お世話になりました！

"Mommy, Papa...Iro iro to taihen osewa ni narimashita! Hontouni, arigatou Gozaimashita! Kondo, Mata yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!" ---- Nahirapan akong sambitin ng malinaw yan kahit pa ilang beses kong sinubukang imemorized ^^, still, in the end... MARAMING SALAMAT PO mommy, papa at sa lahat ng mga ATE ko na naging as in KAIBIGAN deep in me! Magkaka-kapit bahay lang po tayong lahat that's why I wont gonna say "sayonara"... I dont wanna think that yesterday's the last time we'll gonna see each other coz I hate goodbye's and changes.. thou it's already given!

When I take a look on my first night to be part of you, guys... Kung gaano kalamig mga paa at kamay ko sa nyerbyos that day, sya ring lamig ng paa at kamay ko the moment I've told mommy that.. this is it. My tears almost fell down while me and mommy were talking that night, Friday last week ayt! Those sunken sad eyes... I see hardships, sadness,  but as what she have told me --- SHOUGANAI.

Ano nga lang ba naman yung mula Marso ng taong ito hanggang kahapon, ika-15 ng Nobyembre ay nagkasama-sama tayong lahat.. ni pangalan, ni itsura, walang kaalam alam sa isa't isa.. Dun tayo lahat nagsimula di ba?! Nagkakatuwaan, Nagkakainisan... part na un ng mga buhay buhay natin but still.. in the end, we're still ONE! Pero syempre -- exept dun sa ONI! lol..... 

Despite of that... I'm soOo grateful to have met and be with all of you there in BiniBini. may mga fouls rin ako, and I admit that, kahit pa... naging maganda ang turing ninyong lahat sa akin. And hindi yun masusukat sa dami ng tinapay na pinakain niyo sa akin tuwing gutom ako kung hindi sa mga tawanan nating lahat kahit pa alam nating may mga kaniya-kaniya tayong problema sa mga buhay natin, sa mga ngiti na ipinakita ninyo sa akin mapatotoo man o hindi, naging masaya ako sa piling ninyong lahat ( and of course, exept dun sa ONI). Trabaho ang ipinunta ko sa inyo... Sinuklian ninyo ako di lang suweldo kung hindi pati na rin  ng PAGKAKAIBIGAN! Isa sa mga rason ko kung bakit nahirapan akong magdesisyon but... Sana... maintindihan ninyo ako. huhuhu

I'm soOo sorry to leave you all sa ganitong panahon pa...I really am soOo sorry po

I'm not gonna change... routine ko malamang magbabago pero, ako pa rin to minnasan ha! Sana kayo rin sa akin ^^,

Sana, pag magkita kita tau ulet, anywhere, accidentally, unplanned or so... We'll still gonna smile, laugh, chika-chika, hug, biruan like we always does... did. I'm gonna miss you, all! I love you mommy! ate emy! ate lisa! ate mikz! ate rose! jaz and kahit di ako marunong ng salita ni tisay.. Salamat sa inyong lahat!!! oOopPpsSss.. PAPA! kahit natulala ka lang kagabi sa sougei when I thanked you..  apir!!!! 

お世話になりました！本当にありがとうございました！また。。。よろぴく！

I've had mixed feelings about what I'm experiencing in my real world before I've fin'lly took a deep breath and sighed and... DECIDED. Things aint workin' too well in my world nowadays. It's been months since I've realized that I've let my world stopped from spinning... I've let my own self to get used with what's already infront of me, same routine everyday, same challenges, same hopes and same beliefs. I've ignored (thou, I've already felt this and thought about this before) the clear vision of what surrounds me accepting the fact that on some point... I'm still surviving!

But suddenly, particularly lately... my life's gettin worse every time I wake up and see what's around me. I couldn't see anything  "NEW"... I couldn't see "GROWTH"..... I can't barely see "LIFE"!

FEAR!

I'm already used with my daily routine and with people i've been with for months! I'm afraid for the fact that CHANGES comes and even my shadow will become "unrecognizable" to those who have a special position deep in me. I'm afraid of the consequences of my decisions. I cannot take people's embarrassment if I talk or act what they don't want, didn't like. I always been like this.. I dont want others to get mad on me or get problems because of me, I always wanted to give pleasure to anyone close to me because of those facts.

*sigh*

I'm still alive!

Yesterday, November 15, 2011, was my last day of work in BiniBini. 

Looking and searching for brighter future ahead of me...

God.. Please.. guide me!