Me... at this moment

My life in a poem
a few pages is not enough
life seemed so happy
when really its been so rough
no one knows the truth
no one knows the lies
no one knows what goes on
no one can here the cries
coz the truth they cant handle
the lies they are soon to believe
something so convincing
something so easy to deceive
life is hard for all
all around people feel pain
sometimes for a moment
sometimes on and off like this rain
some people find it easy to talk
some people find it easy to let go
those girls so damn happy
I may look it although
sometimes life gets you down
sometimes life pushes you around
pulls you right back to the ground
pulls you to the corner without a sound
and that loneliness comes back
when your in a crowded room
and the fake you returns
all too soon
everyone falls in love
with what you are on the outside
when youre not really that person
but its too hard to come out of your hide
so you stay inside
till its too late to come back
the fake has consumed you
life has gone off track
coz soon before you know it
you dont know who you are
when really its all to simple
it all seems so farto pull yourself back out
to let that friend see your tears
let them know the real you
fill them in on your deepest fears
tell them of your past
tell them of that man
the one that created your sadness
the day it all began
tell them of that one night
where you thought you were to die
tell them of that one week
where you wished that he had tried
tell them of that one story
the one that haunts your dreams
the one that is so real
but in your head so it seems
tell them of that person
who believed everything he said
tell them of that on line
my god I wished you were dead
tell that special person
how it felt to feel scared
how it felt to be alone
watch the yelling if you dared
tell them how it feels
to be the only one that knows
how he really treats you
when the door is pulled closed
tell them what he did
what marks he left
on the inside on the outside
and the secrets you kept
tell them about that one guy
who was meant to keep you safe
the one that left you alone
when your heart began to race
the one that was meant to be there
to hear the tears fall
the one that was supposed to catch them
the one who would be there when you call
tell them where he went
tell them how you felt
tell them how the anger built up
and the anger that you dealt
tell that person how she went back
tell them what he did then
tell them how every feeling you have felt
has been written down in pen
tell them why you cant
talk about the truth
tell them why its hard
when you always feel so used
tell them why you laugh
when really you want to cry
tell them why you smile
when it feels like your about to die
tell them how bad it feels
when you see them holding hands
when you see the only person
that is keeping the pain still standing
tell them how it feels
knowing your pillow is the best friend
the one who knows all this stuff
knows how it feels to be at your end
tell them how every night
before you close your eyes
tell them how the pain leaks down
when the music dies
tell them about this
and maybe youll be fine
maybe something will change
maybe you just need time
maybe this s nothing
maybe e its just a phase
maybe it will all be over
in a matter of days
maybe if this poem is read
by someone that cares
maybe they can fix you
maybe theyll be there
maybe they might catch that tear
maybe that pillow will dry out
maybe it will be better
if that person finally finds out
or maybe it wont
and theyll just pretend they saw nothing
and keep moving forward
the fake you they start trusting
maybe if I keep standing still
and watch the world pass my by
maybe then I wont feel pain
maybe then I wont cry
but all I can do is hope
that its all in my fate
that one day it will change
before its too late..