No Matter What..... It's my LIFE!

It's all in my mind right now to post this thing here.
For several months not even writing anything here, i told myself to put sumthin to write sumthin knowing the fact that nobody i guess is reading my notes.
Howell, as everyone knows ive been married for years now, got separated few years ago and now, my 4th time to recieve divorce papers from my exhubby.
I dont know whatelse to say nor do about it for i guess im already tired of same set up for years me and my exhubby's having.
This past few months after almost everyday recieving msges from him asking me to sign those papers, i fin'lly decided to sign it as soon as possible.
He told me that he'll gonna give me those papers by next week.
And its up to me whether to sign it or not by the moment he'll hand it down.
I know few months or years ago that everything will just end up this way, it's just that maybe im not ready yet.
I've been living here in Japan for almost 4years and a half...
Im not yet ready to come back to the Philippines for good....
I got my visa for three years and it will become useless if i wont use it...
Let's say me and my exhubby's been already separated and im already living on my own but, its different from a separated to a divorced woman, most especially for someone like me who have no one here in Japan.
I have my job,
I have friends,
I can do i guess, most of the things i wanna do...
but... it's too different!
Im gonna be totally ALONE by the time we divorced.
Im thinking of going to far away places
like Philippines, or go and stay with my relatives in Nagoya
Actually, ive asked my tito about my situation last night and he told me that he'll gonna talk to his wife about it.
I can't leave my work here in Gunma right now for i have let's say, contract.
So maybe while waiting for my end of contract here, i'll change my apartment first.
Ive been looking for some advices from my friends last night and i got almost the same advices,
"Sign those papers, leave everything behind.... move on!"
I actually dont have much confidence about this but...
So that's it...
I guess...
This will gonna be the present im gonna give for myself this Christmas....



My freedom....