to start this.... the night before my flight going back to Philippines october 10,2007... my PMS came so to tell and let everybody knows that in the first place NOTHING HAPENNED sa akin during my stay there.. some rumours says na meron etc etc etc.. sorry for those who keeps on saying that
NO ONE had the opportunity to get intimiate with me during my stay there ONE is because i had a bf that time... NOT even my bf!!! wHy?! its because i have my monthly period when i came back there... and AYOKO lang talaga...
someone spreading rumours that im gay... sorry to say but i have friends who saw and stay with me during my stay there who can tell the truth about that... * dang! may bakla na palang dinudugo pek*** ngayon
somebody says that i was totally DRUNK as in langong lango daw ako the night ( October 12 ) na nakipagkita ako sa kanila sa isang karaoke bar.. to tell her... uminom ako! YES!! but... isa lang masasabi ko.. KELAN BA AKO NALASING?! ang pagkakaalam kong last time na nalasing ako was 2005 pa.. and kahit nga walang tulugan nung nanjan ako di ako nalasing.. tas.. para lang sa ilang shots malalashing ako?! hahaha.. you're making me laugh NEWBIE!
me nagsabi rin na nsa isang party raw ako last October 13 sa isa sa mga forums ko rin... but hey!!! WALA ako dun kasi busy ako sa EB namin sa iba kong forum.... dont make tsismis GIRL na walang katorya torya
meron din.. from a respected ' I treated him a friend b4' sa mtc... nagsasabi... "Hindi ko type si khaye!!" ~ KEBER KO!!! hahaha... eh nakita nga kita eh kinausap ba kita? nilande ba kita gaya ng gusto mong palabasin sa mga tao?! laugh your ass!! sayang nirespeto pa kita.. pero ngaun nalaman kong ganyan ganyan ka magsalita.. duh!!! you dont have to say anything na gaya ng mga ganyan for the first place.. hindi tayo close! hindi rin tayo nagkausap.. at lalo namang hindi kita type!! period
dun kay "R"... sad to say.. bumaba tingin ko sau.. even my respect i guess.. biruin mo.. wala pala talagang silbi lahat ng pagpunta ko sau and even knowing you and letting be a part of my life.. sorry for my language pero nung malaman ko kagaguhan mo s akin.... erRrR.. i thought ako ang nagkamali.. i thought ang sama sama ko na ewan.. abah!! eh kita mo naman.. sa simulat simula pa pala hindi na dapat pang natuloy ang relationship natin kung matatwag mo mang relationship nangyare sa atin..biruin mo.. THE NIGHT BAGO MO AKO SUNDUIN SA NAIA OCTOBER 10,2007... AMPUGA NASA KANDUNGAN KA PALA NI "M"!! UTOT MO KASI NAGSASALITA NG WALA SA KATINUAN YANG "M" KAPAG NALALASING NA SA TAONG KAIBIGANG CLOSE KO PA NAGSABI NG KABABUYAN NIYO!!!!
so ngayon nalaman ko yan... sorry pero... HAHAHAHA <<>
sa dami ng tsismis na nabuo ng matagal dahil sa pananahimik ko... you can come and drop me a message... khaye garcia doesnt have to tell lies knowing the fact that my life's like an open book here... eversince i came here... wala akong dineny wala akong tinago.. so PEOPLE NEED NOT TO JUDGE ME AND PUT ME INTO CONCLUSION NA HINDI TOTOO!!! madali lang akong makausap... im just a message away...
WELCUMM 2008!!!
a compilation of anything from me.. thru mha daily routines ( diary?! o_O ) thoughts, emotions etc... freedom not only with mha hands for typing freely but also mha mind and heart to let others know the real me.I rarely goes and check my blog in here but, I've finally decided to at least visit and update my blogs everytime I open my PC.My hobbies, My past times, My joys and my pains, about me and people i encounter who leaves marks not only in my head but in my heart... 皆さんこれからもよろしくお願いします！！！
Friday, December 28, 2007
In My Own Opinion..... KG'07
Why your not good enough for this
or special enough for that?
ever look in a mirror and feel absolutly repulsed at the reflection that
dances if front of your eyes.
taunting?
trying to find some beauty in SOMETHING, and coming up a little short?
sitting here at 12.47 am cuz i cant sleep
feeling a little more than lonely.
more towards the side of emtpyness.
thinking about all the choices in life i've made. and thinking of all
the things i've done and finding that the only things that's made my dad
proud to say that im his daughter was when i played football for the city
one year, and got teased and pretty much mentally tortured by almost all
of the guys on my team, everyday, just to make sure that my dad would
WANT to say that he was really proud of me for, once.
thinking about how im gonna go on pretending like i always do, to maked
sure no one worries about me.
covering up all of my mental flaws by pretending to be happy
(an art of which i have truly masterd)
and finding it harder every day to wake up and look in a mirror, because
im scared of the reflection. of all the flaws that i have
ever wonder why the public decided eating disorders with legs are the
only thing that should bare the covers of our magazines that the next
generation sees everyday of thier lives?
why the second someones over 100 pounds, they're suddenly fat,
and people stray from them like they have a deadly disease?
i wonder
why for one day
i cant be truely happy
and not be scared to look in the mirrori wonder
why im so lonely and what i can do to myself to change that
why i cry myself to sleep more often then not.
why im so fakewhy i pretend happyness.
and i can never find the answers.
or special enough for that?
ever look in a mirror and feel absolutly repulsed at the reflection that
dances if front of your eyes.
taunting?
trying to find some beauty in SOMETHING, and coming up a little short?
sitting here at 12.47 am cuz i cant sleep
feeling a little more than lonely.
more towards the side of emtpyness.
thinking about all the choices in life i've made. and thinking of all
the things i've done and finding that the only things that's made my dad
proud to say that im his daughter was when i played football for the city
one year, and got teased and pretty much mentally tortured by almost all
of the guys on my team, everyday, just to make sure that my dad would
WANT to say that he was really proud of me for, once.
thinking about how im gonna go on pretending like i always do, to maked
sure no one worries about me.
covering up all of my mental flaws by pretending to be happy
(an art of which i have truly masterd)
and finding it harder every day to wake up and look in a mirror, because
im scared of the reflection. of all the flaws that i have
ever wonder why the public decided eating disorders with legs are the
only thing that should bare the covers of our magazines that the next
generation sees everyday of thier lives?
why the second someones over 100 pounds, they're suddenly fat,
and people stray from them like they have a deadly disease?
i wonder
why for one day
i cant be truely happy
and not be scared to look in the mirrori wonder
why im so lonely and what i can do to myself to change that
why i cry myself to sleep more often then not.
why im so fakewhy i pretend happyness.
and i can never find the answers.
Khaye Garcia in Philippines p.2
dationMy sorrow to hidden for anyone to touch,my wounds to deep to mend, my happiness to shattered to pretend.-by me
October 13... me and "R" had again that same argument...its all started with the guy who's sending me Pms eversince and same guy na hindi ko naalalang nakakausap ko na even b4..."G"...i did tol "R" the night that we first had that mini coffee eb na "G" sounds and looks familiar pero hindi ko na inaksayan pa ng panahon para pa isipin kung paano at kung sino ung guy na un sa akin.. for what?! right!!ang mahalaga para sa akin that time is nasabi ko pa rin kay "R" na "G" sounds familiar sa akin... butt he problem is.. ginawang issue ni "R" yon.. he kept in teeling me na alibi ko lang daw na nakalimutan ko un... erRrRr.. i just hate reminiscing that part of our argument... inayo ayo ko siya,i triedmy best to let him know my side and tried to make him believe on me... i should have known that how will he believe me if in the first place.. he doesnt trusts me.. balewala lahat ng sinabi ko, pagaayo ko sa kaniya... almost all the time nandun ako behind him explaining everything but what did he done to me?! yeah right.. deadma niya lang ako... wala siyang pinakinggan sa mga sinasabi ko.. pinagpipilitan niya pa rin na ang alam niya ang totoo and ako ang mali.. yeah right.. maybe tama siya.. my fault! my fault kasi nakikipagusap ako kahit kanino... but hey! i wasnt even flirting with "G" or to anyone kahit pa makipagusap esp alam kong i have already a relationship...i do talk yes.. pero i dont see anything wrong about it...dang!napuno ako sa accusations and sa pagiging malamig ni "R" sa akin.. until ice accepted the fact that i shouldnt be there anymore with him.. for what?! ano yon... spend ko last few days ko sa pinas na magkagalit kami?! na ganon ang tingin niya sa akin?! na ganon na lang basta?! i cant... so ive decided to go... the time na nagbalot na ako and fixed all of my things... he talked to me.. and again.. explain everything to me.. that he wanted me to say sorry and admit na i lied... erRrR... how can i say na i lied eh sa totoo namang nakalimutan kong sabihin sa kaniya sa unat una pa lang ung about "G" sHit! kelangan ko bang memorizin lahat ng nasa inbox ng PM ko sa bawat forums na meron ako sa net?! i talk to people and ive told "R" about that.. but that doesnt mean na memorized ko from the beginneng and end of our conversation sa lahat ng taong makausap ko.. un ang hindi niya maintindihan.. and hindi ko rin magets kung bakit kinailangan pang MERONG bumukas ng inbox ko sa MTC that time para lang sabihin kay "R" na naguusap na kami ni "G" eversince.... ang galing! arghh...so again,bitbit ko ng maleta ko and all my stuffs, he talked to me... etc etc etc.. but hey! im khaye garcia and ako to... nung sinabi ko ngang uuwi ako ng pinas kahit ura urada talagang umuwi ako... im the kind of person na kapag me sinabi that just simply means.. YON na YON! matigas ang ulo ko eversince.. kaya nga nung sinabi kong mahal ko siya without anymore of thinking... hindi ko inaatrasan ang kahit na ano basta nasabi ko na.. pinaninindigan ko lahat kung pupuwede.. kaya nung sinabi kong i have to go and hindi ko kayang nandun nga ako kasama ko nga siya pero hindi niya ako pinaniniwalaan and pinagtitiwalaan, pano pa niya sasabihin sa aking mahal niya ako kung ganon rin?! erRr... in short... i left him..pag bitbit ko ng bagahe ko, diretso sa elevator pababa sa lobby and un na! TAXI! that time wala akong maisip na puntahan... siguro 12nn or 1 pm ata un...isip isip isip... hangang sa terminal ng Victory liner ako napadapad.. dun ako nagstay... bumili pa nga ako ng ticket to Tarlac kung sakaling wala na talaga akong maisip na mapuntahan that time.. so while sitting, i have so many thoughts about him, about what to do next etc etc... i know myself, once na umalis na ako sa isang guy thats it.. u wont see me coming back... so isip ng another plan... hindi naman ako pwedeng umuwi ng Tarlac that time coz meron pa akong mga natitirang appointments sa manila..i end up staying @ the Crowne's Plaza in Ortigas around 6pm ata yun o mas maaga ng onte...pagpasok ko sa room ng hotel talagang bagsak ako sa bed.. whew!"R" keeps on texting calling me that time.. asking kung nsan na ako etc etc.. ive told him that time that i already went home to my family in Tarlac kasi ayokong malaman niyang nandun pa rin ako malapit sa kaniya...ayokong malaman niyang nasa crownes ako, kasi baka... hmm.. maraming akala na ayokong mangyari kaya hindi ko sinabing nasa manila pa rin ako nun... anyways... pinapunta ko sa room ko yong isa kong friend si "S" he accompanied me there, kasama ko rin siyang umattend sa EB namin...i had fun... as in! i enjoyed their company.. small gathering we ate and had some drinks sa isang parag resto around makati ata un.. mga 8 or 9pm na rin ata kami nakarating dun...around 11-12mn ( October 14 ) ung mareng kat ko nasa roOm na raw na raw ng hotel ko kaya nagmadali na kaming umalis from the EB...sa room ng hotel, nandun ung mare ko ung isa naming friend then ako and some friends from the EB na pinuntahan namin... dun namin tinuloy inuman.. kwentuhan etc.. hanggang sa umuwi na rin ung mga friends ko around 3 am...ang natira na lang ung mare ko tsaka ung friend niya... while drinking, tumwag ung iba naming friends from other forum and sabi gusto daw pumunta sa place namin ... sabi ko ayokong malaman ng mga tao lalo na sa mtc na nasa manila pa rin ako so talagaang palihim nila akong pinuntahan sa roOm ko that time... i believe na walang chu-chu sa mga friends ko na nagpunta s aplace ko that time... kasi pare pareho kaming hindi dapat or wala dapat makaalam na nsa manila ako that time esp kasama ko sila.. so talagang.. blood-blood ang promises namin sa isat isa...inuman namin natapos aroun 4-5pm ng hapon ( October 14,Sunday ) i left alone kasi nawala na lahat ng mga kainuman ko,LOL.ung iba kelangan umuwi sa knila of course, ung iba me naghahanap na.. ung iba may work.. ung iba gusto na lang daw nila akong pagpahingahin naman.... so yun.. i called my mom in Tarlac to come over the hotel kasi hindi na ako makakatravel pa papuntang Tarlac sa kaso ko that time.. i needed to take a rest and sleep kasi halos walang tulugan ang ginawa naming inuman that night... nung dumating ang mom ko kasama with my two pamangkins, usap usap etc.. pero hindi rin ako sinamahan pa ng mom ko matulog that tiem sa hotel. umuwi rin siya kasama mga bata kasi may pasok ata ung mga bata the next day... i forgot what time na nun nung dumating isa kong friend para samahan ako sa hotel... erRrR... kahiya hiya pero tinulugan ko talaga with matching HILIK ung friend ko "P" nung dumating.. cguro sa sobrang pagod and siguro dinatnan na rin ako ng tama ng alak na nainom ko nung nakaraang araw.. talagang.. TULOG!!Knock Out!!!! hindi ko na nga namalayang nakatulo na rin pala ung friend ko dun na hindi ko man nakausap nung dumating sa room ko.... erRr... next morning... October 15, last day ko sa Crowne's.. may isa pa akong araw para sa stay ko sa Pinas before akong umuwi sa Japan..kung uuwi pa ako ng Tarlac then travel again the next day for my flight baka malate ako sa flight ko and pagod pa kaya ive decieded to stay pa rin sa lugar mas malapit sa NAIA... ang binagsakan ko... INTERCON Makati... and i wanna thank her again for that :* anyways... nagpahatid ako kay "P" hanggang sa intercon bago siya umalis para sa lakad naman talaga niya... so nung umalis siya,me alone went to a mall ( SM )para naman ipare-sched ang uwi ko sa Japan kasi i moved my sched a day earlier sa real sched ng uwi ko.. so un... from mall nagpasundo ako kay "S" pauwi na sa intercon...hindi rin siya nagtagal sa room ko kasi kinailangan na niyang umuwi... another friend of mine visited me that time.. unfortunately, ilang beer lang nainom namin he left me already kasi nga kelangan ko na talagang magpahinga for my flight's gonna be the next day.. erRrR... SAYANG!!! so un! the next day.. the day of my flight.. dumating ng maaga sa room ko si "S" for saying bon voyage etc hanggang sa pareho na rin naming dalawa iniwan ang intercon.. siya papunta sa ewan and me para sunduin ang kuya ko na maghahatid sa akin until airport NAIA.. and thats it!! my 6 days of stay in Philippines 2007!!! sa dami ng chika about me... i dont know.. no comment!! bahala kayo....
October 13... me and "R" had again that same argument...its all started with the guy who's sending me Pms eversince and same guy na hindi ko naalalang nakakausap ko na even b4..."G"...i did tol "R" the night that we first had that mini coffee eb na "G" sounds and looks familiar pero hindi ko na inaksayan pa ng panahon para pa isipin kung paano at kung sino ung guy na un sa akin.. for what?! right!!ang mahalaga para sa akin that time is nasabi ko pa rin kay "R" na "G" sounds familiar sa akin... butt he problem is.. ginawang issue ni "R" yon.. he kept in teeling me na alibi ko lang daw na nakalimutan ko un... erRrRr.. i just hate reminiscing that part of our argument... inayo ayo ko siya,i triedmy best to let him know my side and tried to make him believe on me... i should have known that how will he believe me if in the first place.. he doesnt trusts me.. balewala lahat ng sinabi ko, pagaayo ko sa kaniya... almost all the time nandun ako behind him explaining everything but what did he done to me?! yeah right.. deadma niya lang ako... wala siyang pinakinggan sa mga sinasabi ko.. pinagpipilitan niya pa rin na ang alam niya ang totoo and ako ang mali.. yeah right.. maybe tama siya.. my fault! my fault kasi nakikipagusap ako kahit kanino... but hey! i wasnt even flirting with "G" or to anyone kahit pa makipagusap esp alam kong i have already a relationship...i do talk yes.. pero i dont see anything wrong about it...dang!napuno ako sa accusations and sa pagiging malamig ni "R" sa akin.. until ice accepted the fact that i shouldnt be there anymore with him.. for what?! ano yon... spend ko last few days ko sa pinas na magkagalit kami?! na ganon ang tingin niya sa akin?! na ganon na lang basta?! i cant... so ive decided to go... the time na nagbalot na ako and fixed all of my things... he talked to me.. and again.. explain everything to me.. that he wanted me to say sorry and admit na i lied... erRrR... how can i say na i lied eh sa totoo namang nakalimutan kong sabihin sa kaniya sa unat una pa lang ung about "G" sHit! kelangan ko bang memorizin lahat ng nasa inbox ng PM ko sa bawat forums na meron ako sa net?! i talk to people and ive told "R" about that.. but that doesnt mean na memorized ko from the beginneng and end of our conversation sa lahat ng taong makausap ko.. un ang hindi niya maintindihan.. and hindi ko rin magets kung bakit kinailangan pang MERONG bumukas ng inbox ko sa MTC that time para lang sabihin kay "R" na naguusap na kami ni "G" eversince.... ang galing! arghh...so again,bitbit ko ng maleta ko and all my stuffs, he talked to me... etc etc etc.. but hey! im khaye garcia and ako to... nung sinabi ko ngang uuwi ako ng pinas kahit ura urada talagang umuwi ako... im the kind of person na kapag me sinabi that just simply means.. YON na YON! matigas ang ulo ko eversince.. kaya nga nung sinabi kong mahal ko siya without anymore of thinking... hindi ko inaatrasan ang kahit na ano basta nasabi ko na.. pinaninindigan ko lahat kung pupuwede.. kaya nung sinabi kong i have to go and hindi ko kayang nandun nga ako kasama ko nga siya pero hindi niya ako pinaniniwalaan and pinagtitiwalaan, pano pa niya sasabihin sa aking mahal niya ako kung ganon rin?! erRr... in short... i left him..pag bitbit ko ng bagahe ko, diretso sa elevator pababa sa lobby and un na! TAXI! that time wala akong maisip na puntahan... siguro 12nn or 1 pm ata un...isip isip isip... hangang sa terminal ng Victory liner ako napadapad.. dun ako nagstay... bumili pa nga ako ng ticket to Tarlac kung sakaling wala na talaga akong maisip na mapuntahan that time.. so while sitting, i have so many thoughts about him, about what to do next etc etc... i know myself, once na umalis na ako sa isang guy thats it.. u wont see me coming back... so isip ng another plan... hindi naman ako pwedeng umuwi ng Tarlac that time coz meron pa akong mga natitirang appointments sa manila..i end up staying @ the Crowne's Plaza in Ortigas around 6pm ata yun o mas maaga ng onte...pagpasok ko sa room ng hotel talagang bagsak ako sa bed.. whew!"R" keeps on texting calling me that time.. asking kung nsan na ako etc etc.. ive told him that time that i already went home to my family in Tarlac kasi ayokong malaman niyang nandun pa rin ako malapit sa kaniya...ayokong malaman niyang nasa crownes ako, kasi baka... hmm.. maraming akala na ayokong mangyari kaya hindi ko sinabing nasa manila pa rin ako nun... anyways... pinapunta ko sa room ko yong isa kong friend si "S" he accompanied me there, kasama ko rin siyang umattend sa EB namin...i had fun... as in! i enjoyed their company.. small gathering we ate and had some drinks sa isang parag resto around makati ata un.. mga 8 or 9pm na rin ata kami nakarating dun...around 11-12mn ( October 14 ) ung mareng kat ko nasa roOm na raw na raw ng hotel ko kaya nagmadali na kaming umalis from the EB...sa room ng hotel, nandun ung mare ko ung isa naming friend then ako and some friends from the EB na pinuntahan namin... dun namin tinuloy inuman.. kwentuhan etc.. hanggang sa umuwi na rin ung mga friends ko around 3 am...ang natira na lang ung mare ko tsaka ung friend niya... while drinking, tumwag ung iba naming friends from other forum and sabi gusto daw pumunta sa place namin ... sabi ko ayokong malaman ng mga tao lalo na sa mtc na nasa manila pa rin ako so talagaang palihim nila akong pinuntahan sa roOm ko that time... i believe na walang chu-chu sa mga friends ko na nagpunta s aplace ko that time... kasi pare pareho kaming hindi dapat or wala dapat makaalam na nsa manila ako that time esp kasama ko sila.. so talagang.. blood-blood ang promises namin sa isat isa...inuman namin natapos aroun 4-5pm ng hapon ( October 14,Sunday ) i left alone kasi nawala na lahat ng mga kainuman ko,LOL.ung iba kelangan umuwi sa knila of course, ung iba me naghahanap na.. ung iba may work.. ung iba gusto na lang daw nila akong pagpahingahin naman.... so yun.. i called my mom in Tarlac to come over the hotel kasi hindi na ako makakatravel pa papuntang Tarlac sa kaso ko that time.. i needed to take a rest and sleep kasi halos walang tulugan ang ginawa naming inuman that night... nung dumating ang mom ko kasama with my two pamangkins, usap usap etc.. pero hindi rin ako sinamahan pa ng mom ko matulog that tiem sa hotel. umuwi rin siya kasama mga bata kasi may pasok ata ung mga bata the next day... i forgot what time na nun nung dumating isa kong friend para samahan ako sa hotel... erRrR... kahiya hiya pero tinulugan ko talaga with matching HILIK ung friend ko "P" nung dumating.. cguro sa sobrang pagod and siguro dinatnan na rin ako ng tama ng alak na nainom ko nung nakaraang araw.. talagang.. TULOG!!Knock Out!!!! hindi ko na nga namalayang nakatulo na rin pala ung friend ko dun na hindi ko man nakausap nung dumating sa room ko.... erRr... next morning... October 15, last day ko sa Crowne's.. may isa pa akong araw para sa stay ko sa Pinas before akong umuwi sa Japan..kung uuwi pa ako ng Tarlac then travel again the next day for my flight baka malate ako sa flight ko and pagod pa kaya ive decieded to stay pa rin sa lugar mas malapit sa NAIA... ang binagsakan ko... INTERCON Makati... and i wanna thank her again for that :* anyways... nagpahatid ako kay "P" hanggang sa intercon bago siya umalis para sa lakad naman talaga niya... so nung umalis siya,me alone went to a mall ( SM )para naman ipare-sched ang uwi ko sa Japan kasi i moved my sched a day earlier sa real sched ng uwi ko.. so un... from mall nagpasundo ako kay "S" pauwi na sa intercon...hindi rin siya nagtagal sa room ko kasi kinailangan na niyang umuwi... another friend of mine visited me that time.. unfortunately, ilang beer lang nainom namin he left me already kasi nga kelangan ko na talagang magpahinga for my flight's gonna be the next day.. erRrR... SAYANG!!! so un! the next day.. the day of my flight.. dumating ng maaga sa room ko si "S" for saying bon voyage etc hanggang sa pareho na rin naming dalawa iniwan ang intercon.. siya papunta sa ewan and me para sunduin ang kuya ko na maghahatid sa akin until airport NAIA.. and thats it!! my 6 days of stay in Philippines 2007!!! sa dami ng chika about me... i dont know.. no comment!! bahala kayo....
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