お世話になりました！

"Mommy, Papa...Iro iro to taihen osewa ni narimashita! Hontouni, arigatou Gozaimashita! Kondo, Mata yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!" ---- Nahirapan akong sambitin ng malinaw yan kahit pa ilang beses kong sinubukang imemorized ^^, still, in the end... MARAMING SALAMAT PO mommy, papa at sa lahat ng mga ATE ko na naging as in KAIBIGAN deep in me! Magkaka-kapit bahay lang po tayong lahat that's why I wont gonna say "sayonara"... I dont wanna think that yesterday's the last time we'll gonna see each other coz I hate goodbye's and changes.. thou it's already given!

When I take a look on my first night to be part of you, guys... Kung gaano kalamig mga paa at kamay ko sa nyerbyos that day, sya ring lamig ng paa at kamay ko the moment I've told mommy that.. this is it. My tears almost fell down while me and mommy were talking that night, Friday last week ayt! Those sunken sad eyes... I see hardships, sadness,  but as what she have told me --- SHOUGANAI.

Ano nga lang ba naman yung mula Marso ng taong ito hanggang kahapon, ika-15 ng Nobyembre ay nagkasama-sama tayong lahat.. ni pangalan, ni itsura, walang kaalam alam sa isa't isa.. Dun tayo lahat nagsimula di ba?! Nagkakatuwaan, Nagkakainisan... part na un ng mga buhay buhay natin but still.. in the end, we're still ONE! Pero syempre -- exept dun sa ONI! lol..... 

Despite of that... I'm soOo grateful to have met and be with all of you there in BiniBini. may mga fouls rin ako, and I admit that, kahit pa... naging maganda ang turing ninyong lahat sa akin. And hindi yun masusukat sa dami ng tinapay na pinakain niyo sa akin tuwing gutom ako kung hindi sa mga tawanan nating lahat kahit pa alam nating may mga kaniya-kaniya tayong problema sa mga buhay natin, sa mga ngiti na ipinakita ninyo sa akin mapatotoo man o hindi, naging masaya ako sa piling ninyong lahat ( and of course, exept dun sa ONI). Trabaho ang ipinunta ko sa inyo... Sinuklian ninyo ako di lang suweldo kung hindi pati na rin  ng PAGKAKAIBIGAN! Isa sa mga rason ko kung bakit nahirapan akong magdesisyon but... Sana... maintindihan ninyo ako. huhuhu

I'm soOo sorry to leave you all sa ganitong panahon pa...I really am soOo sorry po

I'm not gonna change... routine ko malamang magbabago pero, ako pa rin to minnasan ha! Sana kayo rin sa akin ^^,

Sana, pag magkita kita tau ulet, anywhere, accidentally, unplanned or so... We'll still gonna smile, laugh, chika-chika, hug, biruan like we always does... did. I'm gonna miss you, all! I love you mommy! ate emy! ate lisa! ate mikz! ate rose! jaz and kahit di ako marunong ng salita ni tisay.. Salamat sa inyong lahat!!! oOopPpsSss.. PAPA! kahit natulala ka lang kagabi sa sougei when I thanked you..  apir!!!! 

お世話になりました！本当にありがとうございました！また。。。よろぴく！

I've had mixed feelings about what I'm experiencing in my real world before I've fin'lly took a deep breath and sighed and... DECIDED. Things aint workin' too well in my world nowadays. It's been months since I've realized that I've let my world stopped from spinning... I've let my own self to get used with what's already infront of me, same routine everyday, same challenges, same hopes and same beliefs. I've ignored (thou, I've already felt this and thought about this before) the clear vision of what surrounds me accepting the fact that on some point... I'm still surviving!

But suddenly, particularly lately... my life's gettin worse every time I wake up and see what's around me. I couldn't see anything  "NEW"... I couldn't see "GROWTH"..... I can't barely see "LIFE"!

FEAR!

I'm already used with my daily routine and with people i've been with for months! I'm afraid for the fact that CHANGES comes and even my shadow will become "unrecognizable" to those who have a special position deep in me. I'm afraid of the consequences of my decisions. I cannot take people's embarrassment if I talk or act what they don't want, didn't like. I always been like this.. I dont want others to get mad on me or get problems because of me, I always wanted to give pleasure to anyone close to me because of those facts.

*sigh*

I'm still alive!

Yesterday, November 15, 2011, was my last day of work in BiniBini. 

Looking and searching for brighter future ahead of me...

God.. Please.. guide me!

YUKATA MATSURI 2011

I've been again MIA nowadays online ei!!!




'nyways... 




What's the newest thing about me?! HmMm...


Since last Saturday (8/6/11) I've woke up as early as I could to prepare myself for this year's yukata matsuri which was held in our working place. Wondrin' what Yukata Matsuri means?! Howell...

* Yukata (浴衣 << written in Japanese Kanji) was derived from the word "YU" which means, bath(ing) and "KATABIRA"  meaning, under clothing. 


* A yukata is a Japanese garment, a casual summer kimono usually made of cotton.

*  A cotton sash is usually worn with the yukata for casual daily or nightly wear. In attending festivals and public occasions, the yukata is worn with a wider belt, which can be simply wrapped around the waist and tucked in at the end. For a more formal appearance, the yukata is worn with an obi belt, along with a matching geta (wooden sandals) and purse to complete the attire.

* People wearing yukata are a common sight in Japan at fireworks displays, bon-odori festivals, and other summer events.


*  yukata literally means bath(ing) clothes.


* Generally speaking, the differences between a kimono robe and a yukata robe are in fabric – kimono are generally made from silk while yukata robes are usually made from cotton or synthetic fiber - and also, yukata’s are unlined unlike kimono. Although different, these two cultural symbols of Japanese clothing both employ obi – a sash or belt- and geta - elevated thronged sandals.


Enough for a looooong definition of a Yukata Matsuri! lol


Here are some of the photos during the event at my work with my friends and co-workers.

What other people knows, me with our "mama san"... our mommy @ work =)

.... and my collage for my photos for our yukata matsuri this year ^^,

Howell, I guess, I've already explained why I've been inactive for how many days (again); first, because of the yukata matsuri @ work.... second, obviously... slept and rested after that event... and lastly, third... because of these stuffs I've made for my friends.. my family.. my co-workers.. everyone... To hopefully enjoy, like what me and my friends were last Saturday. I was soOo excited before that day, although some of my co workers weren't, but we've made our yukata matsuri a one hella' Saturday Yukata Festival =) But shHhh.... Right after that night.. when i arrived home, I didn't have enough energy and time to took a shower before i slept!!!! soOo tiring... but happy evening indeed!!!! 

BB Yukata Matsuri '11 - flash slideshow maker

After soOo many years, coz of this yukata matsuri... I've tried to make a slideshow of the event... I've missed my moviemaker from my old pc T.T

Anyways... Thanks mommy, sa mga ate ko, ke bunso... 

Kanpaii!!!!

^^,

The Big Bad Wolf: Gaikokujin Gyaru by KG

I... Proudly Present to all the people on net...

I've been lost.. been found...

And for the opening....

New stage on Khaye Garcia's life....

I've met... became friends...well, sistah! as I may say...

My co-FHM BullBoarder

http://thebigbadwolf-pamgotcrazy.blogspot.com/

My gorgeous PAM!!!

Aside from her knowledge that I'm that busy, online and real life...

Oh geezz... I love her!

ahahha...

I'm gonna let you know how creative and artistic and talented aside from her beauty and hotness and wittyness...

I share with you what my loving sis did for me...

I'll try to write more about this blog on my next update!!!!

It's 3:49am here already so...

'em gonna take a rest first!!!

Nayt' ya'aLL!!!!!

mmuuaaahh!!!

~kG~

The Big Bad Wolf: Gaikokujin Gyaru by KG: "Hi girls! How's life been treating you? :-) I hope you're doing good just like me. I'm really excited right now because I'm so honored to fe..."

kG's biOgraPhy

Born on the 17th day of April, year 1984 in a little town called Moncda in tarlac City Philippines. The youngest daughter of a elder sister who lives and works in Singapore since 2006 and a elder brother who have three lovable children and a beautiful wife in Tarlac City. Khaye Garcia was born and brought up by her grandmother who's a well-known teacher-principal on one of the schools in Moncada, Tarlac coz on her very young age, her father went abroad to work (JAPAN as an engineer) and her mother went other Asian Countries as well to work. Until one day she just realized that she grew up without them both. But because of the love and affection and respect of the people around her, she grew up spoiled brat,yes.. indeed a grandma's girl! BUT...still has the character and the attitude the way her grandma brought her (strict and wise) During her school days, she's known all over the campus and the whole town for competing almost all of the school's extra cullicular activities --- quizbee's,essay writing contests, declamation, A-1 child, and drum,lyre,bugle corps competions, dance groups,folkdancing. In her HIghschool life, she doesnt really enjoyed it as much as her elementary days. She had friends, bestfriends but as campus' always has,groups... (well, every year she had to go to the Principal's office ONCE at least coz of "fightings" ) and there, with her grandmom's "label" she always ends up with a smile and starts a new fresh school days again... A relative who lives in Geneve, Switzerland asked her if she wanted to go in Switzerland, and she did answered YES! ( of course!!! her closest cousin's also lives there!) Made all the papers and docmuents to get there and passport too... BUT... luck's NOT always in her hands.... years passed by and everything left undone. When she finished her highschool, she didn't think of entering college asap. Her mother brought her to her father's elder sister who lives in tarlac City together with her brother. She didnt wanted to go there for the reason, that the place where she's going has already gossips around the family... but inspite of it, she obediently and faithfully and never regreted it for her life! She laughed, she cried, she experienced a lot more in her aunt's place than anywhere she've been. She has the money, expensive things,food and clothes but everytime night falls... there she was, writing a thing called "diary" saying... "nothing could really compare and buy real happiness. And then decided one day, she have... she must be in School! She chose to go with her childhood bestfriend in Dagupan CIty to study BSCS (coz of the reason, Dagupans' seafoods and beach!lol) Years passed.. and she have seen her life with no progress at all, and there's the passport she's holding's expiration date's coming so she decided to use it at least once before it ends.. the easiest way, JAPAN.... She went in a promotion in Angeles, Pampanga and tried her luck to go to japan and be a singer in 6 months. She's not a good singer at all! But because of the promotion, the every day rehersals.. she passed in the audition and got the ARB and BOOM! ようこそ!!!!here comes Japan and... Khaye Garcia on net ;) Eventhough she promised herself to stay in Japan for only 6 months then go home, her heart didnt let her do that!She have met a guy 2 months mefore her visa expires in japan. To make the story short... She finished her 6 months visa as a entertainer then got married to that Japanese who caught not only her attention but her heart! Her married life didnt end up well, so after 4years of getting married, she've decided to cross a different part and start a new life again (in Japan) and so on........

Been REBORN but never BAPTIZED

I can't even remember when was the last time I posted anything here...
It's just that these past few days... weeks... months..years...perhaps!
That I actually a lil bit of confused with my ownself plus the stuffs that I've been crossing each passing day of my life..
I dont even recognized Khaye Garcia's been lost for somehow I couldnt explain how days, months, years have passed and knocking my head down realizes that I'm really have to get out of my shell and spill things out..
I couldnt bear this burden anymore..
Living a life full of struggles and sufferings cant really show the real me
which suppossed to be the happy-go-lucky gal who grew up on a lil town from a not so far away country..
Ive lived and survived for at least 26 years and 10 months
Things still the same..
it just goes out like this
the next day.. still the same
until I see myself going to NOWHERE!
I've enjoyed myself and my life being young
Being the youngest... the-so-called-spoiled-brat.. that was me
The kind of life grown without "a father" but a complete package brought by my grandmom was like living the life to the most!
YES!
I was like that then...
Been done what I've wanted to do...
Had what I wanted to have...
Until the day that my selfishness brought me here, to the place I've never imagined I would be...
The reason why I have to grow without a father
the reason why people have to judge me and my family and looked us that down
but still... here I am... up to now
For these past 7 years of my life living here in jpn I've learned much lessons that I have to decide what kind of life the other world has
It has full of surprises and excitements.... yet... failure for most of the people like me...
People had to judge me with my appearance since then...I'm already used to it
Im suffering with all the stupid decisions I've been making since then
Nothing nor no one to blame tho
For these passed years..
Ive learned how to act with what I wanna do
and learned its consequences...
I had flings... Ive been into relationships and ended not well
I've been married once and got divorced
and I really have learned a lot from it
..... I thought!
Just always been thinking that I'm doing the right thing coz following my heart than thinking a lot about decision making's the best one to choose good or bad
but I'm absolutely WRONG!
Everything happens after I decide something falls out and ends like a TRASH!
As if it tells me that I can't decide for myself for whatever plan or decision I make... I fail
Nothing's perfect
Nor no one's perfect...
I know that
but still...
why does it have to be this way?
Do I have to shout my rants every single day of my failing DAYS?!
or Do I really have to restart my life and go back from where I really have to stay and where I have to start my life all over again?
I couldnt ask anybody
People... yes... people
They're all here and there and everywhere to listen
but would they understand?!
would they really care?!
In my life I hvae been bitter hurt and sacrificed
I know what this LIFE'S all about
Why do I have to tell my hardships to the people when I actually know that we all have our own problems in life?!
I dont wanna run..
I dont even wanna face it..
for the consequences I know...
but what do I have to do?!
As I always been telling myself..
I'm tired and I really wanna go out and live a different path
but here I am... and here I am now...
Few months from now and another year will be added on my youth
or should i say I'm really getting ol but still no lessons learned at all?!
Damn life!
Damn me!