couldnt imagine how happy and a bit upset today....know why?! hmMm... lemme start this... i have this guy... we've met well more than half a year already...we're not dating or what but simply just "friends"... we've been sharing lots of each other for past months and we know that we have this "thing" for both of us... we're not denying that... the problem is.... we coudn't say directly how we really for each other... example, the "love" most normally we say towards someone we really care about... sometimes i have this feelings that he aint serious at all... or he's just shy or afraid or i dont know coz i cant hear him say that he love me... we always there for each other... shares lots of our thoughts... sometimes,mha moodness enters but he still there and guide me and gives me caring advices etc... but still....i just dont understand why some guys were like that... is he really that gentleman?does he really cares for me? or... do we really have this special feelings towards each other.. i keep on telling people that i have no intimate partner as of now coz i cant say that im already committed with him thou my hearts keeps on beating while he's around coz i cant get an assurance from him.. erRr.. i hate this! im picking my own answers to my own questions coz he aint talking at all about his feelings for me... well, we've just talked a while ago... and still the answers left unspoken... i got irritated and again asked him about what our real score is... know what he told me?! erRr"know what hon,even if you wont hear me say " I Love You! " to you.. that doesnt mean you're not special for me...in fact i am and i care for you so much... i dont want you to get hurt... im just being carefull...madali lang sabihin ang " I Love You Hon " pero ayokong sabihin lang yun sau.. i wanna prove it... " ~ Kaye Tanedo
thats why im not sure if that means we're fine or kami na.... ang hirap... feeling ko nagaassume lang ako... feeling ko hindi lang talaga niya ako gusto.... feeling ko......
ah ewan! kakalito mga lalaki!
i even told him that im upset and dissappointed sa mga narinig ko from him... that i dont know if im happy or not coz of that...then he thought of what ive said... im gonna lie low of him,set him already aside... erRr! i dont know what to say and do or what... im troubled... but afterwards... i still have goosebumps while we're talking ::) hahaha... ang gulo noh!
