kaibigan ko or syota rin ng kaibigan ko....pinapahiya ko ba ang babaeng nasa litrato? ini-insulto ko ba ang babae sa litrato?yeah! nagsasabi ako ng totoo na dating gf ko nga sya!
Quote from: Khaye Garcia on April 19, 2009, 04:57:47 AM
i agree smoking: some forums that i went thru and still on sa una, some people put this topic but then dinidelete rin ng mga MODs i dont think this is a good idea/topic
ganun ba? hindi to good idea? anu pala ang good idea para sa iyo?yung pagpost ng mga katawan mo o mukha mo?alam nyo... di ako naninita sa mga post nyo... bagkos... sumasakay lang ako ...para enjoy... o katuwaan baga...naninita ako kung alam ko na kalokohan o totoong pagmamayabang na di naman totoong sa kanya!wag naman ganyan...kahit ako'y isa sa pioneer dito... hindi ko pinagmamayabang yan... bagkos nakikihalubilo ako sa inyo...dahil doon ako masaya...
Quote from: Khaye Garcia on April 19, 2009, 09:25:08 AM
obviously....pakitingin na lang from previous posts/replies where's dad SG or madC?!
ito uli... gusto talaga nyang pa delete tong topic na ito...bakit? anu ba kasalan ko? baka takot ka lang matalbugan beauty mo? lol!wag sana magalit mga kespiya nating may gusto o may crush kay khaye...medyo nabato lang ako sa kanya... paminsan-minsan nga na lang tayo magpost dito... sisitahin pa na wala namang nilabag sa batas yung topic ko!kahit si sg o madcarabao.... alam nila kung anung klaseng topic to... at ito'y hindi labag sa batas dito sa espiya!tsk..tsk..tsk!tingnan nga natin.... nung magpost si marteniko (marteniko... i lab yo! hehehehe)
Quote from: marteniko on April 19, 2009, 10:19:36 AM
Eto ex ko. Matapos halukayin ang puri at simsimin ang bango ko sa damuhan iniwan akong parang pamunasan ng paa. Hikbi... hikbi... PSST! (singa)Mapapansin nyo wangkata palang ulam na sa madling araw.
anu reaction nya?
Quote from: Khaye Garcia on April 20, 2009, 12:21:09 AM
Hahahahaha... n0 c0mment!
hah! natuwa...! gusto talaga nya... siya lang ang bida!
Fine..y0u w0nt hear anything fr0m me again!ive said my p0int..at wala yang kinalaman sa sarili k0h!what im saying's f0r everyb0dy!Kung ayaw m0ng mapansin ginagawa m0h,fine!as y0u're saying pi0neer/veteran ka dito,s0 i guess y0u kn0w what y0ure d0ing...sana lang alam m0h outc0me nyan

And to tell y0u...d dahil sinabi k0ngHahahahaNo c0mmentSa reply ko fr0m martenik0's p0st eh natutuwa ako!that just means na nkita m0h naman ung p0st nya..palagay m0h yan ba ung sinasabi m0ng t0toong ex nya?we all b0th kn0w hindi..n0w whats y0ure saying?gusto ko ako lagi bida?dang!gawin ny0 gust0 ny0 pero as a member i can react!n0t because of anything such as im veteran here and matagal na ako sa isang grup0..im saying this c0z as a member we can c0ntribute and share ideas...ngaun masita ka, Tsktsktsk

UPDATE LANG PO......

since my last post there @ espiya was i think sabi ko nga after my birthday.... almost a week and few days rin akong hindi nagonline sa espiya but then again... ADIK ako eh.. bumalik ako but iniwasan ko na talaga yung thread na yan nung 2fear.... i read other people's comments on that said thread but i just ignored it.. but this time.. few days ago... MARTENIKO made a new topic

ATTENTION CO-ESPIYA: WHAT CAN YOU SAY?
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,94616.0.html

and then natutuwa akong magbasa basa dun nagiisip isip na rin ako ng maipopost ko when one day i saw 2fear's post

http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,94616.msg658725.html#msg658725

and described me as this

KHAYE... maraming may crush daw sa kanya... pero ako never nag ka crush sa kanya! gusto nya sya lang daw ang bida! joke!

see.... namahinga na ako... nanahimik!!!! tignan niyo na lang kung ano ang sinulat tungkol sa akin.... after what happenned sa thread niya talagang nagsulat pa ng ganyan tungkol sa akin... eh hindi ko naman na siya pinapansin!!!! and yes... puta! when i first saw this new thread ni hindi sumagi sa isip ko na isali sa post ko si 2fear but when i saw his post tas ganyan pa X( PAK HIM! hindi siya nakakatuwa.... ive made my post for that thread and ilang araw or lets say 2 days kong hinang ung reply kong un para sa thread na un kasi pinagiisipan ko kung papatulan ko ba or hindi.... yesterday, dahil na rin siguro sa putanginang bad trip ko.. and sa espiritu ng alak... naclick ko ung "POST REPLY" button... voila!!!! andun na ung reply ko

2fear! ~ ( hindi ko na nga sana ilalagay kaso nilagay niya rin ako sa post niya eh ) gaya nga ng sabi niya.. minsan minsan na nga lang daw siya magpost, papansinin pa! pinansin ko ung post niyang flammable ayan na nangyari sa kaniya, pumuputak putak ng parang puwet ng manok nguso niya!
Quote from: 2fear! on May 02, 2009, 02:21:38 PM
KHAYE... maraming may crush daw sa kanya... pero ako never nag ka crush sa kanya! gusto nya sya lang daw ang bida! joke! akala ata nagpapakyut ako sa kaniya and for his post na gusto ko ako lang ang bida KMA! hindi ko kelangang magpabida kung naturalesa ko ng ganitong umakto sa ginagawa mo tingin mo sino sa ating dalawa ang may gustong maging bida lagyan niyop ng intriga hindi niyo ko masisisi.. base ko to sa mga first PM's and current ko dito sa espiya.. pakikitungo nila sa akin ako nagbase.. now i know iinit ang dugo ng isa jan., sabihan nakita... kung ayaw mong mapagsabihan at kung yan lang ang kaya mo to defend yourself... i pity you..natutuwa ako sau.. of all people... you dont know me and i dont bother to know you either! and you definitely dont wanna know me as well as i dont wanna know you... now.. kugn may problema ka sa akin! sa ganyan mo lang ata kayang sirain sa tingin mo ang pangalan ko.. kung sino ka man.. never heard your name though... kung pioneer k man.. whatever!maluwang ang YM ko ang PM ko... hindi yang putak ka ng putak jan na parang kung sino ka!

ayan.... nagputakte na naman yung 2 fear sabay sagot.... neto!

o diba katuwa tuwa siya...... bad trip na ako sabay sasabihan pa ako ng ganyan!!!!!
tas ng balikan ko ung thread niyang "POST YOUR EX GF's PIX" ba un... sabay sabihin sa mga nagrereply dun na gusto eh magbati kami.. sabi ba naman ganito

Di na ulet sila nagreply, hehe.. Bati na poh kayo... Peace na...Isa na kayo sa mga pundasyon ng ESPIYA...Kumbaga, tinitingala na namin kayo dito....Hindi tamang nagaaway kayo sa isang simpleng bagay na madadaan naman sa magandang usapan...Kaya peace na...Mejo matagal na din ako dito sa espiya. Pinoyspy pa lang eh member na koh, kaya lang, nito lang ako naging active sa posting, hehe.. ( nagpakilala lang poh ) hehePeace na poh....nanahimik na lang ako... kasi mahirap na...ikaw na lang titingin sino tama at mali...wala naman sigurong mali o bastos sa topic na ito?

o diba bongga!!!!! pero di ko na un pinansin kasi nga sabi ko sa thread na un wala na siyang maririnig from me.... but then sa ginagawa niya sa thread ni marteniko.. eto reply ko sa kaniya

OT n aako... sorry po!
Quote from: 2fear! on Today at 01:26:49 PM
ano bang problema mo?! ikaw na rin nagsabi... sobra react ko..bakit, katuwa tuwa ba mga posts mo?!eh anong gusto mong gawin ko?akala mo kung sino ka hamasabihan kang mali ganyan ka magsali salitabakit?ano ba ginawa ko sau?post mo utak mo nagisip ng post mong unni hindi mo cinoconsider ibang tao....tas kung magsalita ka ngayon akala mo kung sino ka!kung ayaw mo sa akin eh di wag!paki ko!kung galit ka sa akinmas lalong PAKI KO!eto lang.... HINDI MO KO KILALA at alam ko sasabihin mo naman wala kang interesPWESINTERES mo palang MANGGA** ng ibang taoat yung ibang tao na yun , ako pa!kung wala kang interes sa akin, then bakit ka pa post ng post ng tungkol sa akin?! weird

at ang galing!!!!! ganda ng sinabi.. tignan niyo...

hahahahahahaha... nahayblad!hehehehehehehehe! galit na galit talaga sya!kaw talaga oh! may joke na nga sa huli... di ka naman mabiro!

dami ng taong nagrereact....

sayang yun thread wag sana masira....

hehehehehe sorry bro... pano kasi tong si kaespiyang khaye...di na mabiro... react agad... may joke na nga sa huli...KUNG SA BISAYA PA... ''tinu-uray naman na imuha day oy!''

i was at work that time so talagang bad trip na bad trip talaga ako.. and i cant control my emotions already i swear... eto post ko

Ung bir0 f0ul na! napansin na yan sa thread m0h...giliw na giliw pa man din ak0ng mgbasa dito kasi kahit pan0 nakakakuha ako ng ideas and i can make images 0f espiya members that i cant get a chance t0 kn0w pers0nally thr0ugh this thread thr0ugh 0ther pe0ples c0mment of h0w they kn0w each other (lagyan m0h na naman ng meaning yan)Ang bir0,nakakatawa!yang ginagawa m0,nunca ak0ng natawa!and i guess y0uve already kn0wn that fr0m y0ur flammable thread pa...but still y0u keep on saying things na para say0 eh biro...Kung entertainer ka ng espiya,then act as one!para sa akin yang ginagawa m0h sa akin hindi kaentertain entertain. Binura k0h mga pix ko sa shameless and private khaye b0ard na sinasabi m0h at ng kung sinumang kaPM m0h na hindi ny0 pinagkakainteresang puntahan..D0nt w0rry,im just waiting f0r SG para mapagusapan namin t0 ng mabuti...para it0 sa ikaliligaya m0h since ikaw na rin nagsabing gust0 k0 ako lagi bida..uulitin ko..NEVER na umab0t sa tukt0k ng bumbunan k0 ang magisip ng mga bagay na ganyan..

And f0r y0ur inf0rmati0n 2fear..hindi tay0 cl0se para BIRUIN m0h ko ng ganyan! kahit nga kacl0se ko na walang ganyanan...kung magbiruan man kami,MAY SENSE!at talagang ang j0ke eh talagang nakakatawa!Niko..s0rry..nakakapanghinayang naman..ang ganda pa man din ng thread m0ng t0h..im s0rry!

And f0r y0ur inf0rmati0n 2fear..hindi tay0 cl0se para BIRUIN m0h ko ng ganyan! kahit nga kacl0se ko na walang ganyanan...kung magbiruan man kami,MAY SENSE!at talagang ang j0ke eh talagang nakakatawa!Niko..s0rry..nakakapanghinayang naman..ang ganda pa man din ng thread m0ng t0h..im s0rry!hehehehehehehe! sino bang may sabing close tayo?sino ka ba para ilusyonan ko?CO-ESPIYA: WHAT CAN YOU SAY?di ba yan ang topic?at ang patungkol sa iyo na sinulat ko ay base sa aking naranasan sa iyo!pasalamat ka pa nga sinali ko name mo sa co-espiya ko nakilala ko!pikon ka pala!sa ikli ng sentence ko about sa iyo...ang sa iyo naman ang taas-taas! kahit may joke yan, hindi ibig sabihin nagpapatawa ako...ang nagpapatawa iba sa nagbibiro! kuha mo?wag maging pikon...............! hindi pikon ang espiya!espiya ka ba talaga?kahit nga si asiong... andaming inaasar yan dito... pero ano reaction ng mga espiya?tatawa na lang kahit minsan masakit... sana ganyan ka!gayahin mo si asiong... sa abilidad niya... imbis di niya intensyon maging bida...nagiging bida siya... sana ganayan ka khaye!naging bida ka lang ata dahil pinapakita mo katawan mo... si asiong kahit di pinapakita ni balahibo niya... nagiging bida siya!wag maging pikon.... di ko type beauty mo!sorry mga tol ha! ot lang! peace tayo!

Eh sin0 ba naman kasi nagsabi say0ng gust0 k0ng magpabida?And sa ginagawa m0 hindi ako magpapasalamat dahil lang sinama m0h ako sa p0st m0h!And ikaw nga magsabi kung hindi nakakapik0n p0sts m0h?

Eh sin0 ba naman kasi nagsabi say0ng gust0 k0ng magpabida?And sa ginagawa m0 hindi ako magpapasalamat dahil lang sinama m0h ako sa p0st m0h!And ikaw nga magsabi kung hindi nakakapik0n p0sts m0h?yun na nga eh.... nagbibiro nga lang ako...kaya ko sinulat yun dahil dun tayo nagkakilala sa pamaraang yun.... inulit ko lang ng pabiro...wag kang maging pikon khaye....magagalit ka lang kung iba-banned ka nang walang kasalanan o ipa-delete mo yung topic mo na wala namang nilabag sa batas dito...alam mo nagsearch ako ngayun lang about sa iyo...nagsumbong ka pa sa website mo patungkol dito... tsk..tsk..tsk...hhehehehehe... pati sa kabila... naghahanap ka nang kakampi...alam ko marami kang kakampi dito...peace na nga tayo! lol!

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nagiging bida ka lang ata dahil nagpapakita ka ng katawan mo Tsktsktsk yung mga nakakausap usap at mga "kaibigan" kahit pa sabihin nating jan ak0 UNANG nakita..alam m0h ba kung bakit hanggang ngay0n anjan pa rin sila f0r me?well..hindi m0 lang ako kilalaLast fr0m mE...s0rry guys!

Tsktsktsk yung mga nakakausap usap at mga "kaibigan" kahit pa sabihin nating jan ak0 UNANG nakita..alam m0h ba kung bakit hanggang ngay0n anjan pa rin sila f0r me?well..hindi m0 lang ako kilalaLast fr0m mE...s0rry guys!yes... sino ka nga ba talaga para mag ka interest ako sa iyo...

To Ms Khaye:i know na masama na ang loob mo about this pero we are all professionals di ba? and lets just keep our composure intact... Losing you here will really be felt not only by me but almost all members of the community...stay with us khaye.. im not syaing this in behalf of the group but coming directly from my heart...To 2fear:kilala na kita bro since pinoyspy days kahit di pa tayo nagkikita ng personal... and i know na biro lang ang mga words mo patungkol kay ms khaye.. bilang isang "kapatid" dito sa espiya, sana naman ay itigil na natin ang mga salita na maaring makasakit sa kapwa natin ka-espiya.. magkakasama tayo dito bilang isang pamilya at sana naman ay magrespetuhan tayo bilang isang pamilya..wala po akong kinakampihan sa inyong dalawa pero sa mga nababasa ko ay ako ang nasasaktan kc sa tagal na natin magkakasama ay dahil lang sa ganito ay magkakasira tayo.. sana ay wag na umabot pa sa ganun.. maraming salamat ms khaye at 2fear...mabuhay ang espiya! (Namster po at your service)
yes namster... good... tama ka...biruan lang naman yung atin dito... sana naman di siya pikon...mabuhay ka namster!sabi ko naman sa kanya... peace na kami!

from incest maverick
padaan lang... incest ang BP mo ha...kasi naman e parang di lalaki talo pa ang babae sa kaprangkahan... kailangan pa ba i post ung SS na yun..babae pa din yang si khaye, whether you like her or not, there are thing that should be left unsaid... if you got something against her tell it straight to her face, hindi yung magpapahapyaw pa...magrereact talaga si khaye pati ba naman kasi yung pm sau post mo pa...di naman mangyayari yung usapan na yun kung di niyo siya pinaguusapan e...yes khaye cant please everyone here... and its clear that you are a part of that group who doesnt like her... even though that is the case do you really need to show that publicly? i dont have any intention of offending you...but im sorry if i would be with this reply...

from fafa ybu akira

let me start by saying that prangka lang ako at nde pikon... mga comments ko ay sarliling opinion nde man tanggap nang iba at least nde ako plastic sa thread starter kudos to you for this topic now... what can i say to: Miss Khaye Garcia: of course i know this lady sa yummypinay days pa nang moderator pa ako dun. kahit si Khaye nasasabihan ko kung may napapansin ako mali (my perception) & she listens naman. although nde pa kami nag me meet here sa net kabisado na namin ang isat isa. we have something in common... Japan based siya at ako naman former OFW sa Japan din with the same line of work with Khaye kaya magaan ang loob namin sa isat isa. I invited her dito sa Espiya kse alam ko mag eenjoy din siya dito. look at her now she is the apple of the eye to some espiyas. you can learn a lot from her, when she speaks she talks with sense & masyadong straight forward & yet down to eartgh din naman. kanpai Khaye chan

from seishiro

hayyzz..@2feareto po opinyon ko lng..kahit po biro lang un.. CO-ESPIYA man sya or HINDE..Babae po yan na mas sensitive compare sa ating mga GUYS.. know when to cross the line..di sa pumapanig ako kay KHAYE.. but masyadong FOUL ung mga sinabi mo na "NAGING BIDA lang sya dahil pinapakita nya ung KATAWAN nya" .Below The Belt na yan.. Kahit galit po tayo is KONTING RESPETO naman po.. BABAE pa din yan.. Saka Bilang LALAKE.. Pagpasensyahan na lng natin..Wala naman Pong Mawawala sa atin kung IINTINDIHIN natin sila .. Saka sa mga nakita ko na POSTS ni KHAYE is wala akong nakita na GUSTO nya na sya lage ang BIDA.. it just happens na ung PAG POSTS nya ng mga PICS nya is kahit papaano naka-entertain sa mga GUYS and GIRLS dito..SAbihin na nating di mo TYPE c KHAYE.. itago mo na lng sana sa sarili mo un.. di na natin nid ipost pa dito..at kung gusto mo na peace na kayo..APPROACH her in a nice way.. Be a GENTLEMAN.. @Khayetake it easy.. ang WRINKLES ha.. bka mamaya di ka maka-work ng maayos nyan.. alam ko dinadamdam mo to especially ung mga POSTS na nabasa mo.. easy ka lng.. oks??
from namster
To Ms Khaye:i know na masama na ang loob mo about this pero we are all professionals di ba? and lets just keep our composure intact... Losing you here will really be felt not only by me but almost all members of the community...stay with us khaye.. im not syaing this in behalf of the group but coming directly from my heart...To 2fear:kilala na kita bro since pinoyspy days kahit di pa tayo nagkikita ng personal... and i know na biro lang ang mga words mo patungkol kay ms khaye.. bilang isang "kapatid" dito sa espiya, sana naman ay itigil na natin ang mga salita na maaring makasakit sa kapwa natin ka-espiya.. magkakasama tayo dito bilang isang pamilya at sana naman ay magrespetuhan tayo bilang isang pamilya..wala po akong kinakampihan sa inyong dalawa pero sa mga nababasa ko ay ako ang nasasaktan kc sa tagal na natin magkakasama ay dahil lang sa ganito ay magkakasira tayo.. sana ay wag na umabot pa sa ganun.. maraming salamat ms khaye at 2fear...mabuhay ang espiya! (Namster po at your service)

from joelanch

kunti palang kilala ko dito sa espiya pero lahat naman ng espiya ay mababait, okay kausap at may respeto sa spygirls.ms khaye - dami na nasabi about sa kanya, pero sa pagkakilala ko sa kanya, maiihambing ko siya sa isang diving spot, dahil kelngan mo siyang sisirin para makita mo ang tunay nyang kagandahanneckromancer - isang magaling na guro na kung sumasagot sa debate eh nagreresearch muna kaya matindi ang arguments na binibitawansi bro ero - isang rakista na hindi mo aakalain matindi ang pananampalataya sa diyosmam laces - mommy ng espiya

ANOTHER ISSUE... khayegarcia

2009-05-08T05:01:00.001+09:00

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Hehehehehe! Hindi naman pre….
According to… dark angel!
So din a sana ako magsasalita!
Pero according din sa marami… katulad na lang kay… queso!
Dahil ako nga ang lalaki… so ako una mag-abot ng kamay…
Pero bago ko iabot ang kamay kay khaye(kung tatanggapin niya!) [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]lemme show you a post from SG and me regarding on the issue on how i get and why im here...[/b][/color][/size]
[quote] from: Seargent General (SG) on January 08, 2009, 02:11:43 AMSo Khaye do you accept his apologies? Just want to know. No pressure. Just let us know when you can forgive and forget. [/quote]
[quote author=Khaye Garcia link=topic=87839.msg558940#msg558940 date=1231336520][color=maroon][font=Palatino Linotype][i]

hmMmm...
sincerity of a person comes from his heart not from his words....
[/i][/font][/color][/quote]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Ito muna sasabihin ko sa inyo…
Tagay muna!
Ok… first of all (hehehehehehe)
Sa di pa nakakaaalam kung paano kami nag kabangayan ni khaye!
Uumpisahan ko…
Nung nag post ako ng topic na pinamagatan na “post nyo pic nang dating gf/bf nyo!’’ …. Check: http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.0.htmlito reaction nya:
Nabato ako… kasi gusto niya ipadelete yung ginawa kong topic….
Ang tanong ko… ano ba nagawang labag sa batas natin dito sa espiya ang topic ko! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]smoking:: hindi mo ata binasa post ko about this... or hindi mo lang inintindi?! IT'S NOT ABOUT THE RULES OR LAWS OF ESPIYA!!!! the thing is, its not a good idea/topic because it has the tendency na magkainitan magkasagutan or maging katatawanan lang yung thread. And if im not mistaken, from first posts, im sure youve seen how members posts on that thread, i just dont want that to happen for ive seen topics SAME like yours on other forums and ive seen what happenned.. and AYAW KONG MANGYARI YON DITO SA ESPIYA![/b][/color][/size]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Sino ba siya para ipa-delete ang topic ko… at di ko naman ino-obliga na may magreply… nasa sa inyo na rin kung trip ninyo magreply! [quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]do you have to be SOMEBODY to tell what's RIGHT and what's WRONG on topics like that?! and as i analyze your post on this... AGAIN, you're saying that you're a PIONEER and we, well me, as an ORDINARY NEWBIE MEMBER here in espiya has NO FREEDOM to tell that sumthing's not right or wrong?! tsk tsk tsk....
i got this from someone i know, telling me what a PIONEER means...[/b][/color][/size]
[quote]r*****0027 (2009/05/07 4:03:04): ung pioneer kamo he must know what is better he must give wayr*****0027 (2009/05/07 4:03:22): great powers comes with greater responsibilitiesr*****0027 (2009/05/07 4:03:55): ako founder ng jive,wyldnation,vivid at isa sa mga pioneer ng mtc pero ni isang tao nde ako nanagasar*****0027 (2009/05/07 4:04:06): manggahasa pede pa [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon]well, i know we all have our own ideas and thoughts about what's a real PIONEER means... [/color] [/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Pinapa-compare ko pa nga yung topic niya sa topic na ito… kung kanino ang may sense![/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]hmMmm.... now you're saying DIRECT ON ME ON THIS THREAD!!! knowing the fact that YOU DIDNT PINPOINTED ANYONE FROM YOUR ORIGINAL POST... kasi from that post of yours on that thread... youve said it for GENERAL!
CHECK THIS OUT >>> http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.msg649844.html#msg649844[/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg649844#msg649844 date=1240139975]di ko kayo inu-obliga na mag post talaga...at di rin ako nagmamayabang... sa akin lang baka ang gf mo naging gf ko rin... o ang gf mo naging kaibigan ko or pinsan ko or kapitbahay ko or kaibigan ng kaibigan ko or syota rin ng kaibigan ko....kumbaga... cycle system... hehehehehhehehehe!yan ba ay nagmamayabang? or isang masama or krimen na post?di nga natin sinita yung scandal... na ayun sa batas.... ay isang krimen...di nga natin sinita yung pag post na di naman natin kakilala... di nila alam na andito pala mukha nila!ang tagal ko na sa espiya.... pinoyspy pa dati! kung nagkakaroon man ako nang pagkakamali... nag aapologize agad ako sa inyo....pero ito never akung mag a-apologize sa inyo dahil ito'y hindi labag sa batas... o labag sa batas natin sa espiya!
[b]actually yung topic ko... is... hindi pangloloko... at hindi pangyayabang...
ito'y totoo... hindi tulad sa mga ibang topic ngayun eh non-sense.... at nagmamayabang...[/b]
ako pa... mahal ko ang espiya... parte na ng buhay ko ito...kumbaga kayo patungo pa... ako... pauwi na!
hindi nga tayo nahiya.... mukha natin ipi-nost pa natin dito...kumbaga lahat nang personal o sekreto natin... dito natin inilalahad!tapos sasabihin natin na "its too personal"...yeah... its a good idea... dahil hindi ito pagmamayabang o pagsisinungaling...ito'y totoo!problema ng puso o personal... dito natin hinahanapan ng kasagutan...reality kumbaga...itong sa kin ay isang uri rin nang "reality"!
[b]hindi ako nagpopost para sa maramihang reply....
reply na wala namang kabuluhan....
kung mag react kayo sa post ko.... tingnan muna ninyo ang post ninyo... kung makabuluhan ba...
ok lang sa akin kung delete nyo post ko....
pero tingnan nyo muna kung since kailan kayo naging member dito....
at tingnang ninyo ang sa akin...[/b]
peace mga ka espiya....
[b]kaya nga mga veterans na espiya dito... nagmamasid na lang...
dahil sa wala na ngang quality yung mga post dito![/b]
peace!pero never ko pa rin iiwan ang espiya....!peace uli![/quote]
[color=maroon][size=12pt][b]dont worry, aside from changing the font size and making it in BOLD letters , i didn't changed a word from your original post![/b][/size][/color]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Maliban sa walang ginawang labag ang topic ko… wala pang ginawang kabastusan yung topic ko… may katotohanan pa yung topic ko!
Nung may nag reply sa topic ko… ano uli reply nya?
Nag sumbong pa kay SG at madc na gusto talaga niya ipadelete yung topic na iyon… [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]YOU JUST DONT REALLY KNOW ME!!! ( and i know sasabihin mo na naman na wala ka lang interes na makilala ako) before me taking actions on such issues like this, i always consider people like madC and SG who has the rights.. all the rights doing actions like moving, moderationg, merging, locking, even deleting posts/topics like this! me as ive said as an ORDINARY NEWBIE MEMBER of the group all i can do is post! ive called for them coz i want to know what they think about issues like this, NOT BECAUSE I WANTED IT TO BE DIRECTLY AND AUTOMATICALLY DELETED! i want to hear their sides of comments, their POV's. I NEVER ASKED FOR ANYTHING TO ANYONE TO DO WHAT I WANT AND GIVE WHAT I WANT... people knows that i love listening on what others sayings and opinions. kung si fafa yubi nga, ilang taon na kaming magkakilala? ilang beses na rin niya akong napagalitan, but i listen! si SG nga, napapalo pa ako sa pwet kapag nagkakaganito ako! at ilang tao na rin ang nagsasabi ng kung ano ang mali sa akin and kung ano ang tama, i listen! pero kung tama naman ako, I HAVE ALL THE RIGHTS TO FIGHT WHAT I KNOW IS RIGHT FOR I HAVE MY REASONS!!!!! kung walang rason, nobody can see me like this![/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg662811#msg662811 date=1241621081]Kaya ito ang react ko sa kanya!...
Andami niyang react pagkatapos…. So on and so on…..
Blah… blah… blah! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]for clearer.. this is the direct link of your post
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.msg650526.html#msg650526
have you read your own reply? [/b] [/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg650526#msg650526 date=1240216412][b]ganun ba? hindi to good idea? anu pala ang good idea para sa iyo?
yung pagpost ng mga katawan mo o mukha mo?[/b]
alam nyo... di ako naninita sa mga post nyo... bagkos... sumasakay lang ako ...
para enjoy... o katuwaan baga...
naninita ako kung alam ko na kalokohan o totoong pagmamayabang na di naman totoong sa kanya!
wag naman ganyan...
kahit ako'y isa sa pioneer dito... hindi ko pinagmamayabang yan... bagkos nakikihalubilo ako sa inyo...
dahil doon ako masaya...
ito uli... gusto talaga nyang pa delete tong topic na ito...
[b]bakit? anu ba kasalan ko? baka takot ka lang matalbugan beauty mo? lol![/b]
wag sana magalit mga kespiya nating may gusto o may crush kay khaye...
medyo nabato lang ako sa kanya... paminsan-minsan nga na lang tayo magpost dito... sisitahin pa na wala namang nilabag sa batas yung topic ko!
kahit si sg o madcarabao.... alam nila kung anung klaseng topic to... at ito'y hindi labag sa batas dito sa espiya!
tsk..tsk..tsk!
tingnan nga natin.... nung magpost si marteniko (marteniko... i lab yo! hehehehe)
anu reaction nya?[b]hah! natuwa...! gusto talaga nya... siya lang ang bida![/b][/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]now, put yourself on my shoes..... SOMEBODY who BARELY KNOWS YOU posted stuffs like this JUST BECAUSE OF SAYING THAT SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH HIS POST? tell me what you'll gonna feel and how you'll gonna react if somebody tells you THESE SH**! NOBODY CAN BLAME ME IF I REACTED THAT WAY![/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg650526#msg650526 date=1240216412]Tapos ito sagot ko sa kanya…
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.30.html
according to haller you!
Yup tama siya!
Ok..ok..
Tapos na yung usapan na iyon….
So dito naman tayo sa ginawang topic ni kaespiyang MATERNIKO!
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,94616.0.html
dahil sa topic na ito… nag reply tayo base kung paano natin nakilala ang kapwa natin kaespiya!… [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]howell, kung hindi mo napansin ( and im pretty sure all you'll gonna say is wala kang interes pang malaman or pansinin ) i took a leave ( let's say namahinga ako ) after what happenned on your thread for almost a week and few days... i wanted to calm down... and i even posted there that YOU'LL NEVER GONNA HEAR ANYTHING FROM ME AGAIN!
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,93929.msg650572.html#msg650572
when i came back, GOD KNOWS HOW I TRIED MY BEST TO IGNORE THAT THREAD and even you 2fear!coz i dont wanna get into a thread.. sa ISANG thread, wherein the TS talksh*ts (who barely knows me) about me. kung meron man siyang pinangangalagaang "NAME" as a "PIONEER" of espiya, all i can say is MAS AKO! ive been trying to choose the best words for others to be viewable, and as what i am right now, knowing my ownself, i can't control my anger for i talk soo direct and frank! but what i did was ignored it!
so upon browsing again espiya, tried to be same KHAYE GARCIA used to know, i saw markteniko's thread, and i really had fun reading from other members posts, i even had another browser for my reply on that thread ( and wala ka sa intensyon kong ilagay sa post ko!!! ) but UNEXPECTEDLY you've posted and described me SAME as what OUR ISSUE from your own thread! nahanda na ang papel at apoy... sisindihan na lang.. and yet... SININDIHAN MO! hindi mo lang sinindihan ng apoy... dinagdagan mo pa ng papel kahoy pati gas pagkatapos sasabihin mo ang lahat eh BIRO?! smoking:: what the hell are you talking about?! ??? [/b] [/color] [/size]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg650526#msg650526 date=1240216412]tulad na lang nito kay neckromancer :
quote author=neckromancer link=topic=94616.msg658307#msg658307 date=1241170826]
Si madcarabao sa di nakakaalam, the-rapist din. :)
Di ba yung rapist eh masakit na salita…? Pero alam natin… na yun ay isang biro!
Ito rin tingnan nyo…
Lahat na yan ay biruan… [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]DONT YOU EVER COMPARE ME WITH THESE PEOPLE WHO KNOW EACH OTHER UNLIKE US!
obviously, these people has been talking, might be friends, well basically because they already know each other. it's possible that this is the way on how they joke with their friends!.... that we're not![/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg650526#msg650526 date=1240216412]Tulad na lang nung biro k okay khaye….
Ang reply ko ay purely biro na walang intension… [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]BIRO ~ SCAPEGOAT
re~read all your replies on my posts!!!! you've already posted FOUL AND BELOW THE BELT about me then after that sasabihin mong BIRO UNG MGA YON?!! [/b] [/color] [/size]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=93929.msg650526#msg650526 date=1240216412]Paano ba kami nagkakilala ni khaye…
Di ba sa topic na ginawa ko? Paano kami nagkakilala…Tulad din ng sinabi ko…
Yun ay walang kahulugan… [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]kung walang kahulugan yan eh di sana hindi ako nagrereply ngayon dito? kung walang kahulugan yan eh di sana hindi tayo nagkakapalitan ng salita sa 3 threads na!kung walang kahulugan yan eh di sana hindi ako namahinga for days dito sa espiya?kung walang kahulugan yan eh di sana walang ibang taong maaapektuhan?kung walang kahulugan yan eh di sana hindi nanlalamig ang mga kamay at paa ko sabay pananakit ng batok ko at nanginginig at nanggagalaiti sa galit sa mga posts mo?
now tell me.... wala bang kahulugan yang mga pinagsasabi mo sa akin?![/b][/color][/size]

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[quote author=Yubi Akira link=topic=94905.msg663477#msg663477 date=1241689981]mukhang nde na matatapos to. pareng 2fear mas lalo mo lang ginagawang sarcastic ang issue sa inyo ni Khaye ginagawa dinadaan mo sa biro ang lahat wala sa yo ang sinseridad. pakiusap lang kung pwede wag na sa thread magsagutan? meron naman kayo pm dun kayo magsagutan nang nde nababasa nang mga ka espiya, pwede ba yun? daming sumasakay at nakikisawsawa sa issue. yun eh pakiusap ko lang naman.[/quote]
[color=maroon][b]i offered him my inbox and my YM already fafa yubi.... from 2fear's thread wherein the fire has already been started, up to ive decided to lie low... then seeing him post same post from his post on Marteniko's thread, ive already told them that!
http://espiya.net/forum/index.php/topic,94616.msg660852.html#msg660852[/b][/color]
[quote author=Khaye Garcia link=topic=94616.msg660852#msg660852 date=1241454601]2fear! ~ ( hindi ko na nga sana ilalagay kaso nilagay niya rin ako sa post niya eh smoking:: ) gaya nga ng sabi niya.. minsan minsan na nga lang daw siya magpost, papansinin pa! smoking:: pinansin ko ung post niyang flammable ayan na nangyari sa kaniya, pumuputak putak ng parang puwet ng manok nguso niya! smoking::
akala ata nagpapakyut ako sa kaniya ;D :D ;D and for his post na gusto ko ako lang ang bida ;D KMA! :D ;D :D hindi ko kelangang magpabida kung naturalesa ko ng ganitong umakto :P sa ginagawa mo tingin mo sino sa ating dalawa ang may gustong maging bida :P

toast::
lagyan niyop ng intriga smoking:: hindi niyo ko masisisi.. base ko to sa mga first PM's and current ko dito sa espiya.. pakikitungo nila sa akin ako nagbase.. now i know iinit ang dugo ng isa jan., sabihan nakita... kung ayaw mong mapagsabihan at kung yan lang ang kaya mo to defend yourself... i pity you..natutuwa ako sau.. of all people... you dont know me and i dont bother to know you either! and you definitely dont wanna know me as well as i dont wanna know you... now.. kugn may problema ka sa akin! sa ganyan mo lang ata kayang sirain sa tingin mo ang pangalan ko.. kung sino ka man.. never heard your name though... kung pioneer k man.. whatever![size=12pt][color=maroon][b]maluwang ang YM ko ang PM ko... hindi yang putak ka ng putak jan na parang kung sino ka![/b][/color][/size]
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[color=maroon][b]and what did i get from 2fear?! smoking::[/b][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94616.msg661144#msg661144 date=1241479609]hahahahaha! ang daming word patungkol a akin! ;D ;D ;D
talagang tagos ahanggang dibdib yung mga salita ko patungkol sa kanya! toast:: ;D ;D toast::
sobrang react nya! ;D ;D ;D
di na kailangan mag padala ako ng mensahe sa ym mo.... wala akung interest! ::) ::) ::)
baka sabihin ng iba... cheap ako! hehehehehehe! joke!
daming nag pm pala sa akin about sa kanya! hehehehehehe! never mind na lang! ;)
sample sa isa... marami sila! hehehehehehe!
[/quote]
[color=maroon][b]dinaan pa ako sa bisaya ( or whatever language that is smoking:: )
WALA SA BOKUBULARYO KO ANG MAHALIN AKO NG LAHAT NG TAO!!!!!!
for i believe in saying, that YOU CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE!!!! toast:: bow[/b]

[i]im so sorry about this fafa yubi, you again have the reason to scold me and spank me too! ::)[/i][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]so sa madaling salita... ayaw talaga niyang tanggapin yung pakikiabot ko ng kamay... ??? ah ok no probs...
sinama pa niya yung kay quote ni jabar... eh iba naman yung issue namin ni jabbar about "pagmamayabang"
sinagot ko na si jabar... so nanahimik si jabbar... yun ang maganda... [/quote]
[color=maroon][b]nilagay ko lang at pinagtagpi tagpi ko ang lahat kung san nagsimula at kung pano TAYO NAGKAKILALA.. yan eh ayon na rin sa pagkakasabi mo! na..... HINDI MO NAMAN IPINALIWANAG NG MABUTI SA FIRST POST MO DITO SA THREAD NA TO! remember? nilagay mo lang ung mga replies ko sa posts mo regarding sa akin?! pano mo naman nasabi sa post mong yun na gusto mong ipaalam sa lahat ng tao ang TOTOONG nangyari kung.... HINDI NAMAN BUO ANG ISTORYA MO?!
do you know whats the reason why jabar stayed quiet on that thread and on this issue?! smoking:: KASI SINAGOT MO NG MAAYOS NA HINDI OT AYON SA MISMONG POST NI JABAR ANG REPLY MO SA KANIYA!!!!!! which....... HINDI MO NAMAN GINAWA SA PAGREPLY MO SA COMMENT KO PARA SA THREAD MO!
do you think this wont stay for days or weeks if you've just posted a comment regarding on an issue...as in ISSUE ABOUT ME SAYING THAT YOUR TOPIC's FLAMMABLE?!
unfortunately, you've said things.... LOT OF FOUL AND BELOW THE BELT ABOUT ME!!!!! not only on ONE THREAD but now... THREE! do you still wanna know how many posts have youve been posted about me since THIS started?? i can count them all for you for this issue's been affecting my whole and entire life.... NOT ONLY my internet life but ME, as a WHOLE!
people has been affecting too because of this, people has been telling me to JUST IGNORE YOU!!! but hey!!! KA-IWAS IWAS BA MGA POSTS MO ABOUT ME?! dang if people here in ESPIYA admires you or look up to you... MAS MAY PINANGANGALAGAAN RIN AKO.. not only because im a woman, not ONLY because im Khaye Garcia... im trying to wake you up that no matter who you are on wherever you are... YOU DONT HAVE ANY BIT OF RIGHT TO TELL THINGS THAT WILL GONNA HURT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU!
know your topic...know the issue...no out of topic replies...
you've been here since when again?! smoking::
[color=pink]Date Registered: February 07, 2005, 04:15:49 PM [/color]
a PIONEER... i hope you know what that means!
what's our issue again?! yung una.... about your topic na pinansin ko?! and how did you defend yourself? posting SH** about me on THREE THREADS![/b][/color]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]ang sa amin ni khaye.... ang issue is... gusto niyang ipa delete yung topic ko... yun lang ang issue...
tinawag pa niya attention ni sg at ni madc... na... gusto talaga! (talagang-talaga) ipa delete yung ginawa kong topic dahil non-sense daw.... [/quote]
[color=maroon][b]now nagiba ang hangin.. smoking::basahin mo na lang ung mga replies hindi yung sugod ka ng sugod ng hindi mo alam pinagsasasabi mo!
see... pinadedelete ko ung thread... yan lang ang issue! <<< ikaw na rin nagsabi!!! YAN LANG ANG ISSUE!!!!!!
gaya ng sabi ko... ano ba mga pinagsasasabi mo tungkol sa akin? ABOUT BA YAN SA PAGPAPADELETE KO NG THREAD MO? OR ABOUT BA YAN SA THREAD MO?
as what ive been saying.... RE-READ YOUR POSTS!!![/b][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]inu-ulit ko.... check mo nga lahat ng topic dito?
[b]kahit sinong kaespiya mo dito.... kung ipapadelete mo yung topic na ginawa niya na walang nilabag ....
natural lang na magre-react... o di kaya'y aalma sa comment mo na ipa delete[/b] dahil non-sense kuno...
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]^^ i know exactly what you mean! i know how you feel IF THAT'S THE ONLY CASE!!!! isang case na naman na NANGYARI RIN DITO BEFORE and hindi ko na rin io-open up pa un!!!! what the reason why im like this is because of your posts..... NOT CONNECTED ON THE TOPIC THAT YOU THINK THAT IM ORDERING SG AND MADCARABAO TO DELETE!!!![/b][/color][/size]

yes.... ok lang tawaging non-sense... wag lang idelete! alam naman natin na karamihan sa topic natin dito ay no-sense! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]alam mo bang araw araw, every minute.. binabasa ko lahat ng posts regarding on this issue?! halos memorized ko na mga lines ng bawat posts!!!! and for you on this post..... WATCH YOUR WORDS!!!
who the dam* told you na sinabi kong NON SENSE ang topic mo?! WHERE THE HE** DID YOU GET THE IDEA THAT IVE SAID THAT?!
ang topic mo, wala akong personal na galit or inis or whatsoever!!!! ang sa akin ( again, paulit ulit na lang kasi HINDI TUMATATAK SA ULO MO PINAGSASABI KO, what only matters is yang pinuputok ng butchi mo) ang sa akin, HOW PEOPLE WILL GONNA REACT AND POST THEIR COMMENTS REGARDING WITH YOUR TOPIC!!!! nako.... kung ako lang tatanungin, abah eh syempre popost ko rin mga pix namin ng mga ex ko!!! bnana keber ko sa mga posts ng ibang member!! eh wala naman akong balak kilalanin mga EX nila! their ex's not here!!!! mine too!!!!! so ano ngayon, right? but that is MY OWN OPINION!!! hindi ako takot kahit pa ilagay ko sandamakmak na litrato ko with my ex, kasi akin un eh..... and im ready for the consequences from my actions!!!! BUT.... the thing is... hindi lang ako ang taong nakakakita, nakakabasa AT MAY KARAPATANG MAGPOST sa thread na yun... at HINDI KO SINABING NON SENSE ANG TOPIC MO!!!!! ang sinabi ko eh hindi magandang idea/topic yun!!!!!! FLAMMABLE!!! so before the fire starts, dapat patayin na ung usok!
eh IKAW NGA NAGSABING NON SENSE ANG MGA POSTS NGAYON DITO DIBA!!! and you directly posted that FOR ME!!! dito rin sa thread na to... REMEMBER?!
tsktsktsk... nagiiba na posts ah... smoking:: na naman![/b][/color][/size]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]kumbaga may usapang kanto o di kaya'y usapang barbero... may usapang katotohana din (yun ang maganda)...
at may magshe-share... yun ang masaya!
lahat yan pinapaguran namin sa kaiisip kung anu ba magandang topic ang gagawin namin...
kahit non-sense yan... pag may magreply... isa o dalawa... malaking bagay na yan...
yan ang nakakagana magpost dito... nakakataba ng puso!
pagpinapa delete mo yan... natural lang talaga na aalma ang topic starter!
yan ang dahilan kaya tayo nandito sa espiya! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]NAMIN?! ???
bakit NAMIN? sino sino lang ba ang ESPIYA dito? hopefully you've posted sumthin like TAYO for we are STILL ON T HE SAME ROOF!
and you dont have to tell me that everybody's thinkin the best of what they can give for the group....im not a lurker, im not that NOOB...... newbie man ako sa paningin MO![/b][/color][/size]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]pangalawang issue...
nagalit iya sa sinulat ko about sa pagkakilala ko sa kanya!...
[b]KHAYE... maraming may crush daw sa kanya... pero ako never nag ka crush sa kanya! gusto nya sya lang daw ang bida! joke! [/b]
maraming crush daw.... nagalit siguro siya kasi may ''daw'' kasi...
ang gusto siguro niya... talagang maraming may crush sa kanya! [/quote]
[color=maroon][b]HINDI AKO BATA.... HINDI AKO GANYAN KABABA AT LALONG HINDI KO NI PANGARAP NA MASABIHAN AKO NG GANYAN!!!! ( tsktsktsk... another person who speaks or let's say judge someone despite of the fact that he doesnt even know the person!!!! smoking:: )
eto... JUST FOR LAUGH!!!![/b][/color]
[quote]**** (2009/05/07 4:00:11): sana sinabi mo mali ung word na crush kc madaming nagnanasa sau ung crush pang bata un at d lang bida ang mga nagnanasa sau [/quote]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]sinulat ko yun dahil yun ang nalalaman ko... maraming may crush "daw" sa kanya...
tapos... dinugtungan ko nang.... "pero ako never nag ka crush sa kanya!"
yun naman ang totoo... hindi ko siya crush...
yun siguro... mas lalong nagalit siya kasi hindi ko siya crush... ;D [/quote]
[color=maroon][size=12pt][b]siguro eto ang parteng BIRO na tinutukoy mo?! ::)
masyado ka naman atang confident sa sarili mo?! hahahahahha :D :D :D :D jan ako natawa!
WHO ARE YOU?! DO I KNOW YOU?!
( galing na rin yan sa post mo smoking:: kung hindi mo natatandaan... sabi mo nga diba... SINO BA AKO PARA MAGKAINTERES NA MAKILALA KA?! ) << howell sounds like that thou[/b][/size][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]tapos dinagdagan ko ng "gusto nya sya lang daw ang bida! joke!"
sorry kung naooffend ka sa sentence na yun.... [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]YOU DONT KNOW ME!!!! ( and from your words, wala kang interes pang kilalanin ako at sabihin sa akin yang mga himumutok mo sa YM ko o kaya sa inbox ko at baka nga naman tawagin kang CHEAP ng mga tao! ayt?! )
WATCH YOUR WORDS!!!
KNOW WHO YOURE TALKING TO!!!
ikaw na rin nagsabi diba... tignan na muna namin kung yung ipopost ba namin eh makabuluhan or hindi.... at tignan din namin kung kelan kami naging member ng espiya at tignan rin namin kung kelan ka naging espiya.... PIONEER KA EH!!!!
howell, about that smoking:: APOLOGY ACCEPTED! [/b] [/color] [/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]walang intensyon yun... kaya nga may joke sa huli! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]i saw the JOKE word from that post and it aint funny! from where weve started to know each other... IT'S NOT FUNNY!!!![/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]kaya ko rin dinugtong ko yun dahil... doon tayo nagkakilala... nagkasagutan...
inuulit ko lang ng pabiro dahil yun ang tumatak sa pagtatagbo ng landas natin....
yun lang.... [/quote]
[color=maroon][size=12pt][b]im listening smoking::
pero HINDI MO YAN NILAGAY SA POST MO LALO NA NUNG NAGPOST AKO BAGKUS...... pinabayaan mong humaba ng humaba hanggang makarating sa kung san saang threads.... HINDI MO PINATAY ANG APOY!!!! sabi ko nga.... bawat post mo.... dinadagdagan mo lang ang GALIT ko pati ibang tao nadadamay!!!![/b][/size][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]ok no probs... kung ayaw niyang tanggapin ang pakikikamay ko sa kanya....
marami pa sana akung bibitawan na salita... pero wag na lang... para di na tataas... [/quote]
[color=maroon][b]smoking::
now, where's the sincerity of asking for my forgiveness in here?! what do you mean by this? HINDI KA PA RIN KUNTENTO AT HINDI BINURA ANG THREAD NA ANG PAGKAKASABI MO EH PINABUBURA KO?!
may sasabihin ka pa?!
whoah.... publicity na to!!!!
balita ko matagal ka raw hindi nakapaglog in or nakapagadik ulet dito eh smoking:: so eto pala ang welcome mo kung ganon!!!! another issue of.... whatever![/b][/color]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]sasagot lang ako pag may banat siya uli....[/quote]
[color=maroon][size=12pt][b]WHAT?! ??? ??? ???
FOR YOUR INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kelangan pa bang ulit ulitin sayo to?! ilang taon ka na ba?! 31 according from your profile in here smoking::
eto ha..
youve posted a thread
ive said that it's not a good idea/topic << flammable
you've said regarding on that post of mine na pioneer ka... wala ng sense mga posts dito sa espiya ngaun..
ive replied on that post of yours saying na hindi porket pioneer eh ganyan ng magsalita sa aming mga newbies!!! and kahit on that post pa lang hindi mo man dineretsong PARA SA AKIN YUN..... sinabi ko pa ring SORRY kasi newbie lang ako at walang sense ang mga posts ko
*nanahimik ako watchmode lang sa mga members who replies*
but here you go again... sabi mo nga binalikan mo lang ulet ung topic/issue... and this time youVe said stuffs na FOUL AND BELOW THE BELT NA...... NA WALANG KONEKSYON SA IPINAGTATANGGOL MONG TOPIC MO!!!!
naPIKON na ako sa post mong yan kaya ko sinabing WALA KA NANG MARIRINIG FROM ME and left espiya for a week and days...
pagbalik ko sa thread na marteniko.. anjan ka na naman... FOUL WORDS ang pagkakadescribe mo sa akin ( na hindi ko inexpect na sasagutin at isasali mo pa ako since.. haleeerrr ::) alam mo ng galit na ako from your thread pa lang, eto ka na naman dinala sa ibang thread para mabuksan ulet ang issue at mapansin ng ibang mga myembro ) tas sasabayan mo ng JOKE sa dulo?! ??? ano un?! nagpapatawa or sadyang nanggagalit ka lang?! ??? and who's KHAYE GARCIA TO JUST LET THIS THINGS HAPPEN ON PUBLIC?! iniwasan ko na ang thread mo and kahit ikaw.... tas eto na naman?! so i took the chance and im telling you i swear yun na ang last na post ko (sana) about you halata naman sa post ko, i offered you my inbox and my YM, that was because ayaw ko ng mabasa pa at makita mga pinagsasabi mo about me... hindi kaaaya aya sa mga taong sabi mo nga nagkakaCRUSH "DAW" sa akin!!!
and what did i get? sabihan mo pa akong bakit mo pa ako ipPM?! eh wala ka ngang interes sa akin tsaka baka nga tawagin kang CHEAP ng mga tao diba?! smoking:: dagdag mo pa "kuno" ung "maraming mga nagpPM" sayo.... na sumthin na hindi nga sila nagpupunta sa board ko (SHAMELESS AND PRIVATE BOARD ---- all photos has been deleted na nga po pala dahil na rin sa issue na to ) well sabi nga nung "nagPM" sau diba... dahil nga hindi nila ako type! ( and so?! ::) )
you see?! if you just can analyze from these statements... HINDI NA MAGKAKAGANITO!
i am already pissed off from the start, i left and i came back but then ayan na naman... so what do you think our real problem is right now? is it still because of your thread that i wanna be deleted ( as what you're saying )
and now you're saying na "SASAGOT KA LANG PAG MAY BANAT ULET AKO?!"
what exactly are you talking about?! you want other see your posts while i cant post mine?! smoking:: ikaw nagsabi na hindi ka magsasalita kung hindi ka papansinin.... oh jeeeeeeezzz.... UNFAIR PAGKASABI MO NIYAN 2FEAR!!!! smoking::
sad to say... Khaye Garcia will always and remain as Khaye Garcia whether you like it or not!
and you see me replying now... right?!...[/b][/size][/color]

[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]sensya na mga kaespiya.... sana maiintindihan nyo nararamdaman ko...
hindi naman porke't babae siya at lalaki ako.... eh pagbibigyan na natin siya...
lahat tayo dito... pantay-pantay karapatan....
babae o malalaki... malaki edad o minor de edad...
gwapo o pangit! pantay-pantay tayo dito mga kaespiya! [/quote]
[size=12pt][color=maroon][b]now look who's talking!!!!
diba nga ikaw ang nagsabi na PIONEER KA?! smoking::
sorry but when ive read this.. i pity you![/b][/color][/size]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]kahit nga si SG nakikihalubilo sa atin... toast:: [/quote]
[color=maroon][size=12pt][b]EH PINUNO NATIN YAN DITO EH! AMO NATIN YAN!!! ~at love ko yan *blush* ::) ~ natural he has ALL the right to join on whatever discussion we have here!
Ganyan lang yan nakikihaluhalubilo sa atin... pero seryoso niyang pinagiisipan bawat galaw na gagawin niya infront of his "babies"[/b][/size][/color]
[quote author=2fear! link=topic=94905.msg663382#msg663382 date=1241679351]peace uli sa iyo khaye....
oopppsssss....! teka muna pala....
at bago ako mapg-apologize kuno sa kanya... dapat siya auna mag-apologize sa akin...
sino ba una nakaka-offend sa amin?[/quote]
[b]mali pagkakasabi mo smoking::
sino ba ang una nakakaoffend sa amin ~ I HAVE THE FULL CONFIDENCE TO SAY THAT I AM!!!!! basahin mo kasi post mo!
but with what must be posted there's this
sino ba ang unang nakaoffend sa amin ~ I HUMBLY CAN SAY THAT ME I GUESS ( as what your "kuno" and "daw" means ) DAHIL NGA SA THREAD MO NA SINABIHAN KONG FLAMMABLE... well sorry if pinansin ko ang thread mo![/b]

[i]i arrived home today after my work around 1am smoking:: and i went directly on these threads to finish what has to be finalized! and it's 6:28am here now smoking:: yeah... ive tried to make this post as good as i want to make it the last post from me regarding on this issue ( but well, sabi nga ni 2fear... sasagot lang ako kapag may banat ulet siya! ) and kung sinuman ang nakasubaybay sa akin from the moment i came here and be a registered member of espiya.net what happenned between me and ybanag/ganaby before, another issue for all espiya members here! toast::
thanks and im sorry for everyone who's been affected because of this said issue :-*
as what i keep on saying, regardless of what position we have on wherever we are, no matter who and what we are... BE HUMBLE!!! once you have the reasons to fight... FIGHT! everyone has the right to speak what they wanna speak... [u]but [/u] learn how to RESPECT others! NEVER JUDGE SOMEONE just because of hearsays or what your BARE EYES sees.... we never can say who a person really is if we dont give ourselves the chance to know him or her better and deeper...[/i]

[center][glow=red,2,300]ARRIBA ESPIYA!!!! toast:: toast:: toast::[/glow][/center]

A Life's So Confusing.... (1)

2009-03-05T17:41:00.001+09:00

" a kind of life living in a room, full of everything I want and I need, makes me happy but never made me complete and contented... " ~kG~
As far as I remember, I was freshly graduated from highschool when my mom decided to bring me to my Aunt's house ( matigas daw kasi ulo ko, pasaway! ). My Aunt's my father's eldest sister na talaga namang kinatatakutan ng buong familia. She's soOo strict and disciplinarian, worse than my grandmother na nagpalaki talaga sa akin. I remember when I was a kid, my family in my mother's side brings me to my Aunt's house na talaga namang nakakapatindig balahibo at nakakapanginig ng kalamnan sa takot pagkaharap ang Auntie kong yon. But surprisingly, the moment my mother brought me to their house, nawala ang takot ko sa kaniya. I've stayed there for almost a year and i dont know why the feeling's been dissappeared. Nakakabigla kasi... sa lahat ng kamaganak ko s afather side, sa akin lang siya ganon. She's always been sweet, thoughtful, caring... She brings me wherever she goes.... sa church, sa family or social gathering, laging ako ang kasama niya. Lagi nga niya akong sinasama sa mga KIKAY stuffs niya eh like shopping, sa salon/parlor, pati kapag nagpapamanicure pedicure siya pati ako damay lagi. She lets me wear branded clothes, perfumes, bags, shoes and accessories na ni isa sa familia hindi niya tranato ng ganon ( ayon sa mga kamaganak ko ) Mismong mga anak niya nagseselos at naiinggit na sa akin dahil sa treatment my Aun't been giving me. Hanggang sa tinutukso ako ng mga relatives ko na favorite daw kasi ako ng Auntie ko, sa akin lang daw lumalambot ang puso niya. I didn't know what to say or what i must feel everytime sabihan nila ako ng ganon coz for me that's too common since im also the favorite of my lola sa aming magkakapatid.Thou considering that it's my actually first time to mingle with my relatives on my father side since i was born. But despite of the blessings that I've been recieving, I remember myself writting a diary before I sleep every night and it sound funny because almost pare pareho lang naman ang naisusulat ko doon. Lahat nasa sa akin na daw. Sabi ng mga tao, Im so lucky to have a life like what I have... I eat more than 4X a day, I have nice clothes, new shoes and bags, accessories ang gadgets. I live in a big house everybody dreams to have. Ni hindi nga ako sumasakay ng jeep or tricycle kasi nga may sasakyan naman, dalawa pa. I face well-known personas in Tarlac and attends social gatherings/parties with my Auntie almost every week. Kung tutuusin, wala ng maihihiling pa ang isang tulad ko.Ano pa nga ba?
As I stare at my window every night, naiisip ko.. bakit ibang taong kaedad ko, kahit nasa kalye, nagtatawanan, naghaharutan, nagkakapikunan pero nakangiti pa rin? Wala ng ulam sa hapag kainan pero nagagawa pa ring makipag tong its, matalo man o manalo? Simpleng buhay lang pero masaya sila.. bakit ako? I tried to look for answers everyday....
Hindi ako pwedeng makipag kaibigan ke ganito kasi ganyan daw.... Hindi ako pwedeng ligawan ni ganito kasi di daw nila kilala... or shoud I say... "HINDI KILALA"..... hindi ako pedeng magsuot ng ganito kasi ano na lang sasabihin ng mga taong makakakita... hindi ako pedeng pumunta sa ganitong lugar kesyo ganito kesyo ganyan.... I do understand that they just want the best for me. I've felt I've becoming her robot, her puppet, her toy. You should be like this! You do like that! We'll be going here and there! You join the contest! Practice ballroom dancing! etc etc etc.... At first i thought it was fun, as a kid I must obey them for they know what's best for me so I did obeyed her, them. I laughed, I was happy.... but at the end of the day.... in my room..... I'm alone and empty.

Khaye Garcia on NET

2009-03-05T17:36:00.000+09:00

hmMm.. marami rami rin akong mga unforgetfull memories online.. and i have this sumthing to share with everyone.. this blog's gonna be posted on most on my accounts online.gaya ng nangyari sa isa sa mga forums early this year, hindi ako nagsalita... this stuff, i kept it all for a year na ren....and now, im already pissed off and dissappointed... share ko lang...

i registered an account on one of the groups in Yahoo called YUMMYPINAYS few years ago as "amazingkhaye28" hindi PA ako gaanong gumagamit ng PC that time, so kapag may oras saka lang ako nagchecheck ng mails.. at first i thought ok naman siya.. di rin naman ako makarelate sa mga pinaguusapan nila for they share ideas concepts random pics and vids scandals etc. I met few people there, chatted and became friends.. naengganyo ako... i posted my pix ( wholesome ones kasi hindi pa uso for me ang mga shots na gaya ng mga ishinashare ng ibang members/group ) a friend of mine, well... hindi pa ako gaanong aware sa consequencesn g visible online so when i knew that a friend of mine posted those pix of mine sa Google... nagalit ako.. wala pang isang araw na posted ang mga pix ko na un, he already deleted it kasi talagang inaway ko siya ( Japz ). after that incident, matagal tagal rinakong bumalik sa yahoo group na yon let's say... hindi na ako nagchecheck ng emails ko using amazingkhaye28@yahoo.com.. i became busy sa mga iba pang sites kasi nahatak hatak na rin ako ng mga kakilala ko online sa ibang sites....when i came back after few months na nawala ako, i saw my mailbox sa amaxingkhaye28 na super puno!!! dun ko narealized na ganon pala talaga sa yahoo groups... hindi ko rin naman ugali ang isa isahin lahat ng mga messages from that ID so i made another account for yummypinays, suteki_khaye... i came back, lurk around and wala lang.. and ganun pa rin ang nangyari... hindi nga kasi ako ganun ka adik sa net that time.. so months have passed, pagbalik ko ganun na naman... so lastly, i made another account for Yummypinays which is oRdin4Ry_p4ng3t/Loveless Panget.. ung ibang mga members didnt know na ako un at first so balik ako posting my photos ( still wholesome ones ) so un... they've known me na hanggang lurk lurk lang talaga.. but since ive got friends there...mostly thru YM na lang contact namin and minsan minsan pasilip silip pabasa basa lang ng mga messages ng mga members on that said group sa snail mail ko...
Months again had passed, ive been busy doing my stuffs on and offline...Chatrooms,Forums,Sites YM...lots of things happenned, ive learned stuffs about cyberspace,met different kinds of people online.. I was lets say addicted on chatroomsthat time, cguro dahil na rin sa nagsawa na ako sa ganong routine, last part ata ng 2006 some members on Yummypinays told me that they're gonna make a forum aside from that on yahoo groups, theyve invited me since di rin naman daw ako nakikisabay sa mga ibang membres sa yahoo group ( d'uh!!! puno ang mailbox ko coz of that, wala na akong time to do backreading and answer and be part of their conversations and topics ) I think January or February last year ive made my account in YUMMYPINAYS Forum, my account's name was "urfuture_XGf" the first day i entered their forum, first shout on their shoutbox,unexpectedly, somebody named Japokskee was online that time... rang my thoughts about that nick since kilala rin niya ako.. at first i thought na siya rin ung guy na unang unang nagpost ng mga photos ko hindi sa yummypinays yahoo group but sa google.. un pala ibang tao... that very first day he made be a member of the yummypinays girls/babes (pink) may certain group kasi sila dun that time.. etc etc etc... being on that site,ansaya!kaya naman naengganyo talaga akong tumambay dun almost 24/7.Made my own personal thread ( i forgot the name of my thread na ) Masaya, Magulo sabihin na nating ive met lot of people,members and those who were in the forum's management. Been treated so nice kaya naman i considered myself as really part of the said group. Ive posted photos and videos on my personal thread and that RATED R section.some of my photos shouldnt be posted there so people on management made my own room titled Behind Closed Doors~Exclusively for your eyes only, at first those who has posted 500 posts ata that time eh hindi makakaaccess sa thread na un.. i was the only one who has the thread on that said topic.Hmm..
A member named Lex_luthor first posted some irritating message on my personal thread on my first or 2nd week since i put my own room on yummypinays written in arabic, became an issue sa mga tao sa management until nabanned si lex that time for three days coz of that post. After his suspension or being banned, we talked and voila that's the reason, the obvious reason, dahil lang sa hindi ko pinapansin daw ang messages niya sa YM ko. that time, when im online in the forum most of my attention talagang sa forum lang... i dont even open my YM and entertain messages such like that kasi talagang adikan mode sa posting ako noon.During those times naman, a CEO/Admin named Kelotz aside from other members na dumadamoobs ang talagang nalink sa akin. Sumabay si Lex that time... i couldnt give much of my attention to Lex for i know na meron siyang gf that time.. ( haka haka ko lang po un dati ) sa hindi sinasadya ng pagkakaton, let's say.. kelotz and I became "US" everybody knows that for visible naman un sa lahat na kami.I felt na dissappointed si Lex sa nangyari but he stopped everything about us because mahalaga daw sa kaniya ang mga kaibigan niya, sacrifise etc etc etc daw.. and so on...
One of the yummypinays unforgetable member named KOBLINE naman ang pumasok sa scene when me and Kelotz were together... talagang he's been vocal about his feelings. knowing the fact that kami na ni kelotz, some members hanggang simple hanga lang talaga ang gawa but iba si kobline... he doesnt and didnt care kahit pa sino makabangga niya basta maiparamdam and mapaalam niya sa akin that he really do love me.. i know buong management nabagabag sa pagpasok nga ni kobline. hanggang sa... yeah, everytime na pumasok si kobline sa site, automatic banned siya, hanggang sa suspension and IP Blocked nangyari sa account niya.Fault ko rin siguro dahil i talk too much and give time sa mga posts ng mga other members and entertain them ( not as suitors ok, just for fun lang sa site ) but naging seryoso kaya hanggang sa suspension napunta ang scene.I thought naiintindihan ni kelotz un, for when we were talking talagang ok naman, but behind those messages, iba na pala ginagawa ni kelotz, somebody told me na he's been sending messages sa mga ibang members na nakikita niyang dumadamoobs sa akin sa site, using normal username.he's been banning members, well hindi ko naman talaga alam and hindi un confirmed kung totoo or hindi basta un lang ang narinig ko.Same on his part kasi me mga naririnig rinig daw siya that ive been flirting and making bf's behind his back.. well well.. matter of trust i guess.. but what happned was, hindi namin un napaguusapan pag kaming dalawa na lang ang naguusap.he asks and i answers him but sa loob loob ata hindi naniniwala. blah blah blah.... i became busy with my work.. hindi nakakapaglog in, hindi rin nakakatwag ng kasing dalas ng dati kay Kelotz, nabawasan ang time and communication namin sa isa't isa.when we got time na magusap last year, April ata un, i was surprised kasi Kelotz asked me na magcool off daw muna kami.. well, to make the story short, i agreed.i know my shortcomings, and maybe we really needed time and space that time.. since cool off lang naman daw...2 days after not logging in sa yummypinays forum,pagpasok ko sa forum... i saw Kelotz profile page na may mga "i love you" messages comments dun, from SHUGAR and KELOTZ... awWwWw!!!i was shocked, and then sa mga postings sa thread.. para akong nilampasong parang ewan for theyve been exchanging i love you's there, as far as i know.. wala pang nakakaalam ng cool off namin ni Kelotz sa yummypinays.. even other members were shocked on what the saw and read even sent me messages about it and asked me what's happenning...at first i told myself na aalis na ako sa yummypinays, lie low muna ako etc etc etc.. but hey! why should i?! parang sinabi ko ng sa isang laban eh ako ay talo... so i showed everyone that im still me despite of what's been happenning with us three... deadma ko silang dalawa, continued posting here and there sa forum, brought back khaye garcia people have known me about... and dun, lalong nageager ang ibang members to get me mas pa si kobline....kobline uses diff IPs and nicks just to get back on yummypinays...kasi sabi ko nga everytime na pumasok siya, agad agad bann siya... i didnt cared much about Kelotz and shugar will gonna think of what me and kobline were doing on the forum for i know im already free and ok nman sila... khaye garcia's back om business i mean, became again visible and free to everyone since alam nilang kelotz and shugar's already "lovers" ... accidentally, i wanted to show some posts to kobline one day, but the prob was hindi siya makaaccess sa YP. i gave him my password there and after that... BANG! the next day i went on logging in sa yummypinays forum, im already IP BANNED!!! nagulat ako for i didnt know kung ano ang nangyayari.. i talked to everyone i know from that said forum and they told me that si Kelotz lang ang pwedeng gumawa ng ganong actions sa site. i asked kelotz about that and he told me na nadamay lang daw ang account ko sa pagbann niya kay kobline, he traced na ginamit nga ni kobline daw ang account ko etc etc etc.. ok fine! the next day.. i expected na ok na account ko sa Yummypinays kas nga aayusin nmn daw ni kelotz.. fVck! this time.. one year suspended naman ang account ko...nagalit ako! and yeah, i confronted kelotz about it and wala siyang masabi... kinahapunan that day, and since that day.. ive been recieving YM messages saying na wala daw ung room ko sa yummypinays, mga photos,videos,posts pati account ko wala daw silang makita sa forum!!! banas na banas ako!! fVck! what's happenning?!inaway ko talaga si kelotz that time.. ano ba ang problema niya?! at ano ba ang ginagawa niya sa account ko... ang sabi, nakainvisible mode lang naman daw ang account ko sa yummypinays.... i asked him why is he doing that on my account.. ang sabi.. baka daw may maghanap sa akin! what the fVck!! ang sabi ko sa kaniya, natural lang na may mga maghahanap sa akin.. anong palagay niya sa akin?!kinausap ko lahat ng mga kakilala ko about sa nangyayari and ayun.. wala nga daw silang magagawa.. dapat daw si kelotz daw ang kausapin ko about that! fVcking s#it!!!!well well well... paikliin ko na lang... un ang nangyari... hindi ko na kinausap si kelotz, anyone from yummypinays since nonsense.. si kelotz lang naman daw ang me pakana ng nangyayari sa account ko.. ok fine!i was what.. nawalan ng paa at kamay.. i didnt know kung san ako pupunta kung ano gagawin ko kasi sa YP lang talaga ako nagMain sa lahat ng accounts ko online..sounded walang wenta pero that's what ive felt that time... i treated everyone there fair and my 2nd home and family online tas ganun ang nangyari.. navanished si khaye garcia.. and fVcking shit!!! bawal akong pagusapan sa forum... nabalitaan ko, some members been trying to open nga ung about sa akin, bakit bigla akong nawala daw etc etc.. and what happenned was, everytime na may magpost na member about me my name or what and anything about me, either automatic banned, ignored or me mga magsasabi from the management na "that topic has been closed" i gave up...ilang beses ko silang kinausap particularly kelotz pero wala.. wlang nangyari...
i moved on.
i said, after what ive done ganon ganon na lang ang gagawin sa akin...what rules did i violated on forum?!more on personal lahat ng nangyari.... tsk tsk tsk
i made myself busy, i made distance from yp people well, other from that site became true on me naman until now, some friends there adopted me on their sites ( in different nick and invisible ) total wala si khaye garcia from yp people...
i hang out on different sites on net, forums etc etc.. as in wala sa YP.
last year, a new site of YP invited me to come and visit their site... t'was mommy kring's site... YP BLOG ( google group )... naging issue na naman...
http://www.opensubscriber.com/message/Yummypinays@googlegroups.com/8098845.html
that's one issues since nawala ako sa YP Forum.. and then early this year.. since nagiging active ako sa FHM... to be exact at FHM Bullboard.. some people got some of my posted shots that ive uploaded in FHM and postes it on one of yahoo groups, PRIVATE PINAY... a friend of mine gave me the said posted thread on that said group and yeah, twas me! another friend of mine, met in YP before was or is one of the administrator on private pinays scolded me about those photos... i understand what he told me.. pero wala na akong magagawa, as ive said a million times, accepted ko ang fact ng mga actions ko, thats why before taking a decision and actions, i know what's its consequences... i thanked him for the advises that he gave me.. btu after that incident in private pinay.. a friend of mine, a Moderator of Yummypinays Yahoo group, i call him PAPA PIOLO shared also those said photos of mine from FHM and private pinay on yahoo groups yummypinays.. nagalit ako kasi, kaibigan ko si papa piolo.. hindi niya kelangang magpost ng anything about me behind my back kasi even before pag me kelangan ang grupo sabihin man nating wala na ako sa forum, sa yahoo group.. pag me kailangan, madali lang nila akong makausap.. they know where to find me.. pero sa nangyari... basta basta na lang siyang naglabas ng mga photos ko ng hindi nagsasabi sa akin.. i talked with Papa Piolo.. and he told me na hindi daw niya ako mahagilap etc etc etc.. well, maybe ngkataong may mood swings ako that time kaya ako nagalit ng ganon ganon sa kaniya.. he asked me na kung gusto ko raw ba magpublic apology daw siya sa ginawa niya sa yahoo group.i told him na hindi na.. huwag na lang.. those pix have been already posted and im the one who uoloaded those stuffs so wala ng kaso sa akin un... all i wanna tell him na hindi niya kelangang gawin un ng hindi sinasabi sa akin... nagalit lang ako kasi... matagal na rin kaming magkakilala, nagkakusap naman kami bakit hindi niya sinabi man lang sa akin ang tungkol dun?!well un lang...
after that, nagisip isip ako... telling people that im khaye garcia... a yummypinays member, YP's muse etc etc eh parang walang sense for matagal na rin akong hindi member ng YP.one day, i saw my mareng kath's YM status... link ng bagong YP Forum.. i went there, made an account.. again... sabi ko kasi, tutal matagal na rin and what happnned before ok na for me...just to make know that im still a YP member, BUT i promised myself not to becoame khaye garcia na nakilala nila before sa YP... i wont post sich things like ng mga nilagay ko dati sa dating forum nila.. para lang masabing andun ako.. un lang...
On the first day... i put my avatar, personal photo, fixed my account there and voila! im alive again... hmMm... i participated on threads, posted nonsense just to make posts... ok naman... hindi ko pa siya nabrowse ng maigi that day so the next day i went there.. fVck! one year suspended lang naman po ang account ko... and for what reason, hindi ko alam... i asked kelotz about that ang he told me wala daw siyang alam dun.. i know naman this time na wala talagang kinalaman si kelotz dun kasi ok na kami ni kelotz, we've been already talking like normal friends before pa ako pumasok sa forum... si isang araw akong hindi nakapasok sa YP Forum, the next day after that, i got kelotz' message saying na ok na daw ung account ko... nalaman ko na si LEX ang nagbann sa akin... nalaman ko rin from mareng kath that people on the management has been talking my case on their thread.. fWHAT?! my case?! anong kaso ko?! ang sabi.. kesyo ano daw reactions ng mga members sa pagbalik ko, kung ok daw ba sa kanila.. etc etc.. and theyve been deciding kung ano daw ba ang gagawin sa account ko etc etc.. mareng kath personally told me that kung siya raw ako, i wouldnt log in na lang daw dun.. sabi niya.. ok naman daw ako sa mga sites na meron akong account.. i dont have to be there for may mga better future daw ako sa ibang sites! ang sabi ko naman... well, sinabi ko reason ko, since pinaguusapan ako sa ibat ibang groups in yahoo and sites na kesyo im YP member, kaya lang ako gumawa ng account but... un nga.. galit si lex kasi kesyo may mga sinabi daw akong masasamang salita against sa group, msasakit na salita against shugar and i have to say sorry, public apology sa lahat about what i did last year.. fVck! cino ginago nila?! bakit ako magsosorry?! ano ba ang ginawa ko sa kanila?! ang alam ko.. i was mad and totally pissed off with what theyve done with my account last year tas ako pa ngaun ang masama?!tas sasabihin ni lex ako daw ang may mali.. na nagbago na daw ako... fVck! san ako nagbago?! how i wish na nagbago na ako!! but hey.. im still me and even if nagbago ako, thats just because of my experinces, ive learned some lessons in life and hindi un konektado sa YP Forum... that time pinaguusapan pa rin daw ang kaso ko sa thread nila... hmMm...so as curiousity, i went again there ( sinabihan na kasi ako ng mga kakilala kong wag ng pumasok dun! sus! ) i saw my profile.. walang photos... walang anything sa profile ko... just my posts sa general chatbox nila ( ICE BREAKER ) and what the.... ayun! supah parinig ung SHUGAR and KULITZ na kesyo im not welcome naman daw dun... sinisiksik ko daw sarili ko dun na kesyo they're pertaining me as "DAGA" and theyve been waiting for me and nagtatago daw ako kesyo takot daw ako sa kanila kaya hindi daw ako naglolog in.. fVck!i ignored those pitiful messages and posts.. i just continued posting and posting until wala pang dalwang oras na online sa forum, banned na naman ako! whoah!! what the fck talaga!!! sa buset ko... kinausap ko si kelotz and asked kung ano ang nangyayari.. kinabukasan ko na nalaman ang sagot...
Nanu pa nga ba?! Shugar paid almost half of the prize sa domain ng YP Forum kaya nabiuksan ulet.. accdg to some sources.. kaya pala nsa management na siya...and ive got the feelings that SHUGAR and KULITZ were the one who has been deleting my photos in my profile there and talagang para silang ewan na post ng post ng mga kung anu anong out of the topic sa forum.tuluy tuloy silang dalawang nagpopost ng mga parinig tungkol nga daw dito sa "daga" etc etc etc...lahat ng pposts ko sinusundan nilang dalawa.. Who's KULITZ?! well,ive met her from yummypinays forum last year, she was still a newbie that time.. pinormahan ni TIGZHALAS ROMANTIKO, a friend of mine na mejo pumorma rin sa akin before silang maging sila ni KULITZ ( for the record, wala na sila ngaun ) dati yang kulitz na yan super feeling close sa akin, greets me here and there even in my friendster account, leaving sweet nottings testimonials etc etc kaya nga i was shocked ans surpried for what's happning with her bakit pati siya nakikisama sa mga parinig effect netong shugar na to sa forum mismo..and now they're saying na plastik ako?!fVck!!! as soon as i read their posts there.. i deleted KULITZ as my friend in my friendster account.. sorry to say pero hindi ako talagang nagdedelete nor nagbloblock ng mga members sa kahit sang account ko but with what has been happenning, i did it! ive deleted her... For whatever reason she have for her actions now, i dont care.. im done with them.. im already pissed off and im really dissappointed.. ive been telling them na nasisira ang pangalan nismo ng grupo sa mga taong ganyan ang ugali. Mali kasi nilagyan nila ng psosiyon sa management ang mga taong tulad nila.. is there any success for the group for such members?! i dont think so... i know naman from the start na HINDI as in UNOFFICIAL SITE ang YUMMYPINAYS FORUM, but still tama nga siguro.. sinisiksik ko sarili ko sa kanila.. i know where YUMMYPINAYS the real ones is...pero dun pa rin ako pumapasok...i gave up.. i give up on them...
maybe there's still contuation about this "case" for until now, ganyan pa rin ang nangyayari sa yp forum.. walang pagbabago... getting much worse lang... so hindi na rin ako nakikipagparticipate sa kanila... some members from YP up to this moment eh kaibigan talaga pakikitungo sa akin, hindi man visible in public but maybe much better na ung ganito.. we talk not in YP FORUM but in private...i was once a YP, will always be?! i dont know... who knows?! basta, all i know is that its one of my, khaye garcia's life ONLINE....

*burp*

almost same topic >>>

http://khayegarcia.multiply.com/journal/item/22/Breaking_MY_Silence
http://khayegarcia.multiply.com/journal/item/24/OK_PAYN_i_dont_want_other_people_na_MAPAHIYA

Khaye Garcia 3

2009-03-05T17:35:00.000+09:00

i know its kinda late to introduce myself with you pals... maybe im that kinda bored or in the mood to write sumthin somewhere sumthin.. some kinda enlightenment towards other people who doesnt really know who khaye garcia really is and was....
Few years ago, coz of boredom, napagtripan ko ang net...
upon browsing, hindi nakuntento.. ive tried entering sites, foreign and even adult sites :P la la la la la.... hindi rin naman kasi ako ganon ka adik sa net before, since i know ive got lot of things to do here in real life than staying 24/7 infront of a thing... and then, hindi ako nakuntento sa email (snail mails) at sa pabisibisita lang sa mga sites... ive made accounts on yahoo first... etc etc etc.. and then nasurf ko isang yahoo group... sabi yummypinays daw... well, i got intrigued by that group so i joined them.. twas a yahoo group first. Since bihira lang akong magbukas ng PC ko that time, one time when i opnned my snial mail.. voila!!!! puno agad ang mailbox ko.. whew!!! twice akong nagpalit ng account ko sa yummypinays yahoo group by that time, dun din nagstart ang paggawa ko ng net name ko since i cant reveal my real name in public lalo na sa net not for myself but for my family and relatives na masyadong malapit sa chismis! hahahaha... i became close especially to the management of that group.... known by few members pero.. since hindi naman ako ganun kaactive sa kanila at kung san sang sites pa ako natambay, di gaya ng YP yahoo group nsa mail box ko lang sila by that time... hanggang sa chatroom ang nakalaban ng attention ko sa mga forums/sites.... my cousin from switzerland invited me to come and join them in their chatroom, yes... Tagalog Room...dun ako naadik, almost every time i logged in, dun ako sa tag room... chat dito chat dun... blah blah blah.. naiinvite ng mga kung sino sino sa kung san saang chatrooms... well, just to ease my boredom i did all those stuffs... hmMM... napagkasunduan namin ng cuzz kong si may ann ung taga switzerland na sabay kaming umuwi ng Pinas one time... and we did that!!! we both went home in Philippines, took our vacation and yeah.. had gimiks!!! nagkataon rin namang meron palang kaibigan si may ann na uuwi ng pinas from korea that time.. she also have met the guy thru the net.. well, purely friends... anyways...sa mdaling salita.. we went home.. the night before my bday, we stayed me with my cousins in our house in Novaliches, dun na rin kami pinuntahan nung friend ni may ann.. si antz...ive met him, he's cool, funny, down to earth.. supah!! talagang ok na ok kasama... kahit bday ko dumating pa rin siya... until maging everyday na magkakasama kaming tatlo :D sa bawat gimik... etc etc etc... and yeah, i got developed on him... i never expected.. kasi una, wala.. iba siya.. hindi siya uhmm.... whatever.. basta.. iba talaga pag nadevelop ka :D hahahhaaa.... hanggang sa makarating ako ng Puerto Galera with him on their resthouse there... almost 4 days kami ata dun or 5 and then balik manila and then sya naman eh umuwi ng korea for lilipat na naman siya ng ibang destination ( US Air Force ) i think sa italy ang next nya.... while me, ive stayed again in pampanga-tarlac with of course my family... but afterwards.. after my 3 weeks of stay in Philippines... Antz invited me to come in Korea before going back here in Japan... well :rolleyes* sino ba naman ako para tumanggi :D :D :D sige.... GO GO GO!!!one week din ako dun :P hmMm... unfortunately... hindi kami pwdeng maging kami... he wants me to stay in Phil for good that time ( na ang sabi ko naman eh hindi pwede dahil sayang din ang visa ko dito sa Japan ) bibisi bistahin na lang daw niya ako sa Pinas... but hey!!! he just told me he doesnt want to have any commitments... if ever FUBU lang.. meaning... friends with benefits... nung time na yun.. puso kasi pinaiiral ko... nunca!!! yoko nga :P so itinuloy ko uwi ko dito sa japan, and since that day... hindi na kami naging maayos... wala... parang wala....

to be continued.....

Khaye Garcia 2

2009-03-05T17:33:00.001+09:00

i know its kinda late to introduce myself with you pals... maybe im that kinda bored or in the mood to write sumthin somewhere sumthin.. some kinda enlightenment towards other people who doesnt really know who khaye garcia really is and was....
I was born on 17th day of April year 1984 in Tarlac City.My father's an engineer, working in Japan that time and mha mom's a nurse/midwife. I have a sister and a brother, tig-dadalawang taon ang agwat namin...im the youngest. I was a year and a half when my mom and dad got separated, for whatever reason was... my mom went here and there out of the country to work for us her kids.., i grew up with my sister by my grandmother, my mother's mom, a retired highschool teacher and principal in our town, while my brother went to my father's mom.
on my early childhood, everybody liked and loved me.. since ako nga ang bunso.. each and everyone especially my maternal side... whew!!! wala pa akongmuwang sa mundo.. hiram dito hiram jan daw nangyare sa akin.. hahahaha.... but! lagi kong bitbit mommy (lola) ko.. kasi kung hindi kasama mommy ko, hindi nila ako mapapasama... hahaha... makamommy talaga ako since birth, dumating man ang mama ko sa pinas, hindi ako gaanong tumatabi dun... sa mommy ko lang talaga ako, sabay matulog, maligo, kumain, mamasyal, mag aral kahit maglaro...sabi nga nila, batang bata pa ako pero para na daw ako lola ko... hahahaa.... meron pa nga, hindi ako lumalabas ng compound ng lola ko when i was a kid... hahahaha.. para daw akong takot sa mga tao.. parang tipong, kung gusto daw akng makita... dapat daw papasok pa sa mismong bahay namin... hahahaha...
very proud sa akin family ko especially my grandmother since i was born lalo pa nung magstart akong magaral... yeah! sobrang disciplinarian,conservative, masyadong pulido kung magturo at magsubaybay lalo na sa pagaaral ang mommy ko sa akin...kilalang kilala kasi ang mommy ko so sguro pride na rin lang niya un kung bugok ang mga apo niya.sa sports kasi nalinya ang ate ko simula ng magaral kami, samantalang sa akin napunta academics and extra culliculars ng school
ELEMENTARY
declaimer ( Gr.1-6 )
tula/baligtasan ( Gr.3, Gr.5-6 )
english/science/tagalog quix bees ( Gr.1-6 )
slogan/essay writer ( Gr.4-6 )
A-1 Child ( Gr.1,Gr.3-6 )
Star/Girl Scout ( Gr.1-Gr.6 )
DLBC ( Gr.2-6 )
ive been always in start section, every year nasa Top 10....lahat ng sinalihan ko, hindi pwedeng hindi ako first at hindi pwedeng hindi ako makapunta hanggang district or regional... well, sabi nila dahil nga daw sa lola ko ang tutor ko.. waaaaaaaahh.. para naman nilang sinabing im not deserving! hahahahaa....
i remmber, my first and only contest na ikinaiyak at ikinasama ng loob ko when i was in elementary... i was in Grade 5 ata that time... i ranked 3rd place in declamation... fVck!!! district contest pa lang un... 3rd ako... naiyak ako!!! sinisi ko?! well... i wasnt rehearsed that well before the competition.. nagkasakit ang kapatid ng mommy ko who lives in Kamuning Quezon City that time and she had to go there para bantayan at alagaan kapatid niya.. i had no choice kaya ung teacher ko lang ang nagturo sa akin ng piece kong un... and i wont ever forget that... natalo ako! pinakamasakit sa akin un!!! since grade 1, ako ang laging nananalo.. laking gulat ng buong district kahit mga scoolmates ko that time.. for the first time.. natalo ako.. and ive felt that kind of feelings... the following school year.. sabi ko hindi na ako sasali pa ng declamation but still, my teacher told me. na last year ko na un sa school, and they trust me and they know this time i will be able to make it and bring back what ive lost for a year... whew!!! and yeah!!!! i did it.. once more for the last time in my elementary days.... well well well.... matagal ko ng gustong ipost ang mga pieces ko since ive started declaiming but ive got no choice for all my copies were in my mommy's house and im really planning to get those when i get there...
oh, i recieved my first loveletters from guys well my classmates when i was in elementary... nun din ako nagkaroon ng first stalker... hahahhahaa...
HIGHSCHOOL
declaimer ( 1st-2nd year )
slogan/essay ( 1st-3rd year )
DLBC ( 1st-4th year )
theatre ( 1st-4th year )
Litturgical Committee ( 1st-4th year )
Dance Group ( 2nd-4th year )
CAT ( 3rd year )

my highschool years... sabi nila... eto raw ang the best years para sa lahat.. ang High School Life!! but... i dont know... hindi ko ata masyadong napansin kung anu ano ang mga nangyari sa aking when i was in high school na masasabi kong the best of my years...JS prom?! yeah, ive attended but.. what's so special about it?! hahaha.. nakisabay lang ata ako sa uso na kesyo kinilig kilig ek ek that time together with my barkadas...
ano ba palpak ko when i was in HS... hmMm... ive learned how to smoke and drink ( its all self-study.. so walang dapat sisihin :P ) mag-ober-da-bakod! hahahah.. cutting classes... barkada... gimik!!!! i had suitors pero wala akong masasabing fafa that time kasi me tipo ata ako that time kaso me dyowa na :D :D :D whatelse.. nakalimutan ko na ata :P
COLLEGE
Miss Tarlac
Miss ComSci
Cheerleader
Dance Group

when i graduated in HS, sa sobrang tigas daw ng ulo ko... ipinunta ako ng mom and mommy ko sa tita ko ( my father's eldest sister ) well yeah, that time me kinalolokohan kasi akong fafa taga sa amin :D :D :D mala-Romeo and Juliet, pinaghiwalay kami kuno :D hahahaha.... maganda naman ang buhay ko dun, i lived with my father's side naman.. all these time kasi sa mother's side lang talaga ako ganun kaclose.... ditto naman sa tita kong ito! hahaha.. terror ng family ng tatay ko.. un ang sabi nila... palibhasa... sosyal! :D :D :D walang makadikit na ni isa sa mga pinsan ko sa tita kong un :D katakot daw kasi, bawat kilos mo napapansin, me parusa pag me palpak.. well.. ewan ko lang kung bakit naging supah close kami ng tita kong yun.. ano kaya?! dahil kaya sa pareho kaming malaret?! hahahaha... mga social gatherings, town fiestas, events ako lagi binibitbit ng tita kong un! hahahaha... dinadamitan, kasama sa parlor, ipinakikilala sa mga kung sino sino na me mga pangalan sa lugar nila... mejo may place kasi siya sa municipality of Tarlac :P ( o ayan.. clue about me :P ) hmMm... ive studied my college a sem and a half sa Tarlac, malas kasi di ako pwedeng maglande sa university.. dean kasi pinsan ng tita kong un dun :D hahaha.. mga chismosong matatandang ito! ahhahahaa.... ang prob lang... every night, lagi kong kausap diary ko... sabi ko, i have everything, food,clothing,shelter,decent lifestyle but i aint makin me happy and contented.. i cant meet and choose people na gusto kong kitain at kausapin... haaayyzz..
2002, my mommy's sistar who lives in QC died, gave me the opportunity na makaalis sa poder ng tita kong un.. yeah, i made that my reason to get out of their place at hindi na ako bumalik... after the burial of my lola ( my mommy's sister ) nayakag naman ako ng childhood bestfriend ko na magaral sa Dagupan... ahihihihihi... chance! ayun! i told my mommy about that and she allowed me to go there and rent my own apartment.. aral aral aral....
nawala ako sa linya ng academics, nauwi ako sa puro extracullicular.. got no time to study enough my lessons palibhasa excuse kasi.. laging may mga rehearsals, etc etc etc... that was the time also na every night talagang gimik to the max ako with my friends, nalibot ko nga ata lahat ng restos sa Dagupan eh :D :D :D since talagang lamon lang gawa ko when i was there ( and i really misses those kinda routine ) that was also the time when i heard myself singing infront of a crowd.. hahaha.. nagkaroon ng mga kakilalang banda sa madalas naming tambayan ng mga friends ko sa Lucao.hanggang sa maging suki at maging part ng band ng isa sa mga banda sa Padis Point Dagupan :P hahaha... kulang kulang one sem rin ata nagugol ko sa lugar na yun... hahaha.. well of course hindi alam ng mommy ko un :P baka batukan ako :D :D :D
well, that's it.. my life before ako makapunta ng Japan :P
magulo
masarap
puro ligaya!!!!

to be continued....

Khaye Garcia 1

2009-03-05T17:29:00.002+09:00

i know its kinda late to introduce myself with you pals... maybe im that kinda bored or in the mood to write sumthin somewhere sumthin.. some kinda enlightenment towards other people who doesnt really know who khaye garcia really is and was....
i first came here Sept 2004 until March 2005 as an entertainer , 6 months contract, ang plano ko while waiting for my visa going to switzerland with my tita and my cousins, punta ako dun since wala naman akong ginagawa sa pinas during that time... napagod na rin sa akin ang mommy (lola) ko sa tigas ng ulo ko, so binalak kong punta ng japan and then few months bago matapos ang 6month visa ko as a singer tinanggap ko ng uuwi ako ng pinas na hindi man lang nagkaroon ng japanese bf :)) but a month before March 2005 i met this jap guy he's 25yo that time we've been together since the moment weve met each other from 11am until before start ng work ko which 7pm that timeand then, he still goes on my work to see and be with me from 7pm until 3amtapos kasi ng work ko was 3 amfrom 3 am until 5 am magkasma pa rin kami sa labas...araw araw yan until makauwi ako ng Pinas ng March 2005turo sa akin ng mga beteran na kasama ko sa work that timepag ang hapon sinabing uuwi ng pinas, oo lang daw sagot kosince first time ko pa lang sa japan that timethat jap guy told me hat he'll come and visit me sa pinaswhen i went home March 2005 March 2005continues pa rin ang communication namineveryday calls and then wala pang one month na nsa pinas ako pumunta siya and asked me to marry himthat timeok naman eh.. he's young handsome sweet and mabait i fell inloved with him and April 2005we got marriedkasama na niya akong bumalik sa Japan ng May 2005and then...one year living with him and his familyeverything's fine and talagang masayatas mga inlaws ko they treated me as not their daughter in law but as in baby nila ako i was so happy with my life 2006, i planned to go back to the Philippines for a vactionstayed there 3 weeks and one week in koreapagbalik ko dito japaneverything seemed for me as normali went back to work and so on one of my bestfriend went to another bar to workfunny coz since m first time here in japan isa lang ang bar na pinagtratrabahuan ko butdun sa bar na un nakakagulat kasifrom girls to staff until management kilala ako hanggang sa kung ano gestures ko from matulog hanggang magising ako lahat alam pati the way i sleep,walk,talk,pati pagpunta ko ng cr alami know my exhubby un palathe moment na wala akoung styleniya sa akin the first time we've met eh ginagawa niya sa isang babae dun sa bar na un... number one dun ung araw araw, from 11am until 5am kasma...know what i meanmadaldal ang exhubby kolahat ikukuwento s akahit na sinoi felt really bad that time i even tried to kill myself that timethe moment i knew that after ng work kothat was fridaypinuntahan ko ung said bar to look for that girlampwalafriday, saturday, sundayi went therewalaalmost 2 whole weeks akong walang kinakain, alak lang yosi and walang tulog ang ginawa ko...sinusundo ako ng manager ko to get t work para daw wag akong magstay sa bahay and think of things na masama but funny kasi nsa work ako pero i was walking like dead umiiyak akoas in my tears came down to falling while i was workingkakaatuwa kasi kahit na ganon ak, i got lots of money sa work ko that time i confronted my exhubbynakikita niyang sirang sira na akoknow whatshit he showed me our divorced papers he wanted me to sign itgoddamnpinunit ko un sa harapan niya with tears on my eyessabi kobakit ko pipirmahan ang divorced papers knowing the fact that i havent done anything wrongsira lahatbuhay kowork ko.. di ko namafocused that time i even had thoughts of using drugs that timebut the problem is, hindi ako marunong gumamit and my friends doesnt want to teach me kaya dinaan ko sa diet pillsas in papayat ako to deathnalaman ko pa kagaguhan ng exhubby ko pinunta niya ung girl sa bahay ng mga byenan ko without my knowledgeand worse plastik ang mga byenan ko sa akinwala silang binanggit sa akinas inthey showede still the same themkaya wala akong clue sa mga pinaggagagawa ng exhubby ko behind my backfromt hat moment, never na akong humarap sa kanila.. as in... i turned my back on them...nakakapanghinayang kasi ang saya saya ng pagsasama sama naming lahat then dahil lang sa pagkaplastik nila... no... 2006 my worst year...

to be continued....

Christmas 2008

2008-12-22T17:47:00.000+09:00

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EXCERPT FROM LUIS FERNANDEZ' MSGE

2008-12-14T11:47:00.004+09:00

WALA NA KAMI!!!!!!

hindi kita minahal dahil sa kagandahan mo
sa kasikatan mo
hindi ko gusto si khaye garcia
ang mahal ko eh ikaw..ung ikaw mismo
hindi ung kung ano sinasabi at nakikita ng mga tao kay khaye garcia
ni ayokong makihati sa mga atensyon na binibigay mo sa kanila

napamahal ako sayo dahil sa mga ipinapakita mo sa akin
napakabait
napakaunderstanding
napakamaaalalahanin
napakalambing
seryoso at mapagkakatiwalaan

minahal kita hindi dahil kailangan kita
mahal na mahal kita dahil ikaw ang buhay ko
at ikaw ang nagbibigay sa akin ng rason para magbago at ayusin ulet ang buhay ko

haaaaaaaaaayyyzzz

TROJAN VIRUS

2008-12-10T13:58:00.001+09:00

damn it..

i openned my mailbox here in friendster this morning ( 1am ) i recieved a msge,

a link included

saying i must be careful next time,

when i clicked the link,

a video was openned

unfortunately it says i have to DL a new version of flash (wtv) so i did it,

then VOILA!!!

my IE couldnt work anymore..

my AV told me that my PC has this TROJAN ekek...

i was rattled and asked for help to everyone in my contacts,

great theyVe helped me and fixed my PC problem.

Thanks to those who have helped me..

so for everyone to know..

this is the link of the person who have sent me that stupid fucking LINK/MESSAGE..

http://profiles.friendster.com/user.php?uid=12117540

^^ gustong sumikat ni totoy tsktsktsk

do what you guys think is best for this person!

thanks!

No Matter What..... It's my LIFE!

2008-11-15T04:32:00.003+09:00

It's all in my mind right now to post this thing here.
For several months not even writing anything here, i told myself to put sumthin to write sumthin knowing the fact that nobody i guess is reading my notes.
Howell, as everyone knows ive been married for years now, got separated few years ago and now, my 4th time to recieve divorce papers from my exhubby.
I dont know whatelse to say nor do about it for i guess im already tired of same set up for years me and my exhubby's having.
This past few months after almost everyday recieving msges from him asking me to sign those papers, i fin'lly decided to sign it as soon as possible.
He told me that he'll gonna give me those papers by next week.
And its up to me whether to sign it or not by the moment he'll hand it down.
I know few months or years ago that everything will just end up this way, it's just that maybe im not ready yet.
I've been living here in Japan for almost 4years and a half...
Im not yet ready to come back to the Philippines for good....
I got my visa for three years and it will become useless if i wont use it...
Let's say me and my exhubby's been already separated and im already living on my own but, its different from a separated to a divorced woman, most especially for someone like me who have no one here in Japan.
I have my job,
I have friends,
I can do i guess, most of the things i wanna do...
but... it's too different!
Im gonna be totally ALONE by the time we divorced.
Im thinking of going to far away places
like Philippines, or go and stay with my relatives in Nagoya
Actually, ive asked my tito about my situation last night and he told me that he'll gonna talk to his wife about it.
I can't leave my work here in Gunma right now for i have let's say, contract.
So maybe while waiting for my end of contract here, i'll change my apartment first.
Ive been looking for some advices from my friends last night and i got almost the same advices,
"Sign those papers, leave everything behind.... move on!"
I actually dont have much confidence about this but...
So that's it...
I guess...
This will gonna be the present im gonna give for myself this Christmas....

My freedom....

Philippines 2008

2008-07-24T20:04:00.003+09:00

i arrived around 2 in the afternoon @ NAIA Centennial Terminal 2 ( ata un ) last July 9, 2008.. my mom picked me up... chika chika pa sa labas ng airport for we've been waiting for somebody that time... ( may nagpadala kasi ) Wala sa plano but after that, niyaya ako ng nanay ko sa MOA... i told her that i have schedule and planned that after the airport we'll go direct to Moncada, same day.. diretcho sa Pampanga...but tigas ng ulo ng nanay ko.. she told me saglit lang daw sa MOA.. fine!!! we went there ung saglit inabot ng hours... napagod rin siguro nanay ko kakagala sa mall.. we went home and decided not to go to Pampanga na lang kasi nga gabi na.. ang kaso.. super kulit ng pinsan kong si may ann... people in Pampanga's expecting me to be there that night.. so nangyari.. umuwi ng Moncada mama ko.. while me, nagpasundo na sa mga kamag anak ko sa Dau Terminal...

When my relatives saw me.. standing infront of that Jollibee store in Dau.. sabihan daw ba naman akong mukha daw akong malnaurished... (LOL) f*ckie ko... ang sabi ko, malulusog lang sila kaya hindi nila maappreciate ang katawan ko... hmMm... pagsundo nila sa akin sa Dau... diretcho na ligo, bihis porma... gala na.. sa KLUB BOSSA!! We were 15 ata that time... and naubos namin almost 4 bottles of tequilla, plus mo pa mga beer as chasers.. SARAP!!! wagwag ako paglabas ng bar that night ( or should i say, morning the next day! ) as in... bangenge.. but i loved it!!!!Malas nga lang, wala akong natake out na guy that time... (LOL)

The next day... hindi na ako pinaalis ng pinsan ko.. nagshopping tuloy ako ng mga damit undies slippers etc etc sa Pampanga...kinagabihan... KLUB BOSSA na naman... this time, hindi ako nagpakabangenge.. talagang tinatakasan ko bawat tagay.. hahahhaa...ive met the vocalist of one of the bands there... thou wala lang... just to say na may nakilala.. cge lang.. GO! mukhang nagtratrabaho talaga ung singer, i can say so.. thats why, imbes na sungkitin.... working techniques napagusapan na nauwi sa wala (LOL) next day... despidida ni may ann... 2 days from that day, balik na naman siya sa switzerland...nagparent na ako ng karaoke/videoke sa bahay para wala ng lalabas at dun na lang makijamming sa buong family.. swakto, i woke up na wala siya... tumakas ako at dumaan sa mommy ko sa Moncada...balikan rin lang ako but i know.. sulit naman at nagsilip ko sa familia ko dun.. i hugged and kissed my mommy na talagang namiss ko... i saw my kuya wih his two chikitings and his wife... di ko nga lang nakita baby ng ate ko na nasa singapore.. umuulan kasi that time... pupuntahan ko sana ang kaso mejo masama na ang pakiramdam ko that time and talagang pinilit ko lang talagang gumala at magpunta ng moncada for im not sure kung kelan pa ako malilibre...

That night, bumalik ako ng Pampanga.. gulat ako kasi andun na lahat ng family, umiinom.. kumakain... tas biglang nagyaya si May ann ng Klub Bossa... i cant say NO... tumakas kami kahit na away sila to the max ng nanay niya si anntot.... pagdating namin dun... unexpectedly... ayun!!!! kakahanap ng fafa, nakadenggoy nga ng fafa!!!He's the guy na nakaheadband sa taas ng stage!!!!doing the right moves, we've met!!! na from that day.. until the moment na matauhan akong nakasakay na pala ako ng eroplano pabalik dito sa japan eh kasama ko.. namin ng family ko!!!

Sunday, hatid namin si May ann sa NAIA.. nakakalunos... ako maiiwan sa Pinas.. na scheduled dapat akong mastay sa Makati that day ( one night ) ang kaso.. cancelled.... Pagbalik sa Pampanga... yes,hanggang sa bumiyaha papuntang Makati... kami ang magkasama... Nakakatuwa kasi.. of all my past relationship, para sa kaniya lang ako hindi naginarte.. ung tipong, go go go lang kami... kugn may prob diretso naming nasasabi.. kung me ayaw, cge lang.. sabi agad.. kung may gusto.. go rin agad.. hindi gaya ng dati... iinarte ang lolah niyo!!!!until the last day na magkasama kami, sabi niya.. hindi daw ako seryoso.. matigas daw ako.. hindi daw ako iiyak.. at hindi rin ako patatalo!!! yon ang pagkakakilala niya sa akin....Pano ko sasabihin sa kaniyang.. MALI!! hindi totoo un....tama nga siguro ang pagkasabi ni kobline... kelangan kong ilabas ang tunay na ako na matagal ng itinatago ni khaye garcia... Pano ko gagawin un... sobra sobra ng sakit at hirap naranasan ng tunay na ako samantalang si khaye garcia.. so strong!!!! di natitibag!!!!

Klub Bossa...

Dun nagstart ang lahat.... bumyahe kami ng Makati July 16.... met Dennis and hushpuppy *winks* in flesh that day....

July 17... 100 Sexiest sa FHM.... i cant bring him there kasi wala siyang ticket... i had fun, kahit pa sabihin nating in two weeks i gained 6kg weight and talagang negra bandida ako, carry ko pa ring isuot ang damit ko for that night!!! KEBER!!!!!after that, onting inuman kulitan with other BBers then uwi na sana ang kaso... gimik sa BEDROCK malate ata?! tas... yeah.. diresto sa isang friends house.. actually, friend ni RON un... almost 6 na kami nakauwi sa Makati...

July 18, byahe pabalik ng Pampanga.. nakapagpromise kasi sa mga kalaway_ann cOMpany!!!! hahahaha.. as usual, tambay ulet ng BOSSA!!!! wala pang tulog, byahe ulet pabalik ng makati for may EB naman July 19 for cuzz jenna of BB....

July 20-21, yes... pahinga mode sa hotel!!!!ooopppsss.. me ekek EB pala nga kami nung July 20.. biglaan.... with mireeh and ruben!!! (LOL) and aaminin ko.. ang sarap!! thou... pagod na pagod na ako.. sayang.. kung may power pa sguro ako.. talagang rock en roll sana kami!!!! hmMmm...

July 21.... tulog!!!!!! gising ako until 4or 5 am ata that day... buti na lang nagising ako 630 kasi i have to give dean's jacket back... nakakhiya, pinaghintay ko ung tao sa baba.. and hindi ko man lang nakausap ng matino, why?! nakow naman... tulog ata akong naglalakad that time!!!! (LOL) sinoli ko lang ang jacket and balik na sa room.. haaaayyzz... sayang!!!!

July 21-22... tulog, pahinga mode...

July 22, around 5pm.. checked out the hotel and byahe na ng pampanga....sa Pampanga naman lumaklak ng alak until 4am.. (LOL) nagising around 7am.... umalis papuntang airport around 930am ata... nasiraan pa kami ng sasakyan (LOL)

July 23... hindi ko na alam.. wala ng script for that stage... nawala sa isip ko ang lahat.. parang ang gusto ko lang eh wag ipakita sa lahat na mahina ako.. na iyak na iyak na ako pero pigil at dinadaan ko na lang sa tawa at pagbigay ng joke!!!

Nagsisisi tuloy ako ngayon... wala akong fon ( ang number na alam ng mga taong mahal ko, hindi nila ako makokontak dito sa japan kasi sira ata ang fon ko, hindi ko pa naipapaayos ) at mas malas!!! wala akong copy ng mga numbers nila dun... kahit ng number ni ron!!!! shet!!! pano na to?!

i have lot of things to say.. i wanna say i wanna prove i wanna let them especially him know...PANO TO?!

Eto.. andito na naman ako sa kwartong wala ng ginawa kung hindi pagmasdan akong lumuha... at gumawa ng mga bagay bagya ng magisa....Ilang beses ko ng sinabi.. hindi na ako babalik dito pero bakit andito pa rin ako?! nasa Pinas na ako.. bakit ko pa pinakawalan ung opportunity na yon?! Not with anything else pero, noon ko pa sinasabing ayoko dito sa Japan.. pero ano to?!parang gusto ko na lang kumuha ng perang pang ticket then balik na agad ng pinas but.. saan ako pupunta this time?!ano ang gagawin ko kung nsa kamay ko na ang kalayaan, itinapon at binalewala ko lamang...

haaaayyyzz... buhay!!!!

UPDATES!

2008-06-17T06:45:00.004+09:00

Its been so long again.. since i came and drop by on this blog of mine on net. Its just that ive been on other sites on net, been busy with my work ( although there came a trouble early this month with my job that caused me and my friends a lot trouble! ) etc etc etc.

What made me come back here now?! hahaha.. howell, nothing really special... It just came uot on my mind last night, and voila!!!! im here again.. trying to make my blog updated for those who do not know some of my accounts online... i can feel that there were few drops by here and lurk *rolleyes* or let's say... hahaha!! nakikichismis!!! :P :P :P

just check this out pals!! >> http://khayegarcia.multiply.com/ and http://khayegarcia84.multiply.com/ for more updates,rumours,gossips about me! hahahhaa :D :D :D that's if you guys really wanna just to read sumthin to keep you away from your boredom or what :P

To continue my blogs ( from this site... ive been updating my blogs on my multiply account so i have to skip from the months and days that i havent been here, yokai! )

hmMmm...

i went out of reach from all the people from net for almost a week last week, i guess.... i never went online... i didn't checked nor updated any of my accounts on net..... i haven't talked to anyone from net during these days.... i didn't even openned my mailbox nor my YM.... ive been totally invisible for those on net.....

wHy?!

Well, as few of the people who really keeps on tracking/monitoring/checking/following wherever I post updates about myself knows what's been happenning with my life these past few days... The only reason of that dissappearance effect was... well... i just really needed to make distance from my laptop :D nothing more nothing less... im not avoiding anyone!!! People knows me as *adik* on net.. once i logged in, that just means that im almost online 24/7 ( well of course that depends on some certain circumstances *winks* ) and i cant just ignore what im facing right now here... i have to think, take actions about it and try my best to resolve and put things on right path... but if im infront of my laptop... nothing will change!!! i, yeah... am happy, i won't feel stressed out, i have lots of people to talk with and things to do when im online but nothing could help me to solve my problem, time just flies out but when i logged out... there it is!!! still.... i still have lots of problems... That's why i came up with the decision to lie low from the net and face everything im having here right now.... And good thing!!! at least now, im learning... the things/stuffs that i just ignored and didnt gave any importance to study about ( its all about living here in japan actually )

And that's just all about it!!!! *winks*

So for those who got worried, for those who never fails to make me smile even with those simple short messages on my mailboxes,inboxes, and offline messages on my YM.... im really flattered!!! i do thank everyone a lot!!! and im so sorry that i just had to leave you all without any note or anything....

whew.... let it pass.... for the meantime, im here!!! nothing to worry about coz im doing everything that i can to survive with all of these things infront of me.. hard, but... it's not my attitude to just give up on anything life's giving me *winks*

Tuloy pa rin po ang ligaya!!!! *groupHUG!*

First Time EB.... JAPAN ( Part 3 )

2008-04-13T12:59:00.003+09:00

7-8am ang agahan sa hotel.Binalak kong sabayan na lamang si lowell ng breakfast subalit nahuliako sa usapan. Nang makarating ako sa hotel nakatapos na raw siya ng agahan. Well sa park dapat ang punta namin that morning but the problem was, umuulan na naman. Lailangan niyan gmakabalik sa Yokohama before 1pm that day. So kung tutuusin, kung mamamasyal pa kami, mahuhuli siya sa appointment niya ta hindi na mahahabol na ang train by 10:23ata and by 10am ang check out sa hotel. Pagpasok namin sa kwarto ng hotel na tinuluyan ni lowell that night, kwentuhan sa kung anu ano ang next na magandang gawin namin, hangang sa nauwi sa.... pagpapakita ko ng mga data ng fon ko,abotu sa multiply (blog) at sa mga latest sa net world ni khaye garcia. Nang...

Kriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggg..... a call from someone na pareho naming kakilala ni lowell.Tawanan,kwentuhan hanggang sa hindi na namin namalayang mag 10 na pala so sa madali't sabi,nilisan namin ang hotel ng walang bahid ng kasarapan.. este ng kung anu pa man.

Pagbaba ng hotel, taxi o lakad? Ang sabi ng Hapon sa may front desk, 5 min walking lang daw hanggang sa may train station. We've decided to walk and it went well. Mas ok kasi mas masaya at mas marami pa kaming napagusapan. Kahit pa umaambon, di namin inalintana at lakad,tawa at kwentuhan ang ginawa namin habang naglalakad lakad sa kalye papuntang istasyon ng tren.

Eto na, I know some from his schedule while staying here in Japan. And alam ko eto na ang huling chance para makasama naminang isa't isa. Saturay ata ang alis niya at balik sa Pinas. Pagdating ng train, I shot him on my fon a photo... sumthin to keep.... ang bigat talaga sa kalooban ang pamamaalam. Pero ok lang, we promised that we'll still keep in touch.... Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaayysss..... that's it!

First time EB..... JAPAN ( Part 2 )

2008-04-10T04:29:00.002+09:00

Alas diyes ang dating ni Lowell sa Isesaki Station from Yokohama.Nasabi ko na sa mga katrabaho ko at sa manager ko ang pagdating niya sa aming omise ng gabing iyon.Ang baet nga ng manager ko kasi siya pa ang mismong nagayos ng lugar na pagpapahingahan ni Lowell after niya akong bisitahin sa lugar ng aking pinagtratrabahuan... Kailangan man niyang makauwi ng Yokohama sana after ng trabaho ko, eh hindi pwede dahil wala ng train ng mga ganong oras. Kaya napilitan na lamang akong sabihan ang manager ko about sa problemang iyon.

Piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing.... Alam kong siya na ung dumating at bumubungad mula sa entrance gate ng omise. Binubulungan nga ako ng mga kasama ko kung Hapon ba o Pinoy si Lowell, kasi ba naman... sa unang tingin wag lang pagsalitain si Lowell, eh maari nga siyang mapagkamalang Hapon *winks*

Timing naman ang dating niya kasi, dumating ang ex ko that time sa trabaho ko. As usual, nakikipagbalikan... Pero nunca akong makipagbalikan dun :P sauce!

Back to the topic, dumating si lowell, kwentuhan kami agad.. ang another adventure niya sa Japan just to see me... kwentuhan kahit na ano.. from how i work, or what kinda work i have, from the people around me... my manager etc etc... 11pm na un... nirequest na nga rin namin isa ko pang kaibigan si Ate Kim para mas masaya at mas maraming mapagusapan sa table namin.Kwentuhan, Kantahan, asaran, kainan at kung anu ano pa ang ginawa namin dun...Anjan ung, pahula namin kung ilang tao na ung mga babaeng nakikita niyang kasama kong nagtratrabaho, tas... ang game!! giving rates sa mga babaeng dadaan sa harapan namin! hahahahaa.... well nakakatuwa kasi, sabi naman ni lowell, masaya daw siya *blush* kasama na ang bola na kasi daw andun ako *rolleyes* charrrruuuuussssshhhh! hahahahahah

Magkakabayan kami kami nila lowell at 2 pang babae from my work, mga ilokana... ayun! chismax si lowell with my friends... pati kay Ate cathy, si ina! ( Maritoni Fernandez look-a-like ) and lowell gave her the highest rate among the girls na nakita niya sa amin... 8.5 o diba... sosyal! hahahaha.. un nga lang.. laging palpak pag guess siya ng mga edad ng mga babae sa amin :D ahihihii.. lang tumama!!!! bwahahahaha :D well, wala akong masisisi sa kaniya kasi talagang.. ang galing ng mga babae dito sa amin... hindi talaga halata tunay na edad, sa make up na rin siguro or ewan.. basta!

Masama na pakiramdam ni Ate Kim kaya nung magpaalam siyang mauuna na siya around 2 am, pinayagan na namin kasi kawawa siya sa kaufunshou niya ( di ko alam tawag dun, sumthin allergic or me sipon whatevah! ) naiwan kami ni lowell dalawa and other guests sa work namin that time.. until 3am.. we had that group pic.... hintayin ko na lang copy from him actually *winks*

3am... dumating na ang taxi na tinawagan ng manager ko para maihatid si lowell sa nireserved na room para sa kaniya sa nearest hotel sa Isesaki Station. Gusto nga sana ng manager ko na siya na ang maghahatid kasi kelangan ng makakasama na at least nakakaintindi ng nipponggo sa hotel. Enough na naitulong ng manager ko sa amin lalo na kay lowell, isa na dun ang pagpayag niyang papasukin ang isang hindi Hapon sa aming omise, as in sabi nga nila.. bunso daw ako, malakas sa taas at well.. matigas ang ulo kaya walang magagawa manager ko kung dun ako bisitahin ng mga kakilala ko.Pagsakay sa taxi, kasama kong nagpunta sa hotel si lowell. Gawa gawa ng kung anu ano sa front desk and then napagusapang puntahan ko na lamang siya later around 730am sa hotel to have breakfast.On our way to the hotel, usap pa rin kami.. as in parang walang katapusan ang conversation namin.. nakakatuwa kasi talagang walang dull moments nung magkasama kami.Ang sarap pala talaga ng feeling , makikita mo both of ur efforts... whew! ang saya.....10am ang sakay niya ulet pabalik ng Yokohama for his meeting on 1pm there.

I left him there,pinasamahan ko na lamang ung nagbabantay sa front desk up to his room kasi naghihintay na ung taxi sa labas sa akin and that's it!i'm gonna check him later around 730am and kahit pano kung hindi uulan maya, maipasyal ko man lang siya kahit saglit at maipakita ang sakura!! i need photos over there this year!!! hahahaahhaahah... well, another successfull EB again with of course... lowell in JPN!!!promises.... never will ever be forgotten! *rolleyes*

We had to part ways that time. I can't stay inside the hotel with him kasi *rolleyes* well.... baka hindi ako makapagpigil at ma-rape ko siya eh :D hahahaahha... jKe!

........... laterz again folks! :P

First time EB! JAPAN

2008-04-09T07:42:00.002+09:00

Gabi non,ika-walo ng buwang Abril... hindi ko inaasahan ang tawag galing sa di kilalang numero sa aking telepono.. ah! isang kaibigan mula sa ibang bansa.Nasa Yokohama na raw siya at nakastay sa isang hotel doon.Matagal tagal ko na ring kakilala ang taong ito, mula sa aming mga palitang disksyunan sa isang site sa internet.Hindi na ako nagdalawang isip ng hingan ako ng kahit man lang lunch or dinner man lang daw sana habang andirito siya sa Japan.Pagbaba ng telepono, hindi na ako mapakali at nagtanung tanong na ako sa aking mga kasamahan sa aking trabaho,pati na ang aking manager ginulo ko na sa pagtanong kung pano ba makakarating ang isang panauhin mula sa Yokohama papunta dito sa aming lugar.Mga apat na sakay siguro ng tren ang kelangan bago makarating dito ang kelangang gawin ng kaibigan kong ito.Di ko maipaliwanang ang nararamdaman ko ng panahong iyon.Masaya,excited,flattered..biruin mo,dadayuhin ako ng isang kaibigan mula sa malayong lugar para lang makita at makasama ako.whew!Kinabukasan,ala una ng tanghali ang dating niya sa istasyon ng tren sa aming lugar.Na-late pa nga ako sa usapan dahil na rin sa paghihintay ko ng taxi,nako naman... sa loob ng maga-apat na taon ko sa Japan,hindi ako sumasakay ng taxi!hahahaha... adventure!Nasa loob ako ng taxi ng tawagan ko pa ang isa sa malapit kong kaibigan mula sa Pilipinas,sinabi ko kung san at kung sino ang kakatagpuin ko ng mga oras na iyon, kung gaano ako kabado sapagkat ni anino ng taong iyon eh hindi ko pa nakikita.Pagbaba sa train station, ang sabi ng kikitain ko, naroon daw lamang siya... sa labas lang ako, habang kausap sa kabilang linya si "mine",kinakabahan ako dahil mula sa akong kinatatayuan, may isang lalaki na grabe kung makasipat sa akin, sabi ko nga kay mine, kung yun ang guy na kikitain ko, malamang sasakay na ako ng taxi at uuwi pabalik! hahaaha.. well, sa paghihintay, mula sa loob ng istasyon ng tren, may isang lalaki na dumungaw at biglang ngumiti at biglang kumaway sa akin... ako lang ang naroroon sa pwestong yon kaya im pretty sure ito na ang taong kakatagpuin ko. whew! buti na lang hindi ung lalaking nakatayo sa di kalayuan na kanina pa tingin ng tingin sa akin na akala mo eh kakainin ako ng buo... hahaha... Nagpaalam na ako kay mine ng masigurado kong eto na nga sa harapan ko si lowell.

Hi, hello.. beso beso. kwentuhan saglit.Umuualan at wala akong ideya kung ano ba talaga ang maganda naming gawin dito sa aming lugar, nahihiya ako kay lowell kasi dinayo pa talaga ako sa napakaliblib na lugar ng bansang Japan kahit na umuulan para lang makita ako. Sice pareho kaming hindi pa kumakain, napagpasyahan naming mas mabuti pang kumain na muna at dun na mapahusapan kung anuman ang pwedeng gawin.

Taxi!sa sasakyan, tawa kami ng tawa ni lowell, sabi nga... josko! first time kong sumakay ng taxi alone ng taxi, first time kong gumala mula sa akong apartment ng magisa para lang gumala with a first time met guy. hahahahah! Masayang kasama si lowell, puno ng kwento... para ngang ang tagal na naming magkakilala nung magkita kami.Sa lahat ng mga kakilala namin from the same site we were in, wala pang nakipag meet sa akin one on one at siya lang... talaga naman! ang effort! *winks*

Mother's Cafe! isang restaurant na malapit sa pinagtratrabahuhan ko siya dinlaa to have our late lunch, i think.. alas dos na un ng tanghali... kwento kwento kwento... picture picture! hahaha... we had our great time! masaya na ewan...

3:30pm ng nagpatawag na kami ulit ng taxi... nung una nga dapat magpupunta kami sa park para an lang maipakita ko sa kaniya ang sakura, ang problema, malamig at umuulan pa! awWw!eh pano yan?! nakakahiya naman dahil hindi ko alam kung san ko pwedeng ipasyal or ilibot ang kaibigan ko sa aking lugar, well, ive told him naman na hindi talaga ako lumalabas, kung lumalabas man ako, kasama ko mga kaibigan ko.. sauna,ofuro,shopping,salon! ayun! hahahaha.... samahan na lang daw niya akong magpagupit since i was scheduled to cut my hair that day... nyek! ano ba naman yan! hahahah....Game arcade?! Pachinco?! whew! ang ending namin, isang karaoke bar na malapit mula sa aking munting tahanan... Nagka-card tuloy ako don! hahahaa... siguro mga 3 oras rina ng tinagal namin sa lugar na iyon dahil ang sunod niyang sasakyan pagbalik sa Yokohama ay alas siete ng gabi... kanta dito kanta jan, kwento... tawanan, kain, lamon... at TOMA!!! hahahaha.... Matagal tagal na rin akong hindi umiinom ng alak ha! para tuloy akong uhaw to the max ng makakita ako ng alak sa menu ng karaoke bar! hahahaha...

Hindi naman ganon ka-dull ang pagtatagpo namin ni lowell... madada rin kasi siya at gaya ng sabi niya, napakanatural ko raw as in, at home na at home kahit san kami magpunta! hahaha... nakakatindig balahibo daw ako kung kumanta! nakow! hahahah... ang duga nga kasi, andami kong kinanta sa karaoke samantalaga siya.. huhuhuhu! well, masaya naman... halo halong storya ang napagusapan namin. Ang saya! well...

Kriiiiiiing..... alas siete na! uwian na... im worried kasi hindi ko alam kung nasiyahan ba siya sa pagpunta niya sa aming lugar or what, he told me na ok naman daw! pero hindi pa rin maiaalis ang pagka uneasy ko sa bagay na iyon kasi nga, ewan! hahahaha... inihatid ko siya mula sa train station, babalik raw siya tonight, he wanted to see me sing on-stage!whew! another kakabakaba itech! hahahaa... that's it! the journey.. eciting... adventure and quite funny day for both me and lowell!pareho kaming mga parang walang kaluluwang gala ng gala dito sa Isesaki! mga wala pang tulog! hahahaha....

A morning call, katatawag lang niya ulet kani kanina confirming me about my working place's address... well, let's see what will gonna happen next tonight folks!!! see yah laterz! wahoOoOo!

honey

2008-04-04T03:14:00.003+09:00

ihave my own reasons why it took me this long to visit this blog of mine here..

one, ive been really busy... with my work, with my life and of course, cyber-life

second, lack of time!

even if im online, i have lots of things to do

like, updating accounts, posting,talking to everyone else on my contacts or simply just lurking on sites

but well, today...

i felt that ive gotta post sumthin in here

ive felt that i needed to burst sumthing within me

that i dont have to talk about it

person to person

im gonna copy some on my latest posts from one of my blogs online on my next post

for i have sumthin in my head right now

that i wanna share

in here

hmMm...

few hours ago, i called my mom in the Philippines...

well, i rarely call them

the pattern's always like this

they're the ones who rings my phone then ill give them a call...

but this time, its me who called them

wHy?!

hmMm...

my mom and talked last month

telling me that my sister (ate) who's working in Singapore

is coming this April 1st and gonna be staying in the Philippines for just a week

i even considered to come over and talk with my ate since we havent see each other for what, 3 years already...

ive been waiting from anyone from my family to call me since April 1st...

nothing!

no misscalls

no messages

i even got angry

for what the heck are they doing there

and they're not even bother to call me

i got pissed off

and losen my patience

waiting

so i called my mom

hmMm

that's 11 in the evening last night

im not sure if they're already sleeping or what

but i really tried dialing my mom's phone number

and whoah!

my mom answered it and we talked

blah blah blah

unfortunately

my ate's not around that time

she went with her friends in a karaoke bar (daw)

so i told my mom that im gonna call them first thing this morning

and what excites me most

was when she told me that they've already posted few photos of them on her friendster site

i took a rush on work and hurriedly came back home to get online and see what she's talking about

kaboom!

i saw their photos...

my feelings got crushed when i saw them...

how i wish i was with them too..

taking photos

laugh together

share stories together

hug and kisses them all

whew!

well, that's it for now... its just that.. maybe im feeling lonely tonight...more because ive seen my family thou on photos only... im thinking when are we gonna be whole together again?! i can go to Singapore to visit my ate, but we're not whole with our family.. i can go to Philippines, but my ate's not around... oh well... this is life!

good day all!

Monday

2008-01-28T09:45:00.000+09:00

sSshHh... i have mha own problems in my real life but hey! quite funny coz when i get online, on this forum, while backreading on their topics and posts... hahahaa.. really made big laughs on me... hahaha... if im correct, this is the one that ive been posting before here on mha blog... know what... i didnt and dont do actions actually when i get haterz even before.... why? hahaha.. for what reason ayt! hahaha.. but this time, they're quite funny and interesting... hahaha... with their own started works, sila ngaun ang napi-pissed off! hahahaha.. funny aight?!blaming me that ive been been asking for help to everyone with what they're doing with me and "harapin" ko daw sila... hahahha.. lagapak tawa ko when i read that stupid post... hahahaha... ONE... hindi ko ugali ang magsumbong.. TWO... i dont have to kasi they're too obvious, hindi tanga ang mga taong nakakabsa at nakakamasid sa mga actions nila... no need for me to make sumbong or what... THREE... honestly.. im not good on written anger or fight... basagulera ako since 5 years old as i remember... u wont hear my words coz before that ramdam mo na init ng kamao ko sa mukha mo.. thats me...FOUR...i didnt and dont pay attention sa mga taong mas mababa level sa akin... as my beliefs says, i have my own life and why mind others'....i just stayed calm and iggy them.. but hey! hahahaha... sila sila rin ngaun ang naiinis?! bwahahhahaa.... its good that i have this blog of mine kasi dito lang ako naglalabas ng real feelings ko.. why?! obviously because, i aint go online to look for fights or what...im here coz im bored and i wanna enjoy my life, meeting and mingling with my friends, un lang.. and no other irrelevant reasons...what a funny start of the week thou :D

hmMMm... facing my real life.. hmMm... i still have no idea about what will i do or how to face my problems as of now... im confident that i know somehow i can solve and cope up with this yet i cant find any answers on how to deal with it...i think i still need to think all over and over again...

*puff*

link..

2008-01-27T13:39:00.000+09:00

it sounds funny but im kinda feeling down as in ngaun as in NOW... then i was just browsing the net then my eyes captivates me with this video.. actually.. this was already what.. a year ago.. and... it made me smile :) thanks for coldspell for making this .. nakita ko na naman siya after so many months... missin you all guys there! YP

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcoqPEqMfM8

Me... at this moment

2008-01-27T13:22:00.001+09:00

My life in a poem
a few pages is not enough
life seemed so happy
when really its been so rough
no one knows the truth
no one knows the lies
no one knows what goes on
no one can here the cries
coz the truth they cant handle
the lies they are soon to believe
something so convincing
something so easy to deceive
life is hard for all
all around people feel pain
sometimes for a moment
sometimes on and off like this rain
some people find it easy to talk
some people find it easy to let go
those girls so damn happy
I may look it although
sometimes life gets you down
sometimes life pushes you around
pulls you right back to the ground
pulls you to the corner without a sound
and that loneliness comes back
when your in a crowded room
and the fake you returns
all too soon
everyone falls in love
with what you are on the outside
when youre not really that person
but its too hard to come out of your hide
so you stay inside
till its too late to come back
the fake has consumed you
life has gone off track
coz soon before you know it
you dont know who you are
when really its all to simple
it all seems so farto pull yourself back out
to let that friend see your tears
let them know the real you
fill them in on your deepest fears
tell them of your past
tell them of that man
the one that created your sadness
the day it all began
tell them of that one night
where you thought you were to die
tell them of that one week
where you wished that he had tried
tell them of that one story
the one that haunts your dreams
the one that is so real
but in your head so it seems
tell them of that person
who believed everything he said
tell them of that on line
my god I wished you were dead
tell that special person
how it felt to feel scared
how it felt to be alone
watch the yelling if you dared
tell them how it feels
to be the only one that knows
how he really treats you
when the door is pulled closed
tell them what he did
what marks he left
on the inside on the outside
and the secrets you kept
tell them about that one guy
who was meant to keep you safe
the one that left you alone
when your heart began to race
the one that was meant to be there
to hear the tears fall
the one that was supposed to catch them
the one who would be there when you call
tell them where he went
tell them how you felt
tell them how the anger built up
and the anger that you dealt
tell that person how she went back
tell them what he did then
tell them how every feeling you have felt
has been written down in pen
tell them why you cant
talk about the truth
tell them why its hard
when you always feel so used
tell them why you laugh
when really you want to cry
tell them why you smile
when it feels like your about to die
tell them how bad it feels
when you see them holding hands
when you see the only person
that is keeping the pain still standing
tell them how it feels
knowing your pillow is the best friend
the one who knows all this stuff
knows how it feels to be at your end
tell them how every night
before you close your eyes
tell them how the pain leaks down
when the music dies
tell them about this
and maybe youll be fine
maybe something will change
maybe you just need time
maybe this s nothing
maybe e its just a phase
maybe it will all be over
in a matter of days
maybe if this poem is read
by someone that cares
maybe they can fix you
maybe theyll be there
maybe they might catch that tear
maybe that pillow will dry out
maybe it will be better
if that person finally finds out
or maybe it wont
and theyll just pretend they saw nothing
and keep moving forward
the fake you they start trusting
maybe if I keep standing still
and watch the world pass my by
maybe then I wont feel pain
maybe then I wont cry
but all I can do is hope
that its all in my fate
that one day it will change
before its too late..

Sometimes it's just so sad you can't talk about it! :(

2008-01-27T12:59:00.000+09:00

Look close inside yourself,

Look in your soul,

Your heart,

What does it tell you?

Mine tells me that I love you, that looks don't matter.

I may not be beautiful or pretty on the outside,

But look closer,

Look at me,

Look at me for who I am,

Ugly on the outside,

Gorgeous on the inside,

You say you want someone to love you for who your are.

Stop!

Look at me,

Look at me for you will see,

I'm the one your heart wants, but not the one your mind wants.

Look at me,

Look at me now and hold me tight,

Because I dont know how long I can wait for you to finally realize that we're meant to be.

Just....Just look at me for who I am.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I know that it is hard

to start a new life

a lost love cuts deep

cuts deep like a sharp knife

everything was perfect

i thought it was

why did it end

end like everything does

the harder it hurts

the more you feel

this time you know

it is for real

changes are made

life is rough

why does it have to be

so very tough

will things get worse

or will they get better

dont let me live this life forever

take me away

somewhere very far

let my new life

heal my old scar

smiles

2008-01-27T05:19:00.000+09:00

hmMm... for this day?! whew... sobrang bilis natapos ng isang araw ko ngaun *rolleyes* wondrin why huh ;)) hehehe..well, same as usual.. talked with my friends... and hahaha... ive heard more interesting topics that enlightened me today... hmMm. whatelse.. oh! mha long time long lost mico came back.. hahhaaa.. still the naughty one...walang pinagbagpo siya pa rin ung dating super khulet super katok and super grRrrr :D hahahaa... whatelse.... sa work?! grabe! andaming tao!!! i was too busy and i dont even have voice anymore right now coz i think as i remember i sung almost more than 20 songs this night! whew... hahahaa...

hmMm... ngaun ko lang napansin.. ahihihii, kaya ko pala talagang iwasan si C and K... well, i know this is for the good of everybody... people cant blame with my decisions kasi im happy right now.. i just wish na sila rin... ihave my won reasons why ive decided to quit on everything.. one, for C, kasi hindi siya ung naisip kong siya.. thou i still wanna give him a chance to see me ok... then next with K... hmMm.. well, mejo malalim...im controlling myself not to do anything about this anymore coz i know this wont last... hindi sa ayoko or what.. i just know myself... as of now maybe i have feelings for him but that feeling isnt strong enough for me to fight and stand in the near future...i just know myself kaya habang maaga pa.. :( i miss him, yes.. but that doesnt mea kakainin ko cnabi ko :)

whatelse... oh! to them... wehehehe.. makin mha day complete really! hahahhaa... i know about ur "secret" thread :P bwahahhaa.... sad to say.. "dont do to others what you dont want others do unto you.... " personally that doesnt implies on me pero gusto ko lang sabihin yan sa kanila.. hahahaa... bad honey bad honey! hahaha...i know what you're doing thou... kahit na hindi ko basahin and pansinin ang lahat.. too obvious.. di kapatol patol mga ginagawa ninyo... hahahaa.... natatawa lang ako honestly... para kaung mga batang nawalang ng candy and gustong bawiin, the problem is... ubos na ung candy.. kaya ayun... ngangawa ngawa... galaw ng galaw di mapakali... trying to get everyone's attention and have their candy back again to them.... hahahaha.... high school.... lolz

oH!!! thanks nga pala to that "lyndon" who commented on my post b4.. actually, my first commentor :)) hahaha. thanks and keep on enjoying reading mha life! mwaahh...

ROCK ON GUYS!!! w\O/w

to that bitch!

2008-01-23T13:50:00.000+09:00

mhicx.....naalala na naman kita.. and ... know what?! we're just laughing at you... masyado mong pinabababa sarili mo.. and with your attitude, dont you know na walang me gusto sau? as in for real! duh! hahahaha... men just wanna f*ck you and face the reality.... and i hate to say this but... bwahahahahha!!! hindi kita ka-level! and if gusto mo man.. sorry.. we're not even close... look at yourself... physically emotionally mentally.. do u think u deserve to be loved seriously? hahahaha.. you must be joking!

look what's happening with you.... gimmicks? yeah right.... u get f*cked and that all matters with you aight?! hahahaa.. i knew bitches like you and to tell you frankly... the first time i saw ur post... alam ko na amoy mo! you cant deny the fact na umaalingasaw ka :) you cant deny that with your clothes nor make ups.. sad to say ....

still....

2008-01-23T13:15:00.000+09:00

ill re-edit this as soon as i get other photos during my stay in Philippines last year.... shayang talaga.. hik!

me and mha loving mareng Kat!! misshuu na mare.... Trinoma Phils Oct 12,2007

me and my friend.. a stolen shot last Oct 14,2007... ang galeng pumose ng foka... hahahaa.... lil bro! ninakaw ko na shot naten! hahahaha

Photos and images by my friends

2008-01-23T11:59:00.001+09:00

stolen shots of Mark...

The Fort, Giliggans Market Market Makati Phils. Oct 13,2007

well, as of few people knows that i went to the Philippines last year for 6 days... these were some of the shots that i actually "grab" from my friend's site since i dont have a copy of it... hahaha...

MTC Oct 10-12 Makati,Phils 2007

im asking for those who have photos of mine to please send me your copies.. message me on my online accounts... YO!thanks...

this day...

2008-01-23T11:16:00.000+09:00

first, i dont know why but im kinda feeling pity... dont know if i pity myself or pity those people surrounds me... on the otherhand! im kinda happy and enlightened by some people who really has concern and loves me... i really feel that thou there's this certain even on our lives na kung pupuwede lang manapak na lang ng tao para manahimik na ang lahat... still, lumalabas ang mga taong talagang nanjan to calm u down and make u smile... whew!

know the feeling that u wanna do something but you cant.. or you shouldnt be... ang hirap ng nagtitikis ng feelings and words na gustung gusto mo ng ilabas but hindi dapat... where? hmMm... to lots of people... to him, to those fellas on this certain forum...arghh...

to him... u know i love you... oh! mali.. hindi mo pala alam yun... coz if u do... you wont bother asking me questions na parang gusto mong palabasin that you dont trust me andyou dont believe me... one trait that i hate most.... erRrr... and oh! i miss you... and thats true.. but... :)

to those few persons that wala ng magawa sa buhay nila.... bwahahahhaa!! you're just making people laugh most especially me.. thru your actions and gestures masyado ninyong pinahahalata laman ng utak niyo... hahaha! hangin!somebody even told this.. "envy is a sin" hahahaha.... and obviously naghahanap kayo ng kakampi and ang point dun... hahahaa, puros mga newbies nahuhugot niyo coz madali silang mabola... you just cant admit that people who really sees reality eh hindi niyo masama sa kaimmature-an niyo coz sino mapapahiya?! hahahaa.... you know yourselves.. and i pity you all...and oh.. sorry if hindi ko pinapansin mga posts niyo.. know what?! hindi ako nagiinternet at nagfoforumus adiktus just to pay my precious attention on ur works.. hahaha.... advice.. look infront of the mirror before u post somethin on net... baka magkaidea pa kau ng may "essence" hahahaha

oh.. to my friends online.. lalo na sa mga taong still knows "khaye garcia" thanks for everything, the images... stolen shots while im still in the Philippines kahit na mukha na akong ogag and anga... hahaha... thats the real me and whoah! accept that peepz!

3 months before my bday ;)

2008-01-17T09:56:00.000+09:00

well, what can i say about this day or past things that happenned a week or more on me... hmMm..let's see... 2 days ago,i thought we' re gonna be fine with this special guy of mine...he's soOo sweet,he's a hunk,jolly,straight forward and oh...i felt that he really just cares about me.. unfortunately... maybe i just have to end it right now coz i dont wanna continue a relationship where "trust" isnt existing...ayoko yung every minute na lang parang it seems like all i have to do is explain to him everything na nauubos oras namin sa ganon...as this moment im already missing him but there's some part in my mind that tells me that if ever im gonna fight for this feelings for him, ganon rin... lagi rin lang kaming magdidiskusyon, magpapaliwanagan, pabalik balik sa mga issues etc... so habang maaga pa, id rather stop this... maybe we just dont deserve each other... or we just dont know each other that well kasi nga hindi pa naman kami ganoon katagal magkakilala... still.... im missing him

another thing about this past few days/weeks i guess...upon browsing some of my accounts online,there's this site that.. hmMm.. kinda stinks... oh! did i just tell "stinks" hahaha.. well its just like this... of all sites that ive been active or visible... nakakatuwa itong site na 'to pwamis!hahaha.. ive met some of the members on this site last year actually... and i told them or should i say that they knew that of all the people on net that ive met in person last Oct... they're the ones that i felt true.. hindi plastik and i really had fun kahit pa sabihin nating hindi ganon katagal ang EB that time.. but this time, lately... on some posts of other members on that board, thou hindi directly na tinutukoy ung blind item nila obviously naninira sila patalikod... mga tao nga naman.... haaaayyzz... people who doesnt even know what real things are and things that real and actually happenned eh just jumps into conclusion and making intrigue about that... well, feeling sikat naman ako at pinaguusapan na pala ako behind my back knowing the fact that im being true to them...worse,mali pa sila ng speculations lmao.... hahahhaa... well, i dont have to say anything about it kasi sila lang naman nagiisip and nagpaparinig rinig ng mga ganon eh.. hahaha... if they're happy to do those kiddie stuffs, fine! dun sila.. basta ako... di ko ugali manira ng tao.. for what? fame? duh! hahaha..attention? hahaha... di naman nakakaalis or nakakabawas ng boredom ang chismis :)) hahahaha.... if someone has a problem with me, they can come upfront me hindi ung pakitang tao sila sa harap ko then pagtalikod ko pala eh kung anu ano na ginagawa at pinagsasabi.. cowardness isnt lovable!

i wanna take this opportunity to thank those people who really and still stands for me...people who really trusts and believes in me.. people who really cares and loves me... for them that always there for mw no matter what and still says, everythings gonna be ok... thanks sa inyo!

It's Thursday!

2008-01-10T03:51:00.000+09:00

couldnt imagine how happy and a bit upset today....know why?! hmMm... lemme start this... i have this guy... we've met well more than half a year already...we're not dating or what but simply just "friends"... we've been sharing lots of each other for past months and we know that we have this "thing" for both of us... we're not denying that... the problem is.... we coudn't say directly how we really for each other... example, the "love" most normally we say towards someone we really care about... sometimes i have this feelings that he aint serious at all... or he's just shy or afraid or i dont know coz i cant hear him say that he love me... we always there for each other... shares lots of our thoughts... sometimes,mha moodness enters but he still there and guide me and gives me caring advices etc... but still....i just dont understand why some guys were like that... is he really that gentleman?does he really cares for me? or... do we really have this special feelings towards each other.. i keep on telling people that i have no intimate partner as of now coz i cant say that im already committed with him thou my hearts keeps on beating while he's around coz i cant get an assurance from him.. erRr.. i hate this! im picking my own answers to my own questions coz he aint talking at all about his feelings for me... well, we've just talked a while ago... and still the answers left unspoken... i got irritated and again asked him about what our real score is... know what he told me?! erRr

"know what hon,even if you wont hear me say " I Love You! " to you.. that doesnt mean you're not special for me...in fact i am and i care for you so much... i dont want you to get hurt... im just being carefull...madali lang sabihin ang " I Love You Hon " pero ayokong sabihin lang yun sau.. i wanna prove it... " ~ Kaye Tanedo

thats why im not sure if that means we're fine or kami na.... ang hirap... feeling ko nagaassume lang ako... feeling ko hindi lang talaga niya ako gusto.... feeling ko......

ah ewan! kakalito mga lalaki!

i even told him that im upset and dissappointed sa mga narinig ko from him... that i dont know if im happy or not coz of that...then he thought of what ive said... im gonna lie low of him,set him already aside... erRr! i dont know what to say and do or what... im troubled... but afterwards... i still have goosebumps while we're talking ::) hahaha... ang gulo noh!

whatta'day!!!

2008-01-05T12:56:00.000+09:00

.... ganda ng araw ko!!! yahoO!!!!

first... ive talked with two of the people closest to my heart last night and today...

second.... walang makuletz

third....ive got my mom's xmas card for me

and lastly.... im happy lang talaga kasi matutulog na ako ulet.... getting ready for another working day mamya... haaaaayyzz....

laterzzz blogmwah :*

HOLIDAYS

2008-01-05T12:34:00.000+09:00

well, ive recieved the christmas card my mom has been asking me almost everytime she calls me...kesyo natanggap ko na raw ba... kesyo siguro malapit ng dumating etc... and hey! i got it just now.. upon opening and reading the card... well... parang tinamaan ako sa mga words na ginamit ng nanay ko.. hahaha... i grew up with my grandmom since i was born and my mom that time was busy with her work overseas... we havent got the chance to get closer talaga.. kahit nung maliliit pa lang kami ng ate and kuya ko.... but that card from my mom melted my heart... erRrRr.... gonna re-typed what that card says in here...

To a Dear Daughter

watching you grow,

sharing your life,

and just having you

for my daughter

has brought me

more joy and pride

and more happiness

than you could ever know...

reading the cover of that card... whew! sabi ko sa sarili ko.. me balak ata akong paiyakin ng nanay ko ah! grRrRr....we weren't that open emotionally talaga kasi ng mom ko... para kaming aso't pusa.. im the favoured one kasi sa family.. im the youngest... which... noon siya ang star ng family kasi unica hija siya ng mommy ( grandmom ) ko....so.. lahat ng luho ko,anything.... bigay todo lahat ng familia.... na laging sinasalungat ng mom ko kaya hindi kami talaga close.... sa loob ng card...

Hon,

I may not be a perfect mother to you, but always bear in your mind and heart that " I Love You " my dear daugher. I'll be always on your side...

Merry, Merry X'mas!! An a very Happy New Year!!!

Regards to everyone there!!!

Lovemost,

mama

so simple right.... straight!! yet... made my teardropps fell.... ive been living independently maybe for a couple of years already and during those times... i know and i can feel.... mas maganda yung ganito... mas nagiging open mom ko sa akin thou minsan exagge na... but all i can say.... between my childhood years and now.... i love my life now!! my family... my friends... people who knows me and still accepts me thru my worst moods thru anything.... whew!!!2008.... wishing for a good start.... :*

Yuletide '07

For you honey,

You are a precious gift

Heaven especially sent to us.

We thank you for filling our lives

With love and joy and meaning.

May you find perpetual happiness,

Immeasurable peace

And unending prosperity

Not only this Christmas

But the whole year through.

Have a wonderful Christmas.

lovelots,

mama

erRrRr..paiyakin talaga ako ng nanay ko.... CUT!

2008-01-03T10:47:00.000+09:00

January 3,2008....whew!!!i just woke up from my bed and already thinking.... erRrRr " may pasok na ako mamaya ulet!" haaaaaayyzzz..... holiday vacation's over... what did i do for 3 days? nothin! lol..... starting today... my real year 2008 starts..... whew!

anyways... what happenned on me?! well... i have the mood of depressed and hatred .... so down and KAINISSSSS..... ang aga aga... yesterday's incidents' still on mha head... know what?! grRrRr...

well, there is this forum that im loving to stay and make "tambay"... then yesterday... actually.. i have been posting their names as love teams of that board, i have no idea really if there's real or big thing going with them personally and in real life but...ive posted their names as a loveteam... my post doesnt really intends on something... well, that guy has or had been heard of rumours that he had an ex gf on the board and as far as i can see... as people or members there reacts and posts etc...wala na talaga sila.. so,new love team.. new posts.... thats all ive been thinking...its my fault ive posted other woman's name rather that pairing that guy with his ex gf.... but hey!!!ex means past gf and i have no idea about other people's life in real life... i was just enjoying posting etc....but then.. all of a sudden... that guy sent me a pm @ ym... at first it was just a plain hi and hello and all that but then, he asked about that thing that ive posted... ive posted there that its better to pair that guy with another girl not to his ex gf but new one because it looks good to see them together on pix... but the guy thought ive seen something... pictures of him together with that girl ( i think that the guy and his ex were already arguing about that in private ) well, according to that guy.. there were some rumours that has been spreading inside that forums and he doesnt know any of it.... well, more on me! i know nothing about that either!! as if i care.... i have seen nothing and i know nothing.. all ive posted was whati thought and saw between that guy and that girl on that forum.. but the guy thinks i know something... errRr... if there's some "things" going on with them.. i dont know... pinost ko lang na bagay sila based on the pictures that ive seen.. not because ive seen them together or what....like what rumours said... ni hindi ko nga narinig ung mga ganong rumours coz people who knows me really... dont share gossips about other members life on me...i have my own and they know na wala akong paki sa chismis ng ibang tao... wtf! and then sa akin ibubunton galit nung guy sa mga naninismis sa kanila....gosh!he doesnt barely know me to accuse me on something na hindi clear sa kaniya... i understand na namissunderstood niya or nila malamang the way ive posted there but hey!!! the time when he asked me about that post of mine.. ive answered him directly na un ang naiisip ko hindi dahil sa may nakita akong picture nilang dalawa nung girl gaya ng nakakalat na chismis daw sa kanila ( na hindi ko alam ) and the guy said... when he asked me daw.. puro emoticons ang sinasagot ko! duh!!!!!! sa lahat ng nakakakilala sa akin.... people knows me na mahilig talaga sa mga smilies/emoticons.... sa lahat ng posts/replies ko meron at merong emoticons yan... on some forums where i have also an account...even admins/ceo's makes me my own character smilies there kasi alam nilang i like or should i say i love smilies and emoticons so hindi dapat gagawing issue ang mga smilies na pinopost or nirereply ko... but to that guy..... he concluded and judged me with those smilies... thou fyi, kasama ng mga smilies na yun ang pagsagot ko sa tanong niya.... erRrRr

anyways..........thats it! at this time of day ( Jan 3,2008...11:10 in the morning ) thats all in my thoughts!!! have a gud day everyone!!! mwaaahh :*

Bye 07

2007-12-31T08:11:00.000+09:00

whew.. last day for 2007... i dont know what exactly to post in here well i just wanna greet everyone happy new year and so on so forth :)) hahahaa....

for me... WHOAH!! what a year!!!bringing back memories of 2007... hahaha.. i had fun, troubled....broken.... erRRrr.. etc...

i almost worked the whole year whew! and got only that 6 days vacation in Philippines last october which turned out not soOo good coz of etc etc etc....

and now... another sleep then it will be 2008 already :)) hahahaa.. and im gonna be 24 by April.. erRr.. hate it! im getting older each year :P lolz....

well.... i wish this coming year.. better for everything ;) GoOd luck 2008!!!!

Me..in Philippines 07

2007-12-28T06:29:00.000+09:00

to start this.... the night before my flight going back to Philippines october 10,2007... my PMS came so to tell and let everybody knows that in the first place NOTHING HAPENNED sa akin during my stay there.. some rumours says na meron etc etc etc.. sorry for those who keeps on saying that

NO ONE had the opportunity to get intimiate with me during my stay there ONE is because i had a bf that time... NOT even my bf!!! wHy?! its because i have my monthly period when i came back there... and AYOKO lang talaga...

someone spreading rumours that im gay... sorry to say but i have friends who saw and stay with me during my stay there who can tell the truth about that... * dang! may bakla na palang dinudugo pek*** ngayon

somebody says that i was totally DRUNK as in langong lango daw ako the night ( October 12 ) na nakipagkita ako sa kanila sa isang karaoke bar.. to tell her... uminom ako! YES!! but... isa lang masasabi ko.. KELAN BA AKO NALASING?! ang pagkakaalam kong last time na nalasing ako was 2005 pa.. and kahit nga walang tulugan nung nanjan ako di ako nalasing.. tas.. para lang sa ilang shots malalashing ako?! hahaha.. you're making me laugh NEWBIE!

me nagsabi rin na nsa isang party raw ako last October 13 sa isa sa mga forums ko rin... but hey!!! WALA ako dun kasi busy ako sa EB namin sa iba kong forum.... dont make tsismis GIRL na walang katorya torya

meron din.. from a respected ' I treated him a friend b4' sa mtc... nagsasabi... "Hindi ko type si khaye!!" ~ KEBER KO!!! hahaha... eh nakita nga kita eh kinausap ba kita? nilande ba kita gaya ng gusto mong palabasin sa mga tao?! laugh your ass!! sayang nirespeto pa kita.. pero ngaun nalaman kong ganyan ganyan ka magsalita.. duh!!! you dont have to say anything na gaya ng mga ganyan for the first place.. hindi tayo close! hindi rin tayo nagkausap.. at lalo namang hindi kita type!! period

dun kay "R"... sad to say.. bumaba tingin ko sau.. even my respect i guess.. biruin mo.. wala pala talagang silbi lahat ng pagpunta ko sau and even knowing you and letting be a part of my life.. sorry for my language pero nung malaman ko kagaguhan mo s akin.... erRrR.. i thought ako ang nagkamali.. i thought ang sama sama ko na ewan.. abah!! eh kita mo naman.. sa simulat simula pa pala hindi na dapat pang natuloy ang relationship natin kung matatwag mo mang relationship nangyare sa atin..biruin mo.. THE NIGHT BAGO MO AKO SUNDUIN SA NAIA OCTOBER 10,2007... AMPUGA NASA KANDUNGAN KA PALA NI "M"!! UTOT MO KASI NAGSASALITA NG WALA SA KATINUAN YANG "M" KAPAG NALALASING　NA SA　TAONG KAIBIGANG CLOSE KO PA NAGSABI NG KABABUYAN NIYO!!!!
so ngayon nalaman ko yan... sorry pero... HAHAHAHA <<>

sa dami ng tsismis na nabuo ng matagal dahil sa pananahimik ko... you can come and drop me a message... khaye garcia doesnt have to tell lies knowing the fact that my life's like an open book here... eversince i came here... wala akong dineny wala akong tinago.. so PEOPLE NEED NOT TO JUDGE ME AND PUT ME INTO CONCLUSION NA HINDI TOTOO!!! madali lang akong makausap... im just a message away...

WELCUMM 2008!!!

In My Own Opinion..... KG'07

2007-12-28T06:20:00.000+09:00

Why your not good enough for this
or special enough for that?

ever look in a mirror and feel absolutly repulsed at the reflection that
dances if front of your eyes.
taunting?

trying to find some beauty in SOMETHING, and coming up a little short?

sitting here at 12.47 am cuz i cant sleep
feeling a little more than lonely.
more towards the side of emtpyness.

thinking about all the choices in life i've made. and thinking of all
the things i've done and finding that the only things that's made my dad
proud to say that im his daughter was when i played football for the city
one year, and got teased and pretty much mentally tortured by almost all
of the guys on my team, everyday, just to make sure that my dad would
WANT to say that he was really proud of me for, once.

thinking about how im gonna go on pretending like i always do, to maked
sure no one worries about me.

covering up all of my mental flaws by pretending to be happy
(an art of which i have truly masterd)

and finding it harder every day to wake up and look in a mirror, because
im scared of the reflection. of all the flaws that i have

ever wonder why the public decided eating disorders with legs are the
only thing that should bare the covers of our magazines that the next
generation sees everyday of thier lives?

why the second someones over 100 pounds, they're suddenly fat,
and people stray from them like they have a deadly disease?

i wonder
why for one day
i cant be truely happy
and not be scared to look in the mirrori wonder
why im so lonely and what i can do to myself to change that

why i cry myself to sleep more often then not.
why im so fakewhy i pretend happyness.

and i can never find the answers.

Khaye Garcia in Philippines p.2

2007-12-28T05:29:00.000+09:00

dationMy sorrow to hidden for anyone to touch,my wounds to deep to mend, my happiness to shattered to pretend.-by me

October 13... me and "R" had again that same argument...its all started with the guy who's sending me Pms eversince and same guy na hindi ko naalalang nakakausap ko na even b4..."G"...i did tol "R" the night that we first had that mini coffee eb na "G" sounds and looks familiar pero hindi ko na inaksayan pa ng panahon para pa isipin kung paano at kung sino ung guy na un sa akin.. for what?! right!!ang mahalaga para sa akin that time is nasabi ko pa rin kay "R" na "G" sounds familiar sa akin... butt he problem is.. ginawang issue ni "R" yon.. he kept in teeling me na alibi ko lang daw na nakalimutan ko un... erRrRr.. i just hate reminiscing that part of our argument... inayo ayo ko siya,i triedmy best to let him know my side and tried to make him believe on me... i should have known that how will he believe me if in the first place.. he doesnt trusts me.. balewala lahat ng sinabi ko, pagaayo ko sa kaniya... almost all the time nandun ako behind him explaining everything but what did he done to me?! yeah right.. deadma niya lang ako... wala siyang pinakinggan sa mga sinasabi ko.. pinagpipilitan niya pa rin na ang alam niya ang totoo and ako ang mali.. yeah right.. maybe tama siya.. my fault! my fault kasi nakikipagusap ako kahit kanino... but hey! i wasnt even flirting with "G" or to anyone kahit pa makipagusap esp alam kong i have already a relationship...i do talk yes.. pero i dont see anything wrong about it...dang!napuno ako sa accusations and sa pagiging malamig ni "R" sa akin.. until ice accepted the fact that i shouldnt be there anymore with him.. for what?! ano yon... spend ko last few days ko sa pinas na magkagalit kami?! na ganon ang tingin niya sa akin?! na ganon na lang basta?! i cant... so ive decided to go... the time na nagbalot na ako and fixed all of my things... he talked to me.. and again.. explain everything to me.. that he wanted me to say sorry and admit na i lied... erRrR... how can i say na i lied eh sa totoo namang nakalimutan kong sabihin sa kaniya sa unat una pa lang ung about "G" sHit! kelangan ko bang memorizin lahat ng nasa inbox ng PM ko sa bawat forums na meron ako sa net?! i talk to people and ive told "R" about that.. but that doesnt mean na memorized ko from the beginneng and end of our conversation sa lahat ng taong makausap ko.. un ang hindi niya maintindihan.. and hindi ko rin magets kung bakit kinailangan pang MERONG bumukas ng inbox ko sa MTC that time para lang sabihin kay "R" na naguusap na kami ni "G" eversince.... ang galing! arghh...so again,bitbit ko ng maleta ko and all my stuffs, he talked to me... etc etc etc.. but hey! im khaye garcia and ako to... nung sinabi ko ngang uuwi ako ng pinas kahit ura urada talagang umuwi ako... im the kind of person na kapag me sinabi that just simply means.. YON na YON! matigas ang ulo ko eversince.. kaya nga nung sinabi kong mahal ko siya without anymore of thinking... hindi ko inaatrasan ang kahit na ano basta nasabi ko na.. pinaninindigan ko lahat kung pupuwede.. kaya nung sinabi kong i have to go and hindi ko kayang nandun nga ako kasama ko nga siya pero hindi niya ako pinaniniwalaan and pinagtitiwalaan, pano pa niya sasabihin sa aking mahal niya ako kung ganon rin?! erRr... in short... i left him..pag bitbit ko ng bagahe ko, diretso sa elevator pababa sa lobby and un na! TAXI! that time wala akong maisip na puntahan... siguro 12nn or 1 pm ata un...isip isip isip... hangang sa terminal ng Victory liner ako napadapad.. dun ako nagstay... bumili pa nga ako ng ticket to Tarlac kung sakaling wala na talaga akong maisip na mapuntahan that time.. so while sitting, i have so many thoughts about him, about what to do next etc etc... i know myself, once na umalis na ako sa isang guy thats it.. u wont see me coming back... so isip ng another plan... hindi naman ako pwedeng umuwi ng Tarlac that time coz meron pa akong mga natitirang appointments sa manila..i end up staying @ the Crowne's Plaza in Ortigas around 6pm ata yun o mas maaga ng onte...pagpasok ko sa room ng hotel talagang bagsak ako sa bed.. whew!"R" keeps on texting calling me that time.. asking kung nsan na ako etc etc.. ive told him that time that i already went home to my family in Tarlac kasi ayokong malaman niyang nandun pa rin ako malapit sa kaniya...ayokong malaman niyang nasa crownes ako, kasi baka... hmm.. maraming akala na ayokong mangyari kaya hindi ko sinabing nasa manila pa rin ako nun... anyways... pinapunta ko sa room ko yong isa kong friend si "S" he accompanied me there, kasama ko rin siyang umattend sa EB namin...i had fun... as in! i enjoyed their company.. small gathering we ate and had some drinks sa isang parag resto around makati ata un.. mga 8 or 9pm na rin ata kami nakarating dun...around 11-12mn ( October 14 ) ung mareng kat ko nasa roOm na raw na raw ng hotel ko kaya nagmadali na kaming umalis from the EB...sa room ng hotel, nandun ung mare ko ung isa naming friend then ako and some friends from the EB na pinuntahan namin... dun namin tinuloy inuman.. kwentuhan etc.. hanggang sa umuwi na rin ung mga friends ko around 3 am...ang natira na lang ung mare ko tsaka ung friend niya... while drinking, tumwag ung iba naming friends from other forum and sabi gusto daw pumunta sa place namin ... sabi ko ayokong malaman ng mga tao lalo na sa mtc na nasa manila pa rin ako so talagaang palihim nila akong pinuntahan sa roOm ko that time... i believe na walang chu-chu sa mga friends ko na nagpunta s aplace ko that time... kasi pare pareho kaming hindi dapat or wala dapat makaalam na nsa manila ako that time esp kasama ko sila.. so talagang.. blood-blood ang promises namin sa isat isa...inuman namin natapos aroun 4-5pm ng hapon ( October 14,Sunday ) i left alone kasi nawala na lahat ng mga kainuman ko,LOL.ung iba kelangan umuwi sa knila of course, ung iba me naghahanap na.. ung iba may work.. ung iba gusto na lang daw nila akong pagpahingahin naman.... so yun.. i called my mom in Tarlac to come over the hotel kasi hindi na ako makakatravel pa papuntang Tarlac sa kaso ko that time.. i needed to take a rest and sleep kasi halos walang tulugan ang ginawa naming inuman that night... nung dumating ang mom ko kasama with my two pamangkins, usap usap etc.. pero hindi rin ako sinamahan pa ng mom ko matulog that tiem sa hotel. umuwi rin siya kasama mga bata kasi may pasok ata ung mga bata the next day... i forgot what time na nun nung dumating isa kong friend para samahan ako sa hotel... erRrR... kahiya hiya pero tinulugan ko talaga with matching HILIK ung friend ko "P" nung dumating.. cguro sa sobrang pagod and siguro dinatnan na rin ako ng tama ng alak na nainom ko nung nakaraang araw.. talagang.. TULOG!!Knock Out!!!! hindi ko na nga namalayang nakatulo na rin pala ung friend ko dun na hindi ko man nakausap nung dumating sa room ko.... erRr... next morning... October 15, last day ko sa Crowne's.. may isa pa akong araw para sa stay ko sa Pinas before akong umuwi sa Japan..kung uuwi pa ako ng Tarlac then travel again the next day for my flight baka malate ako sa flight ko and pagod pa kaya ive decieded to stay pa rin sa lugar mas malapit sa NAIA... ang binagsakan ko... INTERCON Makati... and i wanna thank her again for that :* anyways... nagpahatid ako kay "P" hanggang sa intercon bago siya umalis para sa lakad naman talaga niya... so nung umalis siya,me alone went to a mall ( SM )para naman ipare-sched ang uwi ko sa Japan kasi i moved my sched a day earlier sa real sched ng uwi ko.. so un... from mall nagpasundo ako kay "S" pauwi na sa intercon...hindi rin siya nagtagal sa room ko kasi kinailangan na niyang umuwi... another friend of mine visited me that time.. unfortunately, ilang beer lang nainom namin he left me already kasi nga kelangan ko na talagang magpahinga for my flight's gonna be the next day.. erRrR... SAYANG!!! so un! the next day.. the day of my flight.. dumating ng maaga sa room ko si "S" for saying bon voyage etc hanggang sa pareho na rin naming dalawa iniwan ang intercon.. siya papunta sa ewan and me para sunduin ang kuya ko na maghahatid sa akin until airport NAIA.. and thats it!! my 6 days of stay in Philippines 2007!!! sa dami ng chika about me... i dont know.. no comment!! bahala kayo....

Khaye Garcia in Philippines 2007 p.1

2007-12-26T08:21:00.000+09:00

Let go of what will never last...

after so many months that ive chose to keep my mouth shout about what happenned..after all those rumours and intrigues people talked about me...im now breaking my silence!!!

after 3 attempts to go and visit Philippines this year, with so many reasons... i never got the chance to go there not until this month of October ( 10-16,2007 )

i was scheduled to arrive in Manila Oct 10 2pm...and "R" ( my bf that time ) picked me up at NAIA...that's our first meeting in person actually... we've met on net...and i dont have to post my first impressions about him that time now.... anyways..... so then... he picked me up there and we directly went on his condo in Makati for i have things....i was totally excited to come back to Philippines after 17 months of not visiting Pinas....not just of course to meet "R" for all i know i was in love that time...but i have or had so many schedules for those 6days of stay there...so from "R"'s place...we went on a mall i forgot the name of that mall near his place... we bought my fave tequila ( Reposado 1800 ), foods.. oh! i think that was the time that we've bought the barbeque thing!! geeezz... im craving for that again now!LOL...when we came back to his place..ako lang ang uminom ng 1800 then "R" had his wine ( erRr, i forgot again... ) oh!! the place of "R" is definitely WOW!! hahaaha... /// i drank 1/4 ata of 1800 alone coz we dont have enough time to finish it kasi may coffee EB that time ung group namin sa forum that we both are members in..sa coffee eb...hmmmm....ive met several peepz there..honestly speaking...i had fun that time!kwentuhan chismaxan and all the time i had that smile na talagang meaning i wasnt bored...there's this familiar Name of a guy there but that time hindi ko masyadong pinagisipan kung sino or kung paano ko siya nakilala... enough! after that coffee eb... me and "R" went back to his place coz im sheduled to go to Tarlac to my relatives naman of course..on our way back to his condo i tol him that that GUY's sounds familiar to me... that i think i saw his name on my Inbox @ MTC ( hindi ko lang talaga na inisip coz wala naman talaga sa akin un that time... ).most of the times i have problems in sleeping... so paguwi sa crib ni "R" i needed to watch a movie just to get myself to sleep...the next day... i went to see my mom,kuya with his wife and my pamangkin in Pampanga...ive spent half of that day with them plus my relatives who lives in Pampanga but i made it a point that ill be back in Makati by 12mn...so pagbalik ko sa condo niya....wento wento wento until he openned the topic about the guy from that coffee eb thing b4 tht day.. he was accusing me that ive told him lies... erRrr...na kesyo matagal ko na raw kausap usap si G ( name of the guy from coffee eb ) sa totoo lang hindi ko talaga agad natandaan un... sorry to day that pero un ang totoo...but "R" kept on saying na palusot ko lang daw ung pagiging makakalimutin ko... "R" told me na bakit daw para daw kaming hindi magkakilala ni G sa coffee eb...di ko daw kinausap, like we used to do sa mga PMs namin... sabi ko naman sa kaniya na talagang hindi ko inisip or nireminisce that time ung mga PMs ko non... coz i was busy listening to the peepz talkings sa coffee eb...since first time pa lang naming magkita in person ng mga taong nandun... "R" told me that somebody from MTC took a look on my inbox and found out that me and G were talking already b4 that coffee eb... early August ata...hat time ko lang naalala si G ung talagang si G... and i know na wala naman kaming ginagwang masama.. we were just talking... joking... saying hi's and hello's and thats all... pero hindi un pinaniwalaan ni "R" he even told me that i have to act normal ung totoong magkakilala nga daw kami ni G sa karaoke eb namin for my 3rd day of stay there...erRr../// the next day... Oct 12... sa karaoke bar ang lakad namin for EB for the group.... 6PM dinner sa haws ni "R" then 7 meet sa karaoke bar ( i forgot the name ) around 2 or 3 pm that day...hinatid ako ni "R" sa trinoma coz im meeting my friend from my other forum... sa trinoma, nagkita kami ng mareng kat ko.... we went on a resto sa loob ng trinoma.. inom inom kwentuhan :) errr.. ang sarap makipagkwentuhan sa mare ko :) ang sarap ng feeling kahit first time ko pa lang siyang ma meet parang ang tagal na namin talagang magkaibigan..while drinking and eating... me and mareng kat made few texts and calls sa mga friends namin... dumating bigla sa resto first si JJ with his 2 girl friends...sumunod si jeff and lastly si rey...inom inom picture picture kwentuhan... ang saya namin.... then i "R" texted me to say na cancelled na raw ung dinner sa haws niya b4 the karaoke eb... ive asked him why and he told me na cinancel nga raw niya... sabi niya stay daw muna ako sa trinoma... so un.... around 7pm ata ng dumating ung sis SG ko kasabay ko ng pupunta sa crib ni "R" para magayos for that karaoke eb... pagdating sa condo... i knew iba timpla ni "R" pero wala ng time para pa pagdisksyunan pa un.. 3 of us went to the venue.... i met lot of peepz there from same group....kantahan etc... inuman... tuwang tuwa ako kay sis tessa :) and PK :D nakalimutan ko na name pa nung isang guy na mukhang mabait din... sis SG sis honey si tessa pk and the rest ang saya kasama...humabol na lang ng dating si lobo that time pero hindi rin kami nagusap... si G nandun din and he even gave lahat ng babae pati ako ng flowers ( that time kasi nsa labas kaming mga babae nagsmoke eh me nagtitinda ng flowers nagkataong nasa labas si G nun... kaya un ) to make the story short....bitin ung time ng eb na un for me ut umuwi na kami lahat sa mga kaniya kniya naming lugar with a smile ( well para sa akin i was happy and i enjoyed the eb naman kasi ) the next morning.... Oct 13....umaga.. iba timpla ni "R" inaamo amo ko siya pero wala...galit siya deadma niya ako... why?! well.. same issue...about G... that i lied etc etc etc... hanggang sa nauwi sa pagiimpake ko ng mga gamit ko and decided to walk out na...saka lang niya ako pinansin nung paalis na ako all the while pagalit siya but that time he wanted me to say sorry... for i lied ata and totell that its my fault... gosh! eh ayaw niyang maniwala sa mga sinasabi ko ni hindi niya nga pinansin pag aamo ko sa kaniya tas ganon lang...i walked out... wala akong idea or nowhere to go that time... hindi naman ako pwedeng magpunta sa malayo kasi night ng 13 im scheduled to meet my friends in FHM BB.... ive stayed at terminal of Victory Liner sa QC for 4 or 5 hours ata... bitbit ko maleta ko lahat ng gamit ko.....thinking of what to do next.. where to go and pano ko spend ang 3 more days of stay ko sa pinas ng hindi ako magsisisi sa pag uwi ko dun...ung mga friends ko naman may work, ung iba nsa malayong lugar.. ung iba hindi ko na inisip pang bulabugin that time.. until a friend of mine told me a name of a hotel near sa QC that time... Crowne's plaza... dun ako nagpadiretso sa taxi driver... dun ako tumuloy from terminal ng Victory liner...

to be continued...

You Moved On.....NO!!!

2007-12-26T08:07:00.000+09:00

You tell yourself you moved on
because you wanted to
but everyday you check your e-mail
just to see if he wrote you...
you tell yourself you moved on
because it wouldnt have last
yet you believe
he'll come back
still
living in the past...
you tell yourself you moved on
because you found someone new
but you miss your ex so much
wonderin if he miss you...
you tell yourself you moved on
because you have changed
yet you wish he still called you
if only things were the same...
you tell yourself you moved on
but he still has your heart
wish you knew the real him
and saw his lies from the start

ARIES

2007-09-30T11:03:00.000+09:00

im an Arian and just found this site from one of mha forums.. it sounded funny @ first but upon reading and analyzing its thought... whew... quite REAL!!! hahahaa

Aries - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet.Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you.Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected.
Your negative traits:
You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements.Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to regret it later.You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had.
Your ideal partner:
A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics.Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months.Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased.
Your dating style:
Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your ideal date may involve a couple motorcycles or naked skydiving.
Your seduction style:
Honest and direct - you have no need for romance or much foreplay.Show off. You like to show your lover how you're the best ever.Ambitious. You often like to go all night - or aim for multiple orgasms.
Tips for the future:
Start to believe in second and third chances. You don't have to dump them so fast.Savor the process. Sometimes the best part of falling in love is taking things in slow motion.Let go of comparisons. If someone's with you, then you've already one. Stop worrying about exes.
Best color to attract mate: Red
Best day for a date: Tuesday

What's Your Love Profile?

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miSSed'yAh

2007-08-10T04:04:00.000+09:00

well... i feel im kinda lost these past few days.. dont know why.. but i do feel sometimes that im lost and ive got nowhere to go and no one to have and to hold ( well, i guess that part's true.. )

i wake up each day... Doing same routine.. same shits and all those stuffs... from mha apartment to work... from work to apartment.. an everyday routine and got nothing new for these past few months... i can do actually anything i wanna do or go anywhere i wanna go but... i dont know but id rather stay @ home and sleep nor eat nor surf the net... some people might say.. its kinda boring lifestyle.. but... id love to be like these and got the mood to be like this... until when?! well, i dont wanna think about that as of now coz all id love to do for the moment is this... to stay away and alone but im nOt lonely :D i do actually enjoys every day of mha life!!!

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aLone

2007-07-29T04:09:00.000+09:00

its been a busy and boring day for me today.. errr...

i woke up around 6pm and went to work by 7:30 and even @ mha workplace... err.. soOo boring!!!

i never recieved any calls nor messages on mha fon today, and that also made my day incomplete... i got used to have daily fon calls and even short messages but i dont know why today... errr... ( inis!! )

as i arrived home ( 2 hours ago ) ... browsing the net... trying to look for anything just to make me busy and not to get bored.. but up to nowww.. geeeezzz.... i feel like im a deep shit today.. arghhh

is there anything good that will happen in me today?? or full of boredom and shit??..

oh.. how i wish i could just buy a plane ticket and go wherever i want and enjoy life...

its soOo hOt in here right now.. my room's got a cooler already yet.. im sweating ... errrrr...

anyways, thats it for now...

i dont have anything in mha mind right now for mha blog coz as usual... im pissed off!

gotta go and take a hot bath and go to sleep afterwards... see'yah blogger tomorrow!!! *tsuUuUupPpP*

Si Pedro at Cardo after the exam.

Cardo: Perdo, nahirapan ka ba saquestions sa exam?
Pedro: Hindi!Cardo: Ang galing mo naman!
Pedro: Nahirapan ako sa answers!

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Dahil sa nananatiling "ColonialMentality" ng ating mga kababayan,marami ang nagpapalit ng kanilang mgapangalan matapos silang sumumpa ngkanilang US citizenship. Sa ibabanito ay mga halimbawa ng mga datihangPilipino na tuluyan ng itinakwil andkani - kanilang pangalang Pilipino.

Pangalang Pilipino ... Ipinalit saAmerican

Name
1. Restituto Fruto - Tutti Fruti
2. Casimiro Bocaycay - CashmereBouquet
3. Rogelio Dagdag - Roger Moore
4. Veneracion De Asis - VenerealDisease
5. Alfonso De Asis - Alzheimer'sDisease
6. Topacio Mamaril - Top Gun
7. Francisco Portero - Frank Porter
8. Juanito Lakarin - Johnny Walker
9. Esteban Pagtakhan - Stevie Wonder
10. Leon Mangubat - Tiger Woods
11. Burgos Hari - Burger King
12. Ligaya Almundo - Joy To The World
13. Maria Natividad - Mary Christmas
14. Ligaya Anonuevo - Happy New Year

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Ano ang hayop na hindi sigurado?
-Baka

Ano ang hayop na pinuputol?
- Cat

Ano ang hayop na laging ayos?
- Ox

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Teacher: Miguel spell horse!
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Miguel: H....O....

Teacher: Bilisan mo
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Miguel: H....O....R...

Teacher: Sabing bilisan mo
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Miguel: Ya! Tigidig!!!Tigidig!!!Tigidig...

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IDOT: "Kumusta na? Long time no seeah!"
BONI: "Kararating ko lang galing saAfrica."
IDOT: "Africa?"
BONI: "Doon kami nadestino."
IDOT: "Hindi ba maraming cannibalsdoon?"
BONI: "Nakakatakot nga, pero mgaedukado na ngayon sila."
IDOT: "Hindi na ba sila kumakain ngtao?"
BONI: "Nangangain pa rin ng tao, pero gumagamit na ng kutsara!"

nYtnYtie :D

Bad Day ... <_<

2007-07-28T04:04:00.000+09:00

... its mha one and only brother's birthday yesterday and i feel guilty coz up to now we're not talking with each other.. people cant blame me... ive got mha own reasons why ive been like this on them...

arghh... im not in the mood to post anything here right now coz im mad and stressed out and kinda tired from work... errr!!!

plus!!! got that heart ache from someone i thought.. true... reliable and man enough for his words...damn! if i only knew it from the start...perhaps i wont expect and treat him soOo special from others... errr!! i was wrong... and guess... again.. time to move on!!!!

" Thought I Was InLove "

Before i couldn't trust any other guy
Until you helped me off my feet
So i could finally fly
You helped me threw all this heat
Made me strong to not care what other people think
My days where so much brighter then I finally had something to look forward to at the end
Ive never met a man like you
You stole my heart and broke it into two
These broken wings of mine can not fly anymore no longer shine
You made me weak and unable to speak
When you lied and cheated
Not a very good technique
But u did a good job making me defeated
Thinking you were the one
To take away my nightmares from the past
Thinking this was a new begging but i guess it never begun
My wings have been broken
I can no longer fly or shine anymore
Those words i said i wish they were unspoken

Love.... hUrts....

2007-07-27T04:13:00.000+09:00

whew... it's been i guess 3 days since i last openned mha pc... well, of course ive been busy with mha works and all those stuffs here...

what's for todays' post?

hmmm... lem'me put some selected pix of mine... and some quotes/poems thats inside mha head right now.. geeeeezz.. i feel soOo down today... actually those days that ive never been on net makes me think and wondered what do i still have to do with this networking communication with some people who actually getting closer with me each passing day... im much emotional and ive been starting to expect thou i know the rule on net.. (1) never trust your feelings!!... kinda sad coz for soOo long.. "Hindi pa rin ako matauhan!"

Love Quotes
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.

Love Quotes
In love never put yourself in a situation where you don't know where you stand in person’s life.Never asumes, never expect so that when they choose to drop you,YOU have enough strength to move on.I am holding on to thought that you’re not mine I’m going to look into your eyes smile and say you’re not mine, then I will walk away turn around for the last second and say but I wish you were.

Love Quotes
i hope your happy for breaking a heart....a heart that was so f*cking good to you...a heart that loved you for you....a heart that cant heel without your love...baby just tell me where i went wrong???

haaaaaaayyzzz...... well love really s*cks!!! once you fall in love there will never be right or wrong for everything around you makes everything perfect.. thou there's nothing as PERFECT.. once you've been blinded by this feelings mostly to some people who's feelings we're not as what you feels for them.. haha! most of the time most of us encounters this kind of situation.. where we fall in love with someone who can't return or cannot love us back the way we wanted to be... and that really HURTS!!!... or sometimes we'll just realize that.. LOVE's not enough to make us happy and have peace of mind... for love's a game for two... and not just YOU to reach the goal and get "Check!!".. its a two-to-tango.. and nowadays.. soOo hard to achieve and have what we're looking for...

whew... Life....

JULY... Madness

2007-07-23T07:42:00.000+09:00

geeezz.... mha first time... mha first pOst...

actually got nothing on mha mind right nOw but jUst to create an account or some bLog like this maybe because got nothing to do..hahaha...

well.. lem'me start this thing up easily...

Khaye Garcia

maybe lots of you might say... " Who's that Khaye Garcia?! Where did she came from?! and soOo what with Khaye Garcia?!"

Khaye Garcia... "net name" ... exposed in any internet sites and even on yahoo chatrooms... ive been using this name for more or less 2-3 years ( as i remember ) it started when people keeps on asking mha name on chatrooms... and that "Khaye Garcia" appeared... nOt onLy for mha own safety but fOr mha family and relatives safety thats why i use different name instead of using my real name here in cyberspace...

Khaye Garcia has been around the net since i came here in Japan, that's 2 years and some months already.. since ive got nothing to do since i came here, the PC's mha only past time.. aside from gimiks etc of course.. ive used Khaye Garcia in some sites first before i became a member on one of Yahoo Groups... then ive met lots of people and taught me and invited me to join Yahoo Chatrooms... ive been that "ChatAdik" which means im almost 24/7 Online there... met and talked different kinds of people.. and i did enjoyed being there...

i have lots of accounts on different sides of the net.. i cant even remember how many accounts i have... hahahaa... i admit being on net spends LOTS of time or should i say, wastes LOTS of time but i do enjoy being here... why?! hahaha... well, aside from getting away from mha boredom and homesickness... i meet different people, meet friends even lovers.... lol... kiddin aside,im not sure how long Khaye Garcia will exists on cyberworld but i guess as long as i have mha internet connection here in mha house, the journey will still continue... :D

whew!! got nothing else as of now to post... try to put some later,pals!!! but for the meantime...

" Minnasan yoroshiku onegaishimasu!!!.... "

~kHaY3~

~ Khaye Garcia's Garden Of Temptation ~

お世話になりました！

YUKATA MATSURI 2011

The Big Bad Wolf: Gaikokujin Gyaru by KG

kG's biOgraPhy

Been REBORN but never BAPTIZED

After My Birthday

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Christmas 2008

EXCERPT FROM LUIS FERNANDEZ' MSGE

TROJAN VIRUS

No Matter What..... It's my LIFE!

Philippines 2008

UPDATES!

First Time EB.... JAPAN ( Part 3 )

First time EB..... JAPAN ( Part 2 )

First time EB! JAPAN

honey

Monday

link..

Me... at this moment

Sometimes it's just so sad you can't talk about it! :(

*smiles*

to that bitch!

still....

Photos and images by my friends

this day...

3 months before my bday ;)

It's Thursday!

whatta'day!!!

HOLIDAYS

Bye 07

Me..in Philippines 07

In My Own Opinion..... KG'07

Khaye Garcia in Philippines p.2

Khaye Garcia in Philippines 2007 p.1

You Moved On.....NO!!!

ARIES

miSSed'yAh

aLone

Bad Day ... <_<

Love.... hUrts....

JULY... Madness

smiles