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it sounds funny but im kinda feeling down as in ngaun as in NOW... then i was just browsing the net then my eyes captivates me with this video.. actually.. this was already what.. a year ago.. and... it made me smile :) thanks for coldspell for making this .. nakita ko na naman siya after so many months... missin you all guys there! YP


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcoqPEqMfM8

Me... at this moment

My life in a poem
a few pages is not enough
life seemed so happy
when really its been so rough
no one knows the truth
no one knows the lies
no one knows what goes on
no one can here the cries
coz the truth they cant handle
the lies they are soon to believe
something so convincing
something so easy to deceive
life is hard for all
all around people feel pain
sometimes for a moment
sometimes on and off like this rain
some people find it easy to talk
some people find it easy to let go
those girls so damn happy
I may look it although
sometimes life gets you down
sometimes life pushes you around
pulls you right back to the ground
pulls you to the corner without a sound
and that loneliness comes back
when your in a crowded room
and the fake you returns
all too soon
everyone falls in love
with what you are on the outside
when youre not really that person
but its too hard to come out of your hide
so you stay inside
till its too late to come back
the fake has consumed you
life has gone off track
coz soon before you know it
you dont know who you are
when really its all to simple
it all seems so farto pull yourself back out
to let that friend see your tears
let them know the real you
fill them in on your deepest fears
tell them of your past
tell them of that man
the one that created your sadness
the day it all began
tell them of that one night
where you thought you were to die
tell them of that one week
where you wished that he had tried
tell them of that one story
the one that haunts your dreams
the one that is so real
but in your head so it seems
tell them of that person
who believed everything he said
tell them of that on line
my god I wished you were dead
tell that special person
how it felt to feel scared
how it felt to be alone
watch the yelling if you dared
tell them how it feels
to be the only one that knows
how he really treats you
when the door is pulled closed
tell them what he did
what marks he left
on the inside on the outside
and the secrets you kept
tell them about that one guy
who was meant to keep you safe
the one that left you alone
when your heart began to race
the one that was meant to be there
to hear the tears fall
the one that was supposed to catch them
the one who would be there when you call
tell them where he went
tell them how you felt
tell them how the anger built up
and the anger that you dealt
tell that person how she went back
tell them what he did then
tell them how every feeling you have felt
has been written down in pen
tell them why you cant
talk about the truth
tell them why its hard
when you always feel so used
tell them why you laugh
when really you want to cry
tell them why you smile
when it feels like your about to die
tell them how bad it feels
when you see them holding hands
when you see the only person
that is keeping the pain still standing
tell them how it feels
knowing your pillow is the best friend
the one who knows all this stuff
knows how it feels to be at your end
tell them how every night
before you close your eyes
tell them how the pain leaks down
when the music dies
tell them about this
and maybe youll be fine
maybe something will change
maybe you just need time
maybe this s nothing
maybe e its just a phase
maybe it will all be over
in a matter of days
maybe if this poem is read
by someone that cares
maybe they can fix you
maybe theyll be there
maybe they might catch that tear
maybe that pillow will dry out
maybe it will be better
if that person finally finds out
or maybe it wont
and theyll just pretend they saw nothing
and keep moving forward
the fake you they start trusting
maybe if I keep standing still
and watch the world pass my by
maybe then I wont feel pain
maybe then I wont cry
but all I can do is hope
that its all in my fate
that one day it will change
before its too late..

Sometimes it's just so sad you can't talk about it! :(

Look close inside yourself,

Look in your soul,

Your heart,

What does it tell you?

Mine tells me that I love you, that looks don't matter.

I may not be beautiful or pretty on the outside,

But look closer,

Look at me,

Look at me for who I am,

Ugly on the outside,

Gorgeous on the inside,

You say you want someone to love you for who your are.

Stop!

Look at me,

Look at me for you will see,

I'm the one your heart wants, but not the one your mind wants.

Look at me,

Look at me now and hold me tight,

Because I dont know how long I can wait for you to finally realize that we're meant to be.

Just....Just look at me for who I am.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I know that it is hard

to start a new life

a lost love cuts deep

cuts deep like a sharp knife

everything was perfect

i thought it was

why did it end

end like everything does

the harder it hurts

the more you feel

this time you know

it is for real

changes are made

life is rough

why does it have to be

so very tough

will things get worse

or will they get better

dont let me live this life forever

take me away

somewhere very far

let my new life

heal my old scar

*smiles*

hmMm... for this day?! whew... sobrang bilis natapos ng isang araw ko ngaun *rolleyes* wondrin why huh ;)) hehehe..well, same as usual.. talked with my friends... and hahaha... ive heard more interesting topics that enlightened me today... hmMm. whatelse.. oh! mha long time long lost mico came back.. hahhaaa.. still the naughty one...walang pinagbagpo siya pa rin ung dating super khulet super katok and super grRrrr :D hahahaa... whatelse.... sa work?! grabe! andaming tao!!! i was too busy and i dont even have voice anymore right now coz i think as i remember i sung almost more than 20 songs this night! whew... hahahaa...


hmMm... ngaun ko lang napansin.. ahihihii, kaya ko pala talagang iwasan si C and K... well, i know this is for the good of everybody... people cant blame with my decisions kasi im happy right now.. i just wish na sila rin... ihave my won reasons why ive decided to quit on everything.. one, for C, kasi hindi siya ung naisip kong siya.. thou i still wanna give him a chance to see me ok... then next with K... hmMm.. well, mejo malalim...im controlling myself not to do anything about this anymore coz i know this wont last... hindi sa ayoko or what.. i just know myself... as of now maybe i have feelings for him but that feeling isnt strong enough for me to fight and stand in the near future...i just know myself kaya habang maaga pa.. :( i miss him, yes.. but that doesnt mea kakainin ko cnabi ko :)



whatelse... oh! to them... wehehehe.. makin mha day complete really! hahahhaa... i know about ur "secret" thread :P bwahahhaa.... sad to say.. "dont do to others what you dont want others do unto you.... " personally that doesnt implies on me pero gusto ko lang sabihin yan sa kanila.. hahahaa... bad honey bad honey! hahaha...i know what you're doing thou... kahit na hindi ko basahin and pansinin ang lahat.. too obvious.. di kapatol patol mga ginagawa ninyo... hahahaa.... natatawa lang ako honestly... para kaung mga batang nawalang ng candy and gustong bawiin, the problem is... ubos na ung candy.. kaya ayun... ngangawa ngawa... galaw ng galaw di mapakali... trying to get everyone's attention and have their candy back again to them.... hahahaha.... high school.... lolz



oH!!! thanks nga pala to that "lyndon" who commented on my post b4.. actually, my first commentor :)) hahaha. thanks and keep on enjoying reading mha life! mwaahh...


ROCK ON GUYS!!! w\O/w